miki’s brain

it’s easier to hold onto bad habits if you are ashamed of them constantly repeating the same pattern over and over again. I’m not exactly sure why, my guess is it’s because that poor self image convinces you that you deserve to live that way. But once you forgive yourself for it and hold genuine compassion for your choices your grip can finally loosen.

I think part of it is also that people often use the bad habits they’re ashamed of to deal with the shame they feel over them and it ends up a never ending cycle

the smallest artist i listen to? probably the bird outside my window

i like men that make things happen

no other man for me

i have the opposite of that “everyone is an npc” mentality people have embraced where i’m instead like. the person next to me in line has someone they can’t wait to go home to, the person picking up their mail has felt devastation before, everyone in this grocery store is doing their sunday shopping, maybe the person that just honked at me is having the worst day of their life, my neighbor has doctors appointments and favorite foods and a song they can’t stand to hear anymore… you are all fully realized complex people and that is overwhelming me on a spiritual level…

dont care if i sound corny or cliche but to love and be loved back and not having to second guess where u stand in someones heart is such a warm and safe feeling & everyone should have the luxury and pleasure of having it always