âŚ..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment
likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post
the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like.Â
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how terrifying metamorphosis must be for the caterpillar has no concept of what it is doing, or what a butterfly is, or what will happen to it as it spins itself the cocoon. we r more alike than different
things i would write about ava starr but i won't cause im a shit writer and scared of publishing anything including this post:
1. any hurt/comfort, panic attacks, injuries, loss of control, chronic pain etc cause it makes my heart ache and i love this feeling also ava needs a lot of hugs
2. smut about virigin!ava (honestly do we think she even had a chance to do it) when she phases because of the pleasure and gets like embarrassed but they make it work anyway
3. s l o w b u r n s
4. where the only thing that grounds her phasing and pain is the readers touch with the whole backstory how they figure it out tgt
5. domestic life, i need daily watchtower shots where they are like all big trauma bonding family that teases eachother maybe with other ships included all dynamics reader and ava protecting each other from horrible john walker jokes and alexi treating them as his adopted daughters
6. one bed trope. sorry but she is the perfect character for this especially if we include point 4 in this
7. story set in the void where one of them saves the other from their room and they get to bob together (also hurt/comfort probably)
if any writers here wanna steal some of those idea PLEASE DO IM BEGGING and TAG ME IN IT!!!! u can also take it for any other characters honestly if u want inspiration i dont care at all. also feel free to include me in any ava starr taglist or thunderbolts headcanons cause i feel like ive read everything multiple times already lmao
attending shauna and jeff's wedding as jackie's girlfriend (headcanons)
pairing: jackie taylor x f!reader
additional tags: post-rescue, shauna and jeff's wedding, fluff, girlfriend!jackie, college
author's notes: my first time writing hcs!! not sure i'm doing it right. btw i wanna thank everyone who left requests in my inbox. i'm currently getting my ass wooped by college but i promise i'll get around to all of them. i love ur ideas!!!
summary: three years after being rescued from the wilderness, you and jackie unexpectedly get invited to shauna and jeff's wedding.
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you were with her in your shared apartment.
it was small. one bedroom, which was all you needed, one bathroom, and a living room that blended into a kitchen â a poor excuse for a counter being the only indication of a separation between the two. in the living room, wooden floorboards, a thrifted dark green couch, and a coffee table completely taken over by your books and her scattered flashcards â spotless, perfectly straight handwriting in blue ink over index bristols, composing scribbled notes on something like neuroscience or psychology or something else you didnât really understand.
it wasnât the fanciest, but it was charming. and it was yours â yours and hers. and the best part: the building was only a short walk away from rutgers, and an even shorter drive, making it absolutely convenient for you both to get to class.
yeah, yeah â you knew going to the same college as your girlfriend might come off as a little codependent and needy, but you didnât care. not after everything youâd been through. not after the crash and the wilderness and almost losing her to the cruel canadian winter. you just didnât want to waste any more valuable time, didnât want to spend four years living away from her when life was that unpredictable.
her details were everywhere, all over the apartment. you saw her on the pink makeup bag left open on your dresser, overflowing with endless bottles of foundation and lip gloss. you saw her on the pile of CDs and records you kept by the player in the living room, your soft rock mixing with her bubblegum pop â a perfect representation of your overall dynamic as you skated between her nsync and britney and your the cranberries and the cure, which, somehow, just worked. she was all over the walls, on movie posters and pictures of the two of you together, smiling, leaned against each other, always touching, always reaching.
and, right now, she was next to you. both of your suitcases swung open on the bed, the creaking sound of the floorboards filling up your ears as she went back and forth, picking out enough outfits to spend the entire month in wiskayok, even though youâd only be there for the weekend.
âjesus, jackie.â you teased, a playful smile lingering on your lips. âyou know you actually have to be able to close the suitcase in order to bring it with you, right?â
she dismissed you with a quick hand wave.
âitâs called having options.â she packed yet another jacket, even though the weather girl on the news had stated abundantly that the next couple of days were going to be pleasantly warm.
you huffed. looked at the suitcases spread open on the bed. your eyes drifted next to them, to the white, square piece of cardstock paper laid out over the sheets, decorated by loopy letters written in purple.
shauna marie shipman and jeffrey sadecki request the honour of your presence at their marriage
it didnât feel real.
you stopped packing for maybe the third or fourth time, still stuck in disbelief.
âremind me again why weâre even going to this thing anyway?â you asked, sitting on the edge of the bed, jackieâs hands immediately flying to her hips as she stopped to look at you.
you didnât want to go. in fact, it was the last place you wanted to be.
going back to wiskayok meant having to see everyone again â your old teammates, the people whoâd seen you at your lowest, at your worst, at your most vile. the people whoâd been there for every unspeakable thing you did, for every irredeemable act you committed. it meant having to sit through stares of pity and judgment from your old neighbors, especially now that you were openly out with jackie, which only drew more attention to the two of you â and that was the last thing you needed.
but, more than that, you just really didnât want to see shauna fucking shipman.
because, before the crash, you and jackie were just friends â confusing, definitely homoerotic friends, estranged after a blurry first kiss incident (itâs just for practice, she said) and teenage angst â, plus, she was dating jeff.
and, as it turned out, shauna was fucking jeff behind her back.
it would have been fine if that was where it all stopped. if shauna had apologized, said it was a mistake. even if theyâd just kept up some dynamic of petty mutual silence for a few days or weeks, it would have been fine.
but, well, there was that big fight. shauna putting her down with harsh words. jackie leaving the cabin and refusing to come back.
you instinctively getting a surge of worry in the middle of the night and walking out to check on her, only to find her blue and shivering and quite literally on the brink of death.
thinking you had lost her. crying desperately, carrying her back to the cabin. shauna just standing in the corner of the room looking guilty and quiet as you and your teammates covered jackieâs limp body in blankets and jackets and everything remotely warm you could find.
miraculously, after scaring you half to death, jackie got better. you two worked it out, figured out the decade old tension between the two of you â it was love. and the months spent in the wilderness, with no way to run or hide from your feelings, forced you both to see that.
as time went by, a few months after the fight, when shaunaâs baby didnât make it, jackie found it in her to try again at a friendship, even though it never went back to what it used to be. they were never close again, especially when shauna took over the position of leader. they had been completely estranged since rescue.
but jackie was soft. she was kind. forgiving â more forgiving than you, for sure, because, when the invitation unexpectedly came in the mail, sheâs the one who wanted to go. sheâs the one who forced you to go dress shopping and helped you pick something out, sheâs the one who booked the hotel room for you two, refusing to stay at her motherâs house.
it took some convincing, of course. but it was jackie â youâd never been able to tell her no, anyway.
so, now, her voice was calm and her tone was patient as she answered your whine.
âbecause shaunaâs getting married. itâs not something that happens every day.â she said, ever so reasonable. âitâs a milestone.â
âbut sheâs getting married to jeff.â you did that thing you always did whenever you mentioned his name â scrunched up your face in disgust and poked out your tongue, faking nausea. jackie let out a breathy chuckle. âyou sure you wanna be there to see that? your ex best friend marrying your ex boyfriend?â
she laughed softly.
âwell, when you put it like that, it does sound like a horror show.â her hand moved up from her hip, gently cupping one side of your face, her tender thumb brushing against your cheek. âbut that baggage is in the past. and i have something way better now. you.â
you held back a smile.
âdonât start acting all adorable. iâm still mad about going.â your tone was completely devoid of any heat. instead, it was laced with amusement and softness. âflattery will get you nowhere.â
she leaned in and pressed a sweet, lingering, unfair kiss to your lips.
âmm.â she murmured against you. ânowhere at all?â
you stole another kiss, completely wrapped up in her scent and her touch, stuck in the everlasting trance that was being jackie taylorâs girlfriend.
âfine.â you muttered, feigning annoyance in your voice, but reaching out to pull her onto your lap. âmaybe itâll get you somewhere.â
jackie, who immediately tensed up when you actually got to the venue.
maybe she underestimated just how awkward this would be. walking in hand in hand with you and immediately squeezing your fingers, which were intertwined with hers, when she saw jeff in a black tuxedo, leaned over randyâs shoulder in order to make a joke that probably wasnât funny.
it got even worse after the ceremony started, when shauna walked down the aisle, in that uncharacteristically puffy, feminine, blindingly white dress.
jackie always tried to appear stronger than she was, deep in denial about everything that had happened in the wilderness, but you noticed every single time she subtly sought out comfort in you. you noticed when she cuddled up to you silently on the couch after you got home on particularly hard days like anniversaries. you noticed how she laid out a jacket for you whenever you two left the house during the winter, even though you didnât need her to remind you. you knew she had trauma, which she sometimes shared with you, but some things you just noticed.
just like you noticed the way her hand didnât leave your arm for even a second during the ceremony, her grip tightening around it during the vows, during the kiss. you knew it brought back bad memories.
so you stayed there, steadying her, silently offering her the strength she needed.
jackie, who didnât leave your side during the reception.
you couldnât believe it. there was an actual yellowjackets table â you, jackie, van, taissa, lottie, natalie. even misty. all of you, together again for the first time in three years, awkward silences that quickly turned into old friends catching up. or at least trying to.
jackieâs hand remained glued to yours under the tablecloth, holding on for dear life, tensing up whenever someone asked her a question or mentioned something about the ceremony.
when tai stood up and walked away towards the bar, van leaned over to whisper in your ear.
âi thought iâd be the most miserable bastard hereâŚâ she started, still clearly shaken over her breakup with tai after the rescue, but using her humor to hide it in the most van way possible. âbut tell me iâm not the only one who thinks shauna looks like sheâd rather be literally anywhere else.â
you let out an involuntary sigh. finally, someone commented on it. the subject quickly shifted from a two person conversation between you and van into the topic of interest at the table. tai came back a few minutes later, mojito in hand, and stated:
âi donât think iâve ever seen her look so⌠passive.â
natalie nodded.
âand that robotic fucking smile on her face?â she scoffed. âcreepier than the time she pointed the gun at mel.â
the comments kept flowing, and everybody seemed to be surprised at how⌠wifed up shauna looked. submissive, girly, delicate. completely different than the person the wilderness had turned into three years before.
but jackie stayed quiet. you didnât grasp exactly what it was that bothered her, just that something did. it couldâve been anything â the mentions of your time in the wilderness, the fact that her former best friend seemed completely unhappy and catatonic now, the stares from everybody else. the way mrs. sadecki had given her a tight hug earlier when they ran into each other in line at the buffet.
you didnât push, didnât ask, didnât alarm. just held her hand tighter, squeezing it, earning a small, barely noticeable smile from her.
when she tensed up even further, you leaned closer.
âwanna dance?â
jackie, who gripped your shoulders tightly as you danced.
the band played some ballad. most of the couples were out on the floor.
including the bride and groom.
you noticed the way jackie couldnât stand to look at them. the way she physically averted her gaze whenever shauna and jeff did so much as threaten to get in her field of view.
you pressed a sweet, tender kiss on her cheek, taking the fact that you were finally away from the others as an opportunity to lean in and whisper:
âdo you wanna leave?â your voice was soft, careful, attentive. âwe can always go back to the hotel.â
she shook her head.
âno. i think i just⌠need some air.â she said ever so quietly, those big, beautiful eyes troubled with something you couldnât quite place. âtake me outside?â
jackie, whose eyes were filled with unshed tears as you two stepped out of the venue.
âjax,â you reached over to gently caress her shoulder, your heart breaking from seeing her so upset, âwhatâs going on in there?â
she sniffed, a stubborn, stray tear rolling down her cheek and smudging her mascara.
she didnât talk.
âbaby, iâm here.â you said, still rubbing her skin softly, trying to soothe her. âi know youâre sad. i know how hard it is for you to be here tonight. seeing shauna like that must be tough, huh?â
then, jackie lifted her head a bit, sad eyes meeting yours.
âiâm not⌠itâs not that.â her voice came out charged, broken, heavy with the lump she carried in her throat.
âwhat is it, then?â you cupped her cheek. "you can tell me."
she stayed quiet for a second. looked down again, then back up. hesitated.
then, unexpected and abrupt, she threw her arms around you.
âgod,â she huffed against your ear, voice muffled, âiâm so grateful for you.â
you held her back, arms tightening around her figure, and pressed a kiss to her cheek as your face scrunched up in confusion.
âwhat?â
after a few moments, she pulled away. looked at you. really looked at you. analyzed your face, every detail, every nuance. tenderly brushed a strand of hair away from your eye.
âshauna looks⌠unrecognizable.â she finally said. âshe looks so miserable. so fake. not like herself at all.â
then a pause.
jackie pursed her lips, took a deep, shaky breath, and spoke again.
âthat was supposed to be me.â her eyes never left yours, still filled with tears, chin trembling adorably, heartwrenchingly. âthis was supposed to be my life.â
âbabyâŚâ
âif it hadnât been for you.â she stepped an inch closer, hand carefully grazing your jaw. âif you hadnât been there for me, if you hadnât been patient enough toâ to wait for me. till i was finally ready to come to terms with us⌠that wouldâve been me marrying jeff today. that wouldâve been me, sad, miserable, living a lie.â
then you understood.
jackie mightâve been overwhelmed to be there, sure. it mightâve been difficult for her to see the yellowjackets again, to sit through jeff and shaunaâs wedding, to pretend to ignore the stares directed her way.
but, above all, she was happy.
happy it wasnât her in shaunaâs place â when, if anything had been different, it probably would have been. happy to finally be living according to what she wanted, and not what other people expected from her.
happy to be with you. the one she loved. the one she truly wanted.
and it showed. it seeped through the way she grabbed your face with both hands now, tears rolling down her flushed cheeks, and pulled you into a kiss. it seeped through the way she looked at you, so lovingly, so carefully, so gratefully.
âi love you, jackie.â you reassured, guaranteed, promised. âiâm glad iâm the one here with you today.â
she pulled you into another hug, squeezing you tightly, never wanting to let you go.
âi love you too, baby.â the words came out whispered, fading into the warm night, just between the two of you.
she didnât let go. gripped you more. sunk her head into the curve of your neck and breathed in your scent like it gave her life meaning.
then a huff.
her voice sounded out muttered against your skin, muffled and syrupy. relieved.
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Summary: After graduating culinary school you have been building up your portfolio, to become a street level legend in the culinary world. And after years of hard work you get hired by a renowned michelin star restaurant Matthewsâ kitchen to help design a new menu thatâll star in their new brick and mortar in New York. And there you behold the new heiress of the Matthewsâ Kitchen, your boss, is your old situationship from culinary schoolâŚCharlotte Matthews.
A/N: i consider this the calm before the storm âď¸ but fun like fluffy cute scenes coming up in these next few chapters :)
Charlotte breezes into the restaurant that morning like she owns the sun. Her hair is soft around her shoulders, lips still tinged pink, and thereâs a glow to her, flushed and lit up from within, like someone whoâs slept well, been kissed stupid, and woke up absolutely obsessed with the person responsible.
Lena takes one look at her and snorts into her clipboard. âOh,â she says flatly, falling into step beside her. âLove that you had fun last night.â
Charlotte flinched, blinking fast. âWhat?â
Lena lifts a brow, then just tips her chin slightly toward Charlotteâs neck. She freezes. Right. The marks. The obvious constellation of purpling hickeys creeping up from her collarbone, where her button-down doesnât quite close all the way. Charlotte instinctively pulls her blazer tighter, but itâs a lost cause.
âJesus,â she mutters, face blooming crimson.
Lena just laughs and tosses her a smug look. âNo judgment. Just⌠wow. I havenât seen you smile like this since⌠maybe ever.â
Charlotte tries to school her face, but she canât help it, the goofy grin creeps back in, her cheeks aching from how often sheâs smiled since waking up to the sound of your soft voice, since kissing you again and again, since watching you fall asleep with your hair splayed on the couch, the most beautiful thing Charlotteâs ever seen.
âI justâŚâ She exhales dreamily. âLast night wasâŚâ
âYeah, I can see that,â Lena says, holding the door open. âYou look like someone who fell face-first into love.â
âI didnât fall,â Charlotte huffs, stepping through. âI walked. Confidently.â
Lena cackles. The joy, however, is short-lived. Lena flips through her clipboard as they approach the staff office, and says in a much-too-casual voice, âAnyway, youâll want to get changed. Youâve got back-to-back corporate meetings all day â starts in twenty. Iâll get you coffee. It ends around six.â
Charlotte stops dead in her tracks. âWhat?â
âAll-day meetings,â Lena repeats, like she didnât just crush her very soul. âRemember? Aspen site visit prep, budget finalizations, branding updates, new vendor contractsââ
âNo.â Charlotte groans, pressing a palm to her face like sheâs in mourning. âYouâre telling me⌠I donât get to see her all day?â
âNot unless she shows up in the boardroom with a PowerPoint and a neck covered in matching hickeys,â Lena teases.
Charlotte exhales sharply through her nose, pinching the bridge of it.
Sheâs still warm and tingly from the morning. Still half-drunk on your kiss. All she wantsâall she wants âis to find you again, press you against the kitchen counter and kiss you until her knees give out. Or sit with you over coffee. Or tell you everything sheâs feeling. Orâ
God, the other things she wants to do.
She shifts where she stands, suddenly warm under her collar. Her blazer feels too tight, and so does the waistband of her slacks. Her brain is already drifting in very non-corporate directions.
âIâm going to die in that conference room,â Charlotte mutters under her breath.
Lena pats her shoulder. âWell. At least youâll die smug and well-kissed.â
Charlotte glares half-heartedly and mumbles, âDonât remind me.â
But even as she sulks toward her office, her mind is already elsewhere, picturing your laugh, the way you kissed her like you meant it, and the promise of the next time. And if her face stays flushed the entire walk down the hallway? Well. Thatâs between her, her hickeys, and God.
The conference room is sterile, white-walled, and humming with polite tension, suits, laptops, polished shoes. A fortress of numbers and strategy. Charlotte sits at the head of the table, pen clicking in a slow, rhythmic beat as the morning meeting drones on. Her blazer is buttoned, her hair pinned just right, but her expression is all steel. Focused. Sharp.
The regional director offers a nervous projection of next quarterâs numbers. Someone from corporate marketing pushes a slide deck with bold fonts and safe ideas. An investor suggests pivoting the Aspen concept toward something âmore approachable.â
Charlotte just raises a single brow.
ââApproachableâ isnât our problem,â she says coolly, flipping a page on her notepad. âOur problem is a confused brand identity. You canât market excellence if the messaging dilutes it. The Aspen location is supposed to feel like exclusivity, escape, elevation. You want locals and tourists to crave it, not find it familiar.â
Silence. Then someone clears their throat. âRight. So⌠stronger narrative?â
âStronger everything,â Charlotte replies, already noting down a to-do list. âWeâll handle the narrative. Focus on sourcing. I want hyperlocal produceâblueberries, dairy, microgreensâand I want supplier contracts solidified by end of next week.â
She doesnât raise her voice. She doesnât need to. People nod. Investors nod. Sheâs not just being heard, sheâs being followed. By the end of the second hour, thereâs a collective understanding: Charlotte Matthews is not to be argued with in her domain.
But even as she lays down strategies with the confidence of someone whoâs built empires before lunch, her fingers twitch by her side. Her mind wanders to skirt hems and soft lips and the way you said her name last nightâŚbreathless, like a prayer. She signs off on a vendor agreement. Cross-checks two proposals. Taps her pen. And when the clock finally clicks to 12:01 PM, sheâs up from her chair like a shot.
âLunch?â one of the investors offers.
âIâm booked,â she says, already halfway to the door.
No explanations. No apologies. Just a storm of perfume and heels down the hallâCharlotte Matthews, unstoppable force and, currently, girl on a mission. Because sheâs not thinking about budgets anymore.
Sheâs thinking about your voice. Your smile. The hickeys she left behind. And maybeâŚmaybe if sheâs lucky, the way it might feel to kiss you again in broad daylight. Lunch meetings can wait. Charlotte has better things to do.
You are perched on the prep table, legs swinging gently as you scribble into a grease-stained notepad. Your brows are furrowed in concentration, surrounded by chaosâhalf-tested appetizers, smudged ramekins, notes scrawled on parchment like a mad scientist in a kitchen lab.
Your sweater slips slightly off one shoulder, revealing the faintest purple imprint blooming near her collarbone. Hickeys. Charlotteâs hickeys. Charlotte sees you before you see her.
And time just slows down.
The midday light filters through the back windows of the test kitchen, hitting you just right. Ink-stained fingers. A bit of flour on your cheek. Lips slightly parted, mouthing some silent measurement conversion. Charlotte has sat through hours of business strategy, budget breakdowns, and vendor negotiations, but nothing prepared her for this.
Not the way you look. Not the way her own heart kicks like itâs remembering last night all over again.
You glance up and immediately flush. âHey,â you say, a little shy, a little smug, eyes darting to the spot just beneath Charlotteâs collar where the edge of a hickey peeks through.
Charlotte clocks it instantly and gives a slow, knowing smile. âYouâre staring.â
You laugh under your breath, cheeks burning. âYouâre showing off.â
âMaybe,â Charlotte hums, closing the distance to stand between your legs. She doesnât kiss you, though she aches to, just pulls you into a long hug, burying her face in your shoulder. Her voice is muffled, playful. âYou smell like caramelized onions.â
âOh yeah, but I thought you said you looooove that,â You tease, hugging her back, grinning against Charlotteâs hair.
âI really do.â
They partâŚbarely, and Charlotte offers her hand, eyes still soft with something vulnerable and awestruck.
âLunch?â
You hop down. âHell yeah. Iâm starving.â
They head toward the back door, teasing and laughing, but the second theyâre alone in the alleyway, out of sightâCharlotteâs hands are on your waist, spinning you in one smooth, urgent motion, and kissing you hard.
You gasp against her mouth, stunned and already undone. Itâs a greedy, teeth-clashing kiss, the kind thatâs been sitting under Charlotteâs skin for hours, building up through board meetings and daydreams and that damn hickey showing on your neck like a secret promise.
You melt into her, fingers twisting in Charlotteâs blazer, standing on your toes like you want more, closer, deeper. By the time they break apart, breathless and wide-eyed, Charlotteâs hand lingers on your jaw, thumb brushing softly over your lips.
You were dazed. âWhat was that for?â
Charlotte swallows, eyes still locked on yours. âFor surviving five hours of hell,â she whispers. âAnd looking too good for your own damn good.â
You laugh, the sound breathless and sweet. âNext time,â you murmur, tugging Charlotte forward by the lapel, âletâs skip the meetings and just do this all day.â
Charlotte grins, hopelessly in love. She doesnât say yes, but the kiss she gives you next makes it pretty clear. The little bistro near the market is half-empty for the lunch rush, soft jazz humming in the background. Lottie doesnât even glance at the other side of the boothâshe slides in right next to you without hesitation, hip to hip, knees brushing under the table.
You raise a brow. âThereâs a whole other side, you know.â
âI know,â Lottie says simply, leaning back like this is the only place she belongs.
The server drops off their sandwiches and roasted veggie soup, and they start sharing bites like itâs second nature, Lottie trading you a forkful of her salad for a crisp fry, stealing a piece of bread without asking.
Youâre in a teasing mood, spinning some ridiculous story about the time a batch of soufflĂŠs in culinary school rose perfectlyâonly for the fire alarm to go off and make everyone think the place was burning down. Lottie laughs so hard she nearly chokes on her soup, hand covering her mouth as her eyes crinkle.
âYouâre terrible,â she says, still giggling.
âIâm hilarious,â You correct, nudging her shoulder.
And then Lottie, like itâs the most natural thing in the world, leans in and presses a kiss to your cheek. Itâs soft, warm, and entirely unhurried.
You freeze for half a beat, then turn to her with a flushed face. âYou canât keep kissing me. My face is going to stay permanently red.â
Lottie just grins, her eyes bright and a little mischievous. âMaybe thatâs my plan.â
You tried to roll your eyes, but it comes out more like a shy smile, one Lottie tucks away in her memory like a treasured recipe sheâll never forget. And for the rest of lunch, every time you say something funny or reach for her hand, Lottie looks at you like sheâs exactly where she wants to be. They stroll back toward the car, the sun warm against their backs and the smell of fresh bread from the bakery still clinging to their clothes.
Lottieâs walking slower than usual, her hand brushing against yours like sheâs trying to draw the moment out. When they reach the parking lot, Lottie pauses, fingers drumming against her keys, and looks at you with this soft, almost pouty expression. âI donât want to go back,â she says, voice dipping into a quiet whine.
You laugh, shaking your head. âWell⌠we technically donât have to do anything.â
Lottieâs eyes widen like a light bulb just went off in her head. Then, slowly, a grin spreads across her face. âSo true.â
The next thing you know, theyâre both in the car, doors shut, the air between them suddenly electric. Lottie leans over the console, one hand finding your jaw, the other resting on your thigh. She kisses uouâhard, urgentâlike sheâs been holding it in all afternoon.
You melt instantly, fingers curling into the fabric of Lottieâs sweater. The taste of iced tea and the faint sweetness of the pastry they shared still lingers, and itâs dizzying in the best way. Lottie deepens the kiss, thumb brushing against your cheek, like sheâs afraid to let go.
The windows are fogging just a little, and the hum of the outside world feels miles away. When they finally pull back, both of them are flushed and grinning, breathless in the kind of way that makes going back to work seem utterly impossible. The kiss turns slow for half a second, just long enough for Lottie to tug you closer by the waist, before it tips right back into heat. Your hand slips into Lottieâs hair, fingers curling, and Lottieâs answering groan sends a shiver down your spine.
The center console isnât even a barrier anymore; Lottie leans fully into you, her lips moving with a kind of hunger that makes your pulse trip. Her hand trails down your side, thumb brushing the hem of your skirt, teasing without crossing.
You break for a breath, but Lottieâs mouth is already finding your jaw, then the soft spot below your ear, and the sound you make, quiet, caughtâhas Lottie dizzy. The carâs Bluetooth chimes, breaking the spell.
Incoming call: Lena.
Lottie freezes, forehead still pressed to yours. They stare at each other, breathless. âDonât answer it,â you murmur, but Lottieâs mouth is curling into something between a smirk and a groan of frustration.
âSheâll hunt me down if I donât,â Lottie mutters, reluctantly leaning away to jab at the dashboard controls.
Her voice, when she answers, is an octave higher and far too casual. âHey, Lena.â
Meanwhile, you are sitting there, cheeks flushed, lips kiss-swollen, trying not to laugh at how painfully obvious it is what they were just doing. Lenaâs voice filters through the speakers, all brisk and business-like. âJust making sure youâll be back in time for the three oâclock investor call.â
Lottie swallows, eyes still locked on you. âYep. On my way.â
She hangs up, then blows out a breath and gives you the most unrepentant grin. âWhere were we?
A/N: youâre welcome to everyone, this was also posted so @honeysweet56 continues writing so youâre welcome to the world for that too
Warning: not nsfw idk it gets kinda heated?
Charlotteâs fingers linger on yours, just enough to make your pulse stutter, just enough to make you forget the food entirely. Her thumb grazes your knuckle. Slow. Soft. Like sheâs daring herself.
You meet her eyes.
And God, sheâs looking at you like that again. Like you hung the moon. Like youâre the only thing in the room she wants. You donât say anything. You canât. Your chest is too full of nerves and heat and the ache of finally.
âIââ Charlotte starts, then falters. Her lips twitch into a nervous smile. âI think about that night all the time. About us. About what we were. About what we couldâve been.â
Your breath catches.
You study her face, the flush climbing her cheeks, the way her lashes sweep downward when sheâs overwhelmed. You know this face. You remember this face. The first time you kissed her, she looked just like thisâŚunsure, breathless, hoping.
You scoot your chair back, slow, deliberate. Charlotte sits up straight like sheâs startled, but she doesnât move. You walk around the table and pause beside her, letting the silence stretch. She tilts her face up toward you, wide-eyed, lips parted.
âYouâre not gonna drop a spatula this time, are you?â you tease, your voice a low murmur.
Charlotte lets out a quiet, breathless laugh. âNo. But I might forget how to breathe again.â
Your heart is racing. You reach for her face, thumb brushing her jaw, fingers curling gently beneath her chin. Charlotte leans into the touch, her eyes fluttering closed for a heartbeat, and thatâs all the invitation you need.
You kiss her.
Soft. Sure. Full of all the unspoken things between you. Itâs not rushed or messy. Itâs warm. Familiar. Like youâve done this a thousand times in your dreams. And maybe she has too, because she kisses you back with this quiet desperation, like sheâs been waiting forever.
Her hands slide to your waist, holding you there, grounding you. When you pull back, your foreheads touch. Charlotteâs smile is dazed. âOkay,â she breathes. âOkay, yeah. That was even better than I remember.â
You canât help your grin. âI donât know⌠I think we should test it again just to be sure.â
And Charlotte who is flushed and glowing and completely smitten, just laughs and pulls you back in. Charlotte breaks the kiss first. Not out of hesitation, but something heavier, something that lives in her chest and has for years. Her brows draw slightly, and she exhales like sheâs trying to steady herself.
âIâm sorry,â she says, voice barely above a whisper.
Your eyebrows scrunch in confusion. âFor what?â
âFor always running,â she says, her hands still at your waist like she doesnât want to let go. âFor never staying long enough to actually⌠try. For letting you give so much, and never giving enough back. I think part of me was always waiting for you to realize you deserved more than me.â
You study her face, the vulnerability there, the regret, the earnestness. Youâve waited a long time to hear this. To feel this from her.
You smile at her gentle, a little crooked, and lift your hand to her cheek, brushing your thumb along her flushed skin. âLottieâŚâ
She leans into your touch instinctively, eyes fluttering closed for a second. âWe were kids,â you say softly. âI was tangled up in still being obsessed with my ex, kinda in love with you, and chasing something that didnât even want to be caught. You didnât want me, not then. And my exââ You laugh under your breath. âMy ex was a trainwreck. It wasnât ever gonna work. Not with all that chaos.â
Charlotte opens her eyes again, and you see the way they shine a little, glassy and raw. âBut we needed to grow,â you continue. âWe had to. And honestly? I like this version of us more anyways.â
Charlotte swallows hard, a soft breath hitching in her throat. âYeah?â
You nod, smile widening. âYeah. So shut up and kiss me again.â
And this time, you lean in firm and certain, and Charlotte melts into it like sheâs been waiting her whole life for this second chance. Because maybe she has. Her hands slide up to your face, holding you like youâre something precious, something sheâs terrified of ruining again, but this time, she kisses you like she means to stay.
And for the first time, you both believe she will.
The kiss shifts slow turns eager, gentle turns greedy. Charlotteâs fingers twitch against your waist before she slides them up, gripping your hips like sheâs grounding herself, like youâre the only thing keeping her upright. And maybe you are, because the moment your tongue brushes hers, she lets out the softest whimper, like the years apart are suddenly catching up to her in the form of sheer, physical need.
Youâre pulling her closer without even thinking, pressing flush to her body as your hands roam, up her back, into her hair, down again to the soft dip of her waist. Charlotte gasps as your teeth graze her bottom lip, and she clutches at your sweater like itâs a lifeline.
And then it really unravels.
Because once she feels you suck just below her jawline, slow and wet and possessive, she groans â low and broken, and her nails dig into your sides. âOh my god,â she breathes against your mouth. âYouâre so unfair.â
You smirk, already kissing along her jaw, down the side of her throat where her pulse races under your lips. âPayback.â
âFor what?â she gasps, tilting her head to give you more access.
âFor making me wait years for this.â
She makes a noise thatâs half-laugh, half-moan, and it dies in her throat when you suck another mark into the skin just below her ear, a messy hickey that will definitely show tomorrow, and maybe thatâs the point.
Her hands are in your hair now, tugging just enough to make you gasp against her skin, and then sheâs kissing you again hard, uncoordinated, desperate. She nips your lip, pulls back just enough to whisper, âYou donât know what you do to me.â
âTry me,â you whisper back, breathless, mouth already trailing down the open column of her neck.
She gasps again when your teeth graze her collarbone.
Itâs all heat and friction and hands everywhere. She pushes you gently toward the kitchen counter, like sheâs trying to slow things down but sheâs still chasing your mouth between each heartbeat. Your hips lock between her thighs, and itâs intoxicating how good she smells, how soft she is under your palms, how hot her mouth feels against yours when she kisses like sheâs finally, finally allowed to want you this much.
By the time you both pull apart you both are panting, flushed, lips kiss-bitten and pupils blown. Charlotteâs blouse is wrinkled beyond repair, her hair slightly mussed, and the side of her neck a constellation of fading red. You grin, thumbing one of the love bites like youâre proud of your work. âHope you brought a turtleneck.â
She breathes out a laugh, but sheâs still dazed. âHope you brought concealer.â
You both just stare at each other for a beat, still catching your breath, and itâs all there. The history, the craving, the love you both kept in your throats for way too long. And now, thereâs no denying any of it.
You roll up your sleeves and take Charlotteâs plate before she can protest. âSit,â you tell her. âChefâs rules. You cook, I clean.â
Charlotte raises an eyebrow as she leans back against the counter, arms crossed, eyes tracking your every move. âSince when do you follow rules?â
You shrug, rinsing off the dishes. âI follow the ones I like. And I like the idea of impressing you with my dishwashing technique.â
She snorts. âYou think youâre gonna impress me with soap and a sponge?â
âIâve got great wrist action.â
Charlotte chokes on her coffee. You glance over your shoulder innocently. âWhat? Iâm just saying. Youâve seen my knife work.â
Her cheeks are pink again. âYouâre ridiculous.â
You shoot her a grin, stacking a pan onto the drying rack. âAnd yet, here you are. Still standing there like youâre mesmerized.â
Charlotte watches you a moment longer, then steps in beside you, her hip brushing yours lightly as she grabs a towel. âFine,â she murmurs. âYou wash, I dry. Teamwork.â
You smile and nudge her gently. âTeamwork makes the dream work.â
She hums, low and pleased, as she dries the plate you just handed her. Itâs domestic in a way that feels dangerous, like youâve done this a hundred times before. Like this could be a ritual. A rhythm.
Charlotte hands you the towel and leans in slightly, her voice quieter now. âThanks for not running this morning.â
You glance at her, eyebrows raised. âWhy would I run?â
âBecause I made things weird. I also was staring,â she admits, cheeks pink. âBUT only because you looked⌠perfect.â
Thereâs a beat where neither of you move. Then you reach past her for a mug, face ghosting close to her cheek. âYouâre really bad at hiding how much you like me.â
Charlotteâs breath catches. âIâm not trying to hide it.â
That earns her a smile, soft, but a little crooked. You hand her the last dish and pull the plug on the sink, shaking off your hands. She sets the plate down, drying her hands, and then straightens up, like sheâs remembering something.
âOkay,â she says, clearly trying to refocus. âWe have plans.â
âOh?â You arch a brow. âWhat kind of plans? Plans that require you looking all serious and flustered at the same time?â
Charlotteâs lips twitch. âNo plans that require you getting dressed. Something warm. Comfortable. Sneakers.â
You narrow your eyes, intrigued. âThis sounds suspiciously like cardio.â
She grins. âNo comment.â
âCharlotteââ
âYouâll love it,â she insists, stepping closer. âPromise.â
You pretend to hesitate, tapping your chin. âI donât know. You already seduced me with pancakes. Anything after that is just showing off.â
Charlotte smirks, and for a second it looks like she might say something bold, something reckless. But instead, she tucks a stray piece of your hair behind your ear and murmurs, âTen minutes. Meet me by the car.â
And before you can tease her again, sheâs gone. leaving you standing there with a towel in your hand and your pulse doing something very stupid. You meet her by the car like she asked, bundled in a warm sweater and sneakers. Charlotteâs already waiting by the passenger door, leaning casually against it, the mountain sun haloing her in soft gold.
She looks you over with a satisfied smile. âPerfect,â she says, like she expected nothing less.
âYou know,â you tease, sliding into the seat, âif this is a secret murder spot, youâre doing a great job of making it feel romantic.â
Charlotte laughs as she starts the engine. âRelax. Itâs a vendor visit.â
You glance at her suspiciously. âYou say that like itâs supposed to sound normal.â
âIt is,â she says, grinning. âSort of.â
The drive is winding and scenic, all rolling meadows, distant snowy peaks, and stretches of trees that blush copper and amber this time of year. When Charlotte finally pulls up to a family-run farm with rows of berry bushes, a greenhouse, and the smell of fresh bread wafting through the air, you feel your eyes widen. âThis is a vendor?â
âOne of the oldest ones,â Charlotte says, beaming as she climbs out. âThey supply a lot of the seasonal produce to the Aspen location. But they also let me visit whenever I want because⌠well, they love me.â
You follow her up the dirt path to a wooden farmhouse, where an older woman in an apron bursts through the screen door and yells, âCHARLOTTE MATTHEWS, YOU DIDNâT TELL ME YOU WERE BRINGING SOMEONE BEAUTIFUL!â
Charlotte blushes and waves. âHi, Carla!â
The woman, Carla, hugs Charlotte fiercely, then turns to you with a sly grin. âYou must be the one. The consultant.â
Charlotte coughs. âCarlaââ
Carla waves a hand. âOh hush. Come. Youâre picking blueberries and eating cheese and thatâs final.â
The next hour is a blur of sunlight, laughter, and dirt under your nails as you wander rows of blueberry bushes with a wooden crate in your arms. Charlotte moves between them with a grace that surprises you, like this isnât her first time, like this place is a memory sheâs revisiting.
âYouâre awfully good at this,â you say, popping a berry into your mouth.
âI used to come here during breaks,â she says, brushing her fingers along the leaves. âSometimes I just⌠needed quiet.â
You nod. âI get that.â
She glances over at you then, eyes soft. âFeels different now.â
Your heart flips. You drop a few more berries into your crate and distract yourself by changing the subject. âSo what else is on the agenda?â
âOh, youâll see.â
Carla insists you both try a spread of fresh ricotta and crusty bread with figs, tomatoes, and basil. You sit under a canopy near the stables, snacking and watching the horses graze nearby.
âThis is⌠insane,â you murmur. âLike a dream.â
Charlotte looks proud. âThought youâd like it.â
Then she gestures to the nearby paddock. âAnd now for part two.â
You freeze, looking from her to where she was gesturing. âPlease donât say horseback riding.â
Charlotte smirks. âOkay, I wonât say it.â
Minutes later youâre both being helped onto horses by a farmhand, and you shoot her a narrow-eyed glare from atop your very tall, very real horse.
âYouâre enjoying this.â
âImmensely,â she grins, adjusting her helmet. âBesides, itâs romantic.â
You scoff. âOnly if I donât fall off and break my neck.â
âThen youâll have to hold on tight.â
You pause. âTo the horse?â
She meets your gaze with a mischievous smile. âYou fall youâre riding with me cowgirl. Youâre holding tight onto me.â
Your stomach flutters, and not because of the horse. The trail is quiet, winding through tree-lined paths and open fields. Charlotte rides close beside you, and every now and then you feel her eyes on you. Not in a way that makes you self-consciousâin a way that makes you feel seen.
When you loop back to the farm hours later, cheeks flushed and hair windblown, she looks at you like sheâs trying to remember this exact version of you for the rest of her life. You hop down, a little awkwardly, and hand the reins back to the farmhand.
Charlotte catches you by the elbow as you steady yourself. âYou okay?â she asks.
âYeah.â You look up at her. âThanks for today. This was⌠really special.â
She shrugs, like itâs no big deal. âYouâre special.â
Itâs quiet for a few minutes. Then you grin, stepping past her. âCâmon, Matthews. You gonna feed me again or what?â
Charlotte lets out a breath, somewhere between a laugh and a sigh. âOh, Iâve got plans.â
The front door swings open to the warm scent of garlic and rosemary. You step inside, cheeks still flushed from the day, wind tangled in your hair. The house is quiet, lights dimmed, soft jazz floating through the air like a memory.
You slip off your shoes and glance around âCharlotte?â
âUpstairs!â her voice calls.
You head to your room to shower, the warmth rinsing away the dust and sunlight of the day. You dress slower than usual, slipping into a soft ivory sweater tucked loosely into a flowy skirt, your hair damp and curling at the ends. Youâre not sure why youâre putting in this much effort. Except, you are.
You want her to look at you like that again â like she did when you reached for blueberries, when you were laughing on horseback, like you were something irreplaceable. When you come downstairs, you freeze.
The table is set.
Not just set, curated. Candlelight flickers in vintage glass votives. Two wine glasses gleam with something dark and velvety. In the center of the table: a dish you havenât seen in years.
You widen your eyes. Charlotte steps in from the kitchen, wiping her hands on a towel, then she sees youâand she stares. âWow,â she breathes. âYou look⌠I mean, I was hoping youâdâokay, yeah. Wow.â
You smile, heart skipping. âIs thatâ?â
She nods. âPine nut chicken with roasted lemon asparagus and truffle mashed potatoes.â
Your eyes widen. âWe havenât made this sinceââ
âSince we were twenty-one,â Charlotte finishes. âSince you kissed me in the kitchen.â
You laugh softly. âI remember. You dropped the spatula.â
âYou bit my lip,â she murmurs, stepping a little closer. âI forgot how to breathe.â
The air shifts. Softer. Charged. You glance at the table. âSo this isâŚ?â
âA dinner,â Charlotte says. âA thank you. For coming. For helping. For today.â
âFor today?â you tease, nudging her gently. âOr the fact that I didnât fall off a horse?â
âBoth,â she grins.
You settle into your seat as Charlotte pours the wine. She sits across from you, wearing a sleek, deep emerald blouse youâve never seen before and soft makeup that makes her look almost ethereal in the candlelight. She was trying tonight. You can see it in the set table, in her perfect plating, in the way her eyes flicker to you every few seconds like sheâs memorizing every detail.
You take a bite and groan softly. âStill perfect.â
Charlotte beams. âItâs not just the food.â
You glance up, cheeks warm. She meets your eyes for a long, unbroken second. No more teasing. No more hiding. Just you. Her. And a table between you that feels like itâs shrinking.
âI thought about that night for weeks,â you finally say. Your voice is low, honest. âThat kiss.â
Charlotteâs throat bobs. Her voice is barely above a whisper. âMe too.â
You both fall into silence, but itâs the kind that hums with potential. Like one breath too close and itâll tip. Then Charlotte reaches across the table, her fingers brushing yours. A question in her eyes she doesnât voice yet. And youâŚyou donât pull away.
A/N: almost combined this chapter and the next one together but it felt too long đ next chapter coming tmm tho đŤśđź
Youâre still staring at Natalieâs last photo when the knock comes. Three soft taps against the guest room door. You flinch like youâve been caught doing something you shouldnât.
Your thumb fumbles over the screen, closing the message like itâs hot to the touch, and your voice wobbles when you answer, âYeah?â
The door creaks open, and thereâs Charlotte, out of her corporate blazer, in an oversized sweater and leggings, hair damp from a shower and curling around her face.
âHey.â Sheâs holding two mugs, steam curling from both. âDidnât mean to scare you.â
âYou didnât,â you say a little too fast, and she eyes you like she doesnât fully believe that.
Charlotte steps in anyway, gaze flickering from the dark screen of your phone to the soft pink still lingering on your cheeks. She lifts one mug in offering. âChamomile. I made too much.â
You smile and take it. âThanks.â
Charlotte lingers in the doorway a second longer, biting her lip like sheâs working something over in her head. Then she just blurts it out, âDo you wanna⌠watch a movie or something? I can put on something dumb. Or nostalgic. Or both. Iâm not picky.â
Your heart stutters. Sheâs still got that open, hopeful look about her, like sheâs offering more than just a movie night. Like sheâs saying I like having you near. And you, still buzzing with the electricity of Natalieâs text, nod quickly. âYeah. Sure. Sounds perfect.â
Charlotte gives you a slow, amused smile, like sheâs clocking the tension in your shoulders and the way youâre gripping the mug like a life raft.
âYou okay?â she asks gently.
You tuck your phone into your pocket like itâs radioactive. âMhm.â
Charlotte doesnât press. She just turns on her heel and leads the way to the cozy den, where she queues up something familiar, a rom-com you both half-watched in culinary school The Proposal, mostly during hangovers and stress baking breaks.
You sink into the plush couch beside her, your knees brushing now and then. The movie plays. You talk during half of it, the kind of running commentary that dissolves into laughter and mimicked lines and teasing. But somewhere along the second act, the words run out.
You both go quiet. Not tense. Not awkward. Just⌠comfortable. The mug grows cold in your hands. Charlotte shifts, and you let yourself lean into her ever so slightly.
She doesnât move away. Eventually, your eyes flutter closed. And Charlotteâs do, too. By the time the credits roll, the two of you are asleep on the couch, tangled in the kind of closeness that asks for nothing and says everything.
Charlotte wakes first.
The room is dim, lit only by the soft, blue glow of the TV menu screen looping idle trailers. Her neck aches slightly from the way her head tilted against the back of the couch, but she doesnât move, not when youâre curled so perfectly into her side, breath warm against her collarbone, fingers unconsciously tangled into the hem of her sweater.
Sheâs not sure how long she just lays there, heart pounding softly in her chest, but itâs long enough for the quiet to settle. God, look at you. Charlotte lets her eyes trace the curve of your cheek, the slack softness of your mouth, the way youâve absolutely melted into her. Her fingers twitch before she gives in, brushing a few stray hairs from your face with delicate care. Like youâll vanish if she touches you too roughly.
And thatâs when your phone buzzes. Just once. Then again. Charlotteâs gaze flicks to it instinctively, barely even thinking about it. Your lockscreen lights up with a FaceTime banner:
Natalie !!! is callingâŚ
Her stomach drops. Her body goes hot with something molten and bitterâ something she hasnât let herself feel in years, not like this. Not since the last time she loved someone who could choose someone else.
She FaceTimes you?
The thought hits like a truck. Charlotte swallows hard, eyes still fixed on the glowing banner as it buzzes once more and then goes silent. Her heart races, not just from the jealousy, but from what it means. Thisâthis person who gets to call you baby, who gets to send you pictures that make you blush, who gets to exist in your phone screen in a way Charlotte hasnât been allowed to in yearsâthis girl could ruin everything Charlotteâs trying to rebuild.
No. Not this time. You stir lightly beside her, but not enough to wake. And Charlotte watches you for a beat longer, her mind suddenly spinning with a new kind of clarity.
You needs to know she is all you need. That she see you. That sheâs always seen you. No one else gets to win you. Not again. Not this time.
Charlotte slips out from under you gently, grabbing the throw blanket to tuck around you. Then she pads quietly out of the room, eyes sharp, breath steady. Itâs time to up the ante.
No more waiting. Sheâs going to make you hers. Officially. And sheâs going to make sure Natalie never stands a chance. The kitchen is already warm with the scent of browning butter and cinnamon.
Charlotte moves with practiced precision, slicing strawberries with a little more force than necessary, her knife tapping too loudly against the cutting board. A pan hisses behind her as batter hits it, a puff of steam rising into the air. Sheâs cooking like sheâs racing a clock no one can see. Like if she keeps her hands busy, the thoughts in her head wonât boil over.
She needs a win. She needs to remind you why youâre here. Why she brought you. Why itâs always been her. Not Natalie.
Charlotte mutters something under her breath and reaches for a whisk with a kind of tension that could snap steel. Behind her, soft footsteps echo on the hardwood. You step into the kitchen doorway, sleep-lined and still dressed in last nightâs clothes, blinking in the light. Youâre alone on the couch. No blanket over your shoulders. No Charlotte beside you.
Your eyes land on her immediately, the stiffness in her shoulders, the way her jaw clenches even as she flips a perfect golden pancake onto a plate. She doesnât hear you yet. Or maybe sheâs pretending not to.
And you know this version of Charlotte. This is angry cooking Charlotte. Distract-herself-before-she-says-something-dangerous Charlotte. You saw it once after a bad phone call with her father during culinary school. Again when her ex sent her a wedding invite. And nowâŚ
You step toward her quietly. âLottie?â your voice is soft, careful.
Charlotte jumps just slightly, startled. âOhâhey. Morning.â She wipes her hands on a towel quickly, not quite meeting your eyes. âI, uh⌠I figured youâd be hungry.â
You cross the kitchen slowly and stop just behind her. âAre you okay?â you ask.
Charlotte lets out a humorless laugh, brushing hair from her face. âOf course Iâm okay. Just needed to, you know. Cook.â
You donât push with words. Instead, you step forward and wrap your arms around her from behind, a loose, comforting hug that settles around her waist. And thatâs it. Thatâs the moment.
Charlotteâs whole body seizes, then softens, like sheâs been cracked open from the inside. Her heart practically somersaults. She canât breathe for a second. Her hands freeze over the pan and her face lights up red, like a stove flame turned to full.
âIâI wasnât expecting that,â she mumbles, voice suddenly far too high and far too soft for the tough act she had going.
You just hum into her shoulder. âYou donât have to talk about it. But I know that kind of cooking.â
Charlotte swallows hard. âYou do?â she asks, even though she already knows the answer.
âYeah. And I know it doesnât help as much as pretending it does.â You loosen the hug, just enough to lean around her, catching her eyes. âYou donât have to prove anything to me, Lottie.â
But thatâs the thingâshe wants to. Desperately. Not because she has to. Because she wants to be enough. The way she wasnât before.
She clears her throat. âI, umâthese pancakes are almost done. I used oat milk, âcause you said the regular kind makes your stomach weird.â
You blink, and then raise your eyebrows in surprise. âYou remembered that?â
Charlotte smiles, itâs crooked, proud, all shy blush and melted sugar. âI remember everything about you.â And god, she means it.
You sit at the kitchen island, barefoot and still a little rumpled from sleep, watching Charlotte stack pancakes like sheâs constructing a temple. The sunlight pouring in through the tall windows hits her just right, golden in her hair, bright against the soft line of her jaw. Her expressionâs mostly calm now, but her ears are still a little pink.
You prop your chin in your hand. âYouâre aware this is a borderline seduction breakfast, right?â
Charlotte huffs a laugh, sliding the plate in front of you. âSeduction wasnât the intention.â
You raise an eyebrow.
She hesitates. ââŚAt least not the only intention.â
You stifle a grin and pick up your fork. Warm pancakes. Perfectly browned edges. Strawberries macerated in a little honey and citrus. Thereâs even whipped cream, slightly melting.
âYou cooked your feelings into these,â you murmur after the first bite, chewing thoughtfully. âLike⌠I can taste the angst.â
Charlotte laughs, shoulders shaking, eyes flickering toward you like she canât look away too long. âBetter than yelling,â she says. âOr texting things I regret.â
You glance at her. âThat bad of a morning?â
She shrugs, pours herself coffee, then leans against the counter across from you. âLetâs just say⌠some people donât know when to let go.â
Your phone buzzes softly where itâs facedown on the counter. Neither of you move to check it.
Charlotte raises an eyebrow. âThat her?â
You donât answer at first, just take another bite. âDoes it matter?â
Charlotte swirls her mug between her hands. âNot if youâre here with me. But if youâre here thinking about herâŚâ
You set your fork down. âLottie,â you say gently, âIâm here.â
She nods slowly. But you can tell sheâs still caught in it, that place in her head where sheâs trying to outrun the version of you that might go back to someone who hurt you. You reach across the island, press your fingers lightly over hers.
âI donât know whatâs happening between us,â you admit. âBut I know whatâs not. And thatâs me running back to what it used to be. Which is a situationship that left me feeling unwanted. I also am grown enough not to run back to my ex who also used to leave me feeling small. Besides, Iâm here and I want to be here. Thatâs what should matterâŚright?â
Charlotte blinks, her eyes softening. âI justâŚâ she starts, then stops. âI want to do this right.â
You lean your chin on your palm again, smiling faintly. âYou are. Even if youâre doing it while grumpy-cooking at 7am.â
She gives you a mock glare. âGrumpy? I was being intentional.â
You nod solemnly. âIntentional like a woman possessed.â
âExactly.â
You both laugh, and the tension lifts just a little, replaced by something warmer, more magnetic. You finish your pancakes slowly, your feet brushing hers under the table. Charlotteâs still watching you like you hung the moon.
And when you finally push your plate away, full and full of feelings, she breathes, âSo⌠want to help me clean up?â
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You spot Charlotte before she spots you, standing in the massive wraparound backyard of the Matthews âcabin,â dressed in black leggings and a soft cream fleece jacket, her hair half-up, glowing in the late morning light. Sheâs fussing with something on a picnic table and doesnât hear the crunch of your boots on the gravel until youâre almost beside her.
âHey,â you call.
Charlotte jumps slightly and then spins around, beaming. âYou made it!â
You give her a suspicious look. âWhy do you look nervous?â
âIâm not nervous,â she says too quickly, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. âIâmâŚcurating an experience.â
âOh god.â You cross your arms, eyeing the setup, an open picnic blanket, a few bundled towels, a thermos, and a covered tray. âAm I about to be sacrificed to the Aspen gods?â
She laughs, a little too breathy. âNo! I planned a picnic. And an activity.â
You raise an eyebrow. âShould I be concerned?â
Charlotte lifts the cover off the tray to reveal two small canvases, neatly clipped to portable easels, along with a set of paintbrushes and tubes of paint.
âI thought we could paint,â she says, smiling nervously. âYou know, decompress a little. Youâve been in the test kitchen nonstop. This is still technically team-building.â
You stare at her. âYouâre having me paint in the snow?â
âItâs spring snow,â she argues, but her voice is wobbly with anticipation. âAnd I brought blankets. And cider.â
You walk over and pick up a brush, turning it in your fingers. âYou trying to distract me from the fact that this is a date?â
Charlotte flushes red, her mouth opening and closing. âItâs notâI meanâI wouldnât say no to that interpretation.â
You smirk. âRelax. I think itâs sweet. You planned this whole Pinterest-core afternoon just for me?â
Charlotte groans and drops her face in her hands. âLena told you, didnât she.â
âNo,â you say, fighting back a smile. âBut now Iâm going to make her tell me.â
She lifts her face, and her expression softens as she watches you settle onto the blanket, tucking one leg beneath you. Her nerves seem to melt just a little.
âI just wanted to spend time with you,â she says, quieter now. âWithout any kitchen pressure. JustâŚus.â
Your breath catches. Not because of the words, but because of the way sheâs looking at you. Like sheâs not just seeing you, sheâs remembering you. Wanting you.
âOkay,â you say, gently. âThen letâs paint.â
A little while later, youâre both halfway into your canvases, yours more abstract, hers a chaotic attempt at the mountain skyline, and you feel a peace settle in your chest. Charlotteâs making fun of her own lack of painting skills, and youâre teasing her for the blush that wonât go away.
âYours looks like a chicken nugget on fire,â you say, leaning over to squint at her sky.
âThatâs supposed to be the sun!â
You laugh. âSure, Van Gogh.â
Charlotte rolls her eyes but sheâs smiling, her shoulders finally relaxed. And then, for a moment, the laughter dies down, and youâre both just staring at each other, cheeks flushed, the quiet settling soft between you. Her eyes flick to your mouth. Itâs almost a kiss.
Almost.
But instead, she coughs and looks away, fumbling with her paintbrush. âOkay, no more flirting, we have to focus. This is still a team-building exercise.â
âCharlotte,â you say, barely holding in your smile, âyou are the least subtle person Iâve ever met.â
She just shrugs, cheeks pink again. âYeah, well. I have a plan.â
You tilt your head. âA plan?â
She smilesâthat sly, slightly wicked, I-know-what-Iâm-doing smile that always makes your heart skip. But she doesnât elaborate. And that silence says more than any words ever could.
The walk back to the house is quiet in the best way. Snow crunches beneath your boots, and the wind has finally stilled, leaving only the faint rustle of pines and the occasional puff of your shared laughter echoing through the trees.
Charlotte walks beside you, close enough that your shoulders occasionally brush. Sheâs still holding the ridiculous, half-finished canvas she insisted on keeping (sun nugget and all) and every time she looks at it, she laughs under her breath.
You glance over. âYouâre really proud of that disaster, huh?â
âIt has personality,â she defends, bumping you gently with her elbow. âPlus, itâll look fantastic in my office. Right next to the stress relief cactus Lena gave me.â
âI think it might give your cactus a complex.â
Charlotte snorts. âYouâre mean.â
âIâm honest,â you say, grinning.
She slows when you reach the porch, but neither of you makes a move for the door right away. Thereâs a stillness to this moment, not awkward, but expectant. Like both of you are waiting for something.
Charlotte shifts her canvas under one arm. âI⌠I had fun today.â
You nod. âMe too.â
Her eyes linger on yours again. And there it isâŚthat same flicker of want, of maybe-this-is-the-moment, but then her phone buzzes in her pocket, and the spell breaks. She sighs, checks it, and mutters something like saved by the bell before slipping it away.
You raise an eyebrow. âWhat was that?â
âI may or may not have ordered something,â she says, fidgeting.
You squint. âLike groceries?â
âLike⌠dinner. Or, um, a fourth meal.â
You narrow your eyes. âLottie. What did you do.â
A beat passes, and then headlights flash across the driveway as a car pulls up, tires crunching in the gravel. You hear it before you see it. The crinkle of paper bags. The unmistakable scent of fast food.
And then Charlotte, beaming like an idiot, says, âHope you like Taco Bell.â
Your jaw drops. âThereâs Taco Bell in Aspen?â
âThereâs delivery Taco Bell in Aspen,â she corrects proudly. âAnd I ordered extra Baja Blasts because I remember how grossly obsessed you were with them in school.â
âIââ You blink at her. âYou remember that?â
âOf course I do,â she says. âYou used to hoard the hot sauce packets like they were currency.â
You try to play it cool, but your smile gives you away. âOkay, well, this might be the most romantic thing anyoneâs ever done for me.â
Charlotte laughs, and her voice is soft when she says, âJust wait till you see the nacho fries.â
Later, the two of you are curled on the massive couch under separate throw blankets, sharing an enormous spread of fast food. Charlotteâs giggling at the expression you make after your first sip of Baja Blast. âItâs like youâre drinking nostalgia.â
âIt tastes like bad decisions and skipping class,â you sigh, sipping again. âGod, I missed this.â
She nods, quieter now. âYeah. Me too.â
The laughter dies down. Youâre both full and warm and settled into a soft sort of silence, the kind that feels safe. She looks over at you, lips curled into the ghost of a smile, her lashes low. Her eyes dip to your mouth again. And this time⌠you almost let her.
Almost.
But instead, you stretch your arms above your head and yawn. âAlright, you gonna walk me to my door again or what?â
Charlotte blinks like sheâs been caught. âR-right. Yeah. Of course.â
You both stand, toss your wrappers, and walk upstairs, slower than necessary, footsteps echoing against the hardwood. When you reach your room, you turn toward her. Charlotte is looking at you again like sheâs so close to saying or doing something bold. Like she wants to kiss you right there in the hallway with hot sauce still on your breath. Instead, you step closer, brush her hair behind her ear, and lean in to kiss her cheek, soft, deliberate, lingering.
Just near her mouth. Just enough to leave her breathless. You pull back slowly, and Charlotte is frozen, pink-cheeked and stunned. âGoodnight, Lottie.â
You slip into your room before she can say a word, and close the door with a wicked grin on your face. Youâre sprawled across the guest bed, your laptop open but long-forgotten, when your phone buzzes and Travisâs name lights up the screen.
You answer with a lazy grin. âLook who remembered I exist.â
His voice crackles through the line, warm and familiar. âHey, donât guilt-trip me, chef. Iâve been busy planning something big.â
You sit up a little straighter. âOh yeah? You finally trying to fix your disastrous fantasy football lineup?â
Travis just chuckles. âNot even close. Hang onâlemme show you something.â
The camera flips, and youâre staring at a velvet ring box perched in his palm. Inside: a delicate, beautifully understated diamond ring. Elegant. Soft. So Akilah. Your jaw drops.
Travis is glowing. âWanted you to be the first one to know⌠Iâm proposing to Aki.â
You gasp. âShut up.â
âI swear,â he says, laughing, voice thick with emotion. âItâs happening. Next month. Iâve got this whole ideaâsunset, tacos, candlesââ
Youâre suddenly blinking back tears, unable to keep the smile off your face. âTrav, thatâs⌠thatâs incredible.â
âIâm freaking out,â he admits. âBut like in a good way.â
You press a hand to your chest. âDo you need help planning? Do you want me to cook something? Iâll fly back. Iâllââ
âI was hoping youâd say that,â he grins. âOkay so picture thisâshe loves music, right? What if right as she says yes, boom, full mariachi band comes out playing her momâs favorite songââ
Your phone buzzes. A text banner appears at the top of the screen, and you see Natalieâs name.
photo dump :)
missed you today.
kept thinking about your face.
letâs ft soon
Your heart skipsâno, lunges. A string of candid photos loads in behind the preview. Natalie in a sun-drenched field somewhere. A blurry iced coffee. A book she knows you loved. A close-up of her pouty smile. A mirror selfie in a tank top that makes you physically bite your lip.
Heat crawls up your neck. Natalie always does this somehow. Makes you feel like youâre tethered to something dangerous and delicious all at once.
You blink and tilt the phone just slightly out of view. âNothing. Justâum. Work stuff.â
Travis narrows his eyes suspiciously. âYouâre flushed.â
âIâm notâflushed.â You clear your throat, change the subject. âOkay, soâa mariachi band?? No way, dude. Thatâs bold.â
Travis beams. âRight?? But you think itâs too much?â
âA little,â you laugh, grateful for the shift, âWhy mariachi band? I think Iâm lost on that part.â
He nods like you bring up a valid point. And starts describing the playlist heâs building and why mariachi makes sense, where he plans to hide the ring box, your eyes flicker back to your phone on the comforter. Natalieâs name still glowing at the top. And your chest aches, with joy for your best friend, yes. But also with that awful, swoony pull toward someone who makes your stomach flip and your judgment blur.
Someone whoâs made you feel seen and wanted⌠and also a little lost. You smile for Travis. You nod, you encourage, you dream with him. But later, when the call ends and the room is still again, you open the text. You stare at Natalieâs photo dump far longer than you should. And the butterflies come back in full force.
A/N: geeked out on recipes and whatnot đ but i hope u enjoy !!
The sun poured through the skylights of the test kitchen, golden and warm against the stainless steel counters. You were already two hours in, apron dusted with flour, hair shoved into a messy bun, fingers moving with fast, practiced ease as you plated a fourth version of the seared trout.
Steam curled up from the pan as you flipped the fish one last time, tossing in a handful of shaved fennel and citrus segments. The sauce on the back burner was thickening perfectly, fragrant with white wine and lemongrass. Behind you, a row of already-tested plates sat in neat order: duck, short rib, some daring vegetarian risotto you were still workshopping.
You didnât notice the door open.
Didnât notice Charlotte until she spoke, her voice soft, still laced with morning husk.
âGod. Look at you.â
You turned, startled, only to find her standing in the doorway, dressed in an immaculate navy suit, hair pulled back into a sharp twist. She looked like she belonged on the cover of a business magazine. But her eyes were tired, a little wornâsparked with something real the moment she saw you.
You smiled. âMorning. I didnât think youâd be up yet.â
âI wasnât,â she said, stepping in. âBut Lena said the kitchen was already alive, and I had a feeling it was you.â
You shrugged, turning back to your station. âMenu doesnât write itself.â
Charlotte watched you move, the fluid, unthinking confidence in the way you stirred, reached, plated. You didnât need to ask questions. You knew what you were doing. And damn if that didnât do something to her.
You glanced over your shoulder. âYou hungry?â
She hesitated. âI should probably say no.â
âBut?â
She sighed, smiling. âBut⌠yes. Absolutely starving.â
You nodded once and grabbed a fresh pan. âSit. Iâll make you something.â
She slid onto a stool at the island, watching you like she used to, chin in hand, completely transfixed. You worked quickly, pulling ingredients from memory, barely even thinking as you reached for the gruyère, the crusty bread, the roasted tomatoes already cooling on the rack.
The smell of butter hit the heat and Charlotte closed her eyes for a moment like it physically calmed her. You were nearly done when she said it. âWait⌠is thisâ?â
âYour comfort meal,â you said over your shoulder, grinning. âGruyère grilled cheese, roasted tomato soup. No tweaks, no twists. Exactly how you liked it.â
Charlotteâs face softened into something almost childlike. âYou remember that?â
You slid the plate in front of her, sitting across the counter. âOf course I remember. It was your favorite thing to eat after we⌠you know.â
Charlotte blinked, and her face went bright red. Eyes widening in realization before blinking again. You just smirked as you sipped your coffee.
âOh my god,â she mumbled into her hands, face burning. âYouâre the worst.â
âAm I wrong?â
Charlotte glanced at the plate like it might save her, then back at you, eyes shining with laughter and something else, something a little molten.
âNo,â she muttered, cheeks still flushed. âYouâre not.â
You winked. âThought so.â
She bit into the sandwich and groaned softly. âJesus. Okay. This? This is still illegal levels of good.â
You beamed, pleased. She looked at you like you were the best part of her dayâŚand maybe, just maybe, you were. The kitchen had quieted down by mid-morningâthe burners off, the pans resting, and the hum of the prep fridge the only sound left.
Charlotte had finished her grilled cheese and soup but hadnât moved. Her suit jacket was folded neatly over the stool, sleeves rolled up, heels kicked off. She looked comfortable in a way you hadnât seen in a long time, eyes glassy with warmth, watching you with that fond, awestruck look she always tried to hide but failed miserably at.
You turned, wiping your hands on a towel and grabbing a clipboard from the counter. âOkay, so,â you began, eyes lit up, âI wanted to run the draft Aspen menu by you.â
Charlotte straightened, visibly excited. âYes, hit me with it.â
You laid the board between you both and pulled up a few printed mockups, annotated with your quick notes in sharp, tidy handwriting. âSo the direction Iâm leaning into is kind of⌠rustic luxury. Local-forward, but not obnoxious. Like, dishes that feel indulgent, warm, and elevated without being pretentious.â
Charlotteâs smile tugged wider. âGo on.â
âStarters,â you said, tapping the first line. âWe open with a trio, mushroom consomme with brown butter breadcrumbs, whipped goat cheese with rosemary honey and grilled flatbread, and a little venison tartare on puff pastry. All small, clean, rich.â
Charlotte nodded slowly, already picturing it. âSexy. Love it.â
You grinned. âMains are where it gets a little wild. Iâm playing with a roasted elk loin with blackberry demi-glace, served with parsnip puree and fried sage. Then a steelhead trout dish over charred leeks with preserved lemon gremolata. And⌠Iâm testing a plant-based shepherdâs pieâoyster mushrooms, white beans, roasted root veg under a golden cauliflower-potato mash. Rustic but craveable.â
Charlotte looked like she was in a trance. âGod. Iâd eat all of that right now.â
You shrugged modestly, but your eyes glinted with pride. âAnd dessertâs still in the sketching phase, but Iâm thinking a warm brown butter cake, maybe with bourbon-glazed apples and spiced creme fraiche. Or⌠a snow sugar pavlova with juniper cream and candied pine nuts. Something whimsical. Playful.â
Charlotte blinked like sheâd just remembered to breathe.
âI mean, obviously everything will get a wine pairing and some rotating seasonal swaps,â you added, flipping the page. âAnd I want to test a fondue moment, but, like, deconstructed. Less âtourist trapâ and moreâŚâ you paused, thinking, ââŚMichelin fantasy sequence.â
Charlotte let out a little laugh, breathless. âYouâre brilliant.â
You tilted your head. âYouâre biased.â
âMaybe,â she said, eyes locking onto yours. âBut stillâbrilliant.â
You shrugged one shoulder, cheeks warm. âItâs a draft. Iâll keep tweaking.â
Charlotte leaned in just slightly, elbow resting on the island, chin in hand. âDo you know what you look like when you talk about food?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âAlive,â she said, without hesitation. âLike⌠every part of you is switched on. Itâs the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen.â
Your breath caught just slightly, the kind of pause that could become something if you let it. But you didnât let it. Not yet.
Instead, you looked down at your notes and smiled âGlad you like it. Because Iâm dragging you into test tastings this week whether you want to or not.â
Charlotte grinned. âOh, I want to. Make no mistake.â
And for the first time that morning, she looked a little nervous, like she realized she was maybe saying too much, feeling too much, falling too much. But it was already too late. Because watching you come alive like this?
She was already gone.
Charlotte scrolled through the notes on her tablet as she slid into the cushioned booth across from Lena at the cafĂŠ inside the Aspen propertyâs admin wing. The place was all glass walls and dark pine, sleek, quiet, and too formal for either of them, but it was the only place on-site with halfway decent espresso.
Lena didnât look up from her laptop. âYouâre late.â
Charlotte dropped her tablet on the table. âYouâre lucky Iâm here at all. Iâve had three meetings since seven. I swear my father breeds new executives in his sleep.â
Lenaâs eyebrow arched. âCharming. And what do these purebred execs want now?â
Charlotte sighed and leaned back. âSomeone embezzled from the Aspen branchâs renovation budget last year. Dad wants me to clean up the mess before the board hears about it.â
âSo a normal Tuesday,â Lena deadpanned.
Charlotte grunted. âUnfortunately.â
They went over a few key points, names, numbers, deadlines, and Lena updated her on the investor dinner that was being finalized for the end of the week. Then, just as the conversation started to edge back toward the tedious, a chime dinged softly from Charlotteâs watch. Charlotteâs entire expression lit up.
Lena didnât even look. âThere it is.â
Charlotte beamed, tapping the screen. âYou know what that means!!â
Lena rolled her eyes and closed her laptop with a soft snap. âYes. Itâs time for one of your highly curated, questionably justified âteam-building activitiesâ with our dear consulting chef-slash-situationship.â
Charlotte made a face. âSheâs notâokay, maybeâbut these activities are important!â
Lena arched a brow. âImportant for the Aspen menu?â
Charlotte hesitated. âEmotionally, yes.â
Lena snorted and sipped her espresso. âGod help me.â
âI planned something good today,â Charlotte said, practically glowing. âLike, really good. Outdoorsy, but not terrifying. Thoughtful. Pretty.â
âDid it come with a Pinterest board and a secret Spotify playlist?â
Charlotte flushed. ââŚShut up.â
Lenaâs smirk softened. Despite the eye-rolls and sarcasm, there was a flicker of something warm in her gaze as she packed up her things. âYou really like her.â
Charlotte looked down at her watch, the buzz of the alarm still humming against her wrist. âYeah,â she said quietly. âI do.â
Lena stood, slinging her bag over her shoulder. âAlright. Iâll send her to the house in twenty. You better not make her wear a helmet again.â
âThat was one time,â Charlotte said, indignant. âAnd it was adorable.â
âTraumatizing,â Lena corrected, walking off. But she paused in the doorway, glancing back with a dry smile. âYou got this. Try not to spontaneously combust.â
Charlotte was already on her feet, nerves and excitement rolling through her like electricity. âI got this. Can you just make sure she meets me at the house?â
Lena nodded. âDone.â
And as she disappeared down the hallway, Charlotte stood there for a beat, heart pounding like she was about to go on a first date all over again.
When you made your way downstairs, nerves coiled under your skin like static, youâd braced for something formal, candlelight, plated dishes, that Charlotte Matthews brand of flawless intimidation.
But what you walked into instead wasâŚ
Charlotte in a worn long-sleeve Henley and joggers, sleeves pushed up to her elbows, her hair loosely tied back, standing barefoot in the sleek marble-and-wood kitchen, grinning like sheâd just found a secret. Her whole face lit up when she saw you. And you? You swore you saw her sway a little when she took you in.
âGod,â she murmured under her breath, then caught herself and smiled wider. âYou clean up nice.â
You glanced down at your simple jeans and fitted sweater, brushing a hand through your hair, but her gaze was unwavering. Like you were divine. You swallowed hard at the thought.
âYou donât look so bad yourself,â you said, smirking as you leaned against the counter. âI was half-expecting a three-piece suit.â
Charlotte scoffed, mock offended. âI do know how to relax.â
You arched a brow. âProve it.â
She walked over to the counter and lifted a bottle of wine. âWell. First of allâvino. And second,â she opened the fridge with a little flourish, âweâre making pizza.â
That made you pause. âPizza?â
Charlotte beamed. âItâs our thing, right? Cheap slices after work. Rooftop margarita pies when we couldnât afford anything else back in culinary school. Seemed fitting.â
You laughed, warmth bubbling in your chest. âYou remembered that?â
Her voice softened, âI remember a lot of things.â
You didnât answer that. Just stepped forward, brushing past her with a hand grazing her arm, and grabbed the flour. âFine. But if weâre doing this, weâre doing it right.â
The kitchen filled with the warm scent of yeasty dough and garlic, the distant sound of music playing from Charlotteâs phone tucked into a nearby cup. There was flour everywhere, on the counter, on both of your shirts, dusting Charlotteâs cheek like a constellation.
You kneaded, chopped. âAre you really putting figs on your pizza?â you teased, eyeing her dough.
Charlotte smirked. âItâs sophisticated.â
âItâs pretentious.â
âOh, please, youâre over there making a buffalo mozzarella masterpiece with fresh basil like youâre filming an episode of Chefâs Table.â
You shrugged innocently. âCanât help that I have taste.â
She snorted, elbowing you gently. And for a moment, your faces were too close. Your laughter fell into silence. The air between you turned hot and heavy, like the oven behind you. Her eyes dropped to your mouth, just for a second.
But then she stepped back, clearing her throat. And you looked away, pulse thudding in your throat. The moment passed. But it lingered.
By the time the pizzas were finished and the kitchen smelled like heaven, the sun had dipped behind the mountains. You sat across from each other at the island, legs stretched out, bare feet brushing under the counter.
âOkay,â Charlotte said after a long sip of wine. âYours wins. But only because you bribed me with that garlic oil finish.â
You raised a brow, a wide smile on your lips. âWasnât a bribe. Just skill.â
She laughed and leaned back, watching you with a softness she rarely let out. You were already pushing your chair back when she spoke again, quiet. âDo you remember that night in the kitchen? At school. The kiss?â
You stilled. Your heart skipped.
âGod,â you breathed, then laughed. âYeah. I thought about that kiss for weeks.â
Charlotteâs smile turned gentle. âMe too.â
It hung there. Truth, stretched thin between you. The soft light of the cabin played against her cheekbone, and you felt that pull again, like gravity had shifted slightly in her direction. But she didnât move. Neither did you.
And somehow, that restraint only made it worse. You grabbed a dish towel and stood. âCome on. Letâs clean up before I start kissing you again in this kitchen.â
Charlotteâs laugh followed you as you turned to the sink. âSo youâre admitting it might happen?â
You didnât look at her. But your voice was low, teasing, âIâm admitting itâs getting harder not to.â
Later that night, the dishes were drying on the rack, wine glasses mostly empty, and the smell of roasted garlic and crisped dough still clung to the cabinâs warm air. You leaned against the kitchen counter, lazily sipping the last of your wine, and Charlotte stood across from you, fiddling with her bracelet something she only ever did when she was nervous.
âSo,â she said, tone carefully casual, âabout this week.â
You raised a brow. âWhat about it?â
âWellâŚâ Charlotte straightened a bit. âTechnically, youâre here to consult on the Aspen flagshipâs winter menu. The locationâs been underperforming, so weâre assessing whatâs working, what isnât, and how to recalibrate before ski season kicks off.â
âRight,â you nodded slowly, âthe restaurant needs saving, and Iâm here to play culinary savior.â
Charlotte smirked. âPretty much.â
You could feel her trying not to smile too hard. âAnd whatâs your role in this?â
Her expression dimmed slightly, more serious now. âThereâs some corporate mess I have to untangleâ bad vendor contracts, staffing issues, branding confusion. Itâs why my dad sent me up here in the first place. He thinks I fix things.â
You caught something flicker behind her eyes and filed it away to ask about later. Charlotte cleared her throat, grabbing her phone from the counter and pulling up a calendar. âBut! I did block out time for the two of us to explore some things while weâre here.â
You arched an eyebrow. âExplore⌠things?â
She didnât look up right away. âTasting local cuisine. Meeting suppliers. Visiting that new artisanal bakery up the mountain. Snowmobilingâuh, purely for research purposes of course.â
You laughed. âSnowmobiling is for research now?â
Charlotte flushed, but still managed to keep her voice playful. âEvery chef should understand the terrain that grows their ingredients.â
âOh wow. Thatâs rich coming from a girl whose family estate could fund a small country.â
Charlotte finally met your gaze, and there was that grin again, a little too pleased with herself. âWhat can I say? Iâm committed to the work.â
You tilted your head. âSo Iâm just here forâŚprofessional bonding?â
Something about your tone made Charlotte falter. Her mouth opened, then closed, and for a split second you saw that familiar nervous wreck behind the cool exterior. She adjusted her bracelet again.
âWell,â she said carefully, âitâs also important to buildâŚrapport. With consultants. Whoâve kissed you in kitchens before.â
You snorted. âGod, Lottieââ
She cut in with a mock gasp. âNickname. Thatâs cheating. Iâm too weak for that.â
You tried not to grin as you sipped your wine. âFine. Continue with your very serious consultant itinerary.â
Charlotteâs smile softened. âWeâll work in the mornings. Review the Aspen locationâs current menu, sit in on service, see how things run. But afternoons are mostly free, I figured we could do some one-on-one tastings, maybe some recipe development.â
âAnd snowmobiling,â you reminded.
âAnd snowmobiling,â she said, laughing. âLook, I wanted you to enjoy this trip too. I know things have been⌠hectic. So if we can sneak in some fun while saving a restaurant, Iâm calling that a win.â
You watched her a moment, the way her hair curled just slightly from the heat of the kitchen, how loose and real she looked hereânot the heir to an empire, but just Charlotte. Someone who wanted this week to mean something. Maybe more than she was saying.
âOkay,â you said softly. âLetâs save a restaurant. And maybeâŚhave a little fun doing it.â
Charlotteâs gaze lingered on yours, her voice just above a whisper. âIâd like that.â
The hallway was quiet, bathed in amber light from sconces shaped like lanterns. The wooden floor creaked faintly beneath your socks as you walked beside Charlotte, both of you moving slower than necessary, neither ready to say goodnight just yet.
You stopped in front of your door.
Charlotte did too.
Her hands were in her pockets again, like they always were when she was trying to keep from reaching for something. For you. You turned to her, lips parted to say something, but she beat you to it. She stepped a little closer. No words.
Just that look in her eyes, warm, vulnerable, almost pleading. Then, gently, deliberately, she leaned in and kissed your cheek. Not a quick brush. Not a platonic peck.
It lingered.
Warm and slow and a little too close to the corner of your mouth. You felt her breath, the faint scent of pizza dough and wine still clinging to her. Her lips hovered for just a beat longer than they should have. Like she didnât want to pull away.
Charlotte did finally pull back, but her gaze didnât leave yours. She looked at you like she was memorizing something. Like if she let herself, she would just close the distance and kiss you properly. No hesitation. No plan. Just want.
God, she wanted to.
She wanted to pin you against the door and kiss you like she did in that kitchen all those years agoâreckless, hungry, young. But she didnât.
Because this time, she had a plan.
She was going to do it right. Win you back completely. Make you hers. But still, the ache in her chest throbbed like a warning. The distance between you suddenly felt too sharp. You smiled softly, heat blooming in your chest.
âGoodnight, Lottie.â
You reached for the doorknob, pausing just long enough to glance back, and saw it. The longing still painted across her face, quietly wrecking her. Then you disappeared inside, door clicking shut behind you. Charlotte stood there a while longer. Touching her fingers to her lips. Wondering how she was going to survive a whole week of this.
An open suitcase lay flopped across your bed like a beached whale. Clothes were spilling out of drawers, shoes mismatched in the corner, a half-packed toiletry bag teetering on the edge of your nightstand. You stood in the middle of it all, arms crossed, brow furrowed, a single heeled boot in one hand and a pair of snow boots in the other.
Van appeared in the doorway with a dramatic sigh. âGod, youâre hopeless.â
You didnât even look at her. âIâm deciding between âbusiness casualâ or âplease donât let me die in a snowstorm.ââ
Van kicked the door shut behind her, tossed her bag on your armchair, and walked over like a woman on a mission. âYouâre packing like youâre going to be on Survivor: Aspen Edition.â
You gave her a look. âOkay, donât knock Survivor Van. Itâs a great show. Charlotte said it might snow. And then thereâs the summit. And drinks. And the hotel dinners. And her.â
Van raised her brows. âAh. Her.â She yanked the heeled boot out of your hand and flung it onto the floor. âOkay, weâre starting over.â
âI like those shoes.â
âYeah, and I like you not crying in a hotel bathtub because you kissed your boss in the mountains.â
You groaned and flopped down onto the bed. âYouâre worse than my mom.â
âYour mom doesnât know Charlotte once called you âthe best fuck in all of Hyde Parkâ while literally drunk on rosemary gimlets.â
You buried your face in a sweater. âGod, please stop quoting her like weâre in a rom-com. It was collegeâand besides, sheâs sweeter now. Who fucking gives forehead kisses like itâs chivalry anymore?â
Van sat beside you and patted your back like you were a cat she didnât fully trust. âWhich youâve mentioned six times in the last hour.â
You peeked up at her through your hair. âThatâs because itâs worth mentioning more than onceâI donât know what this trip is. Like, is it professional? Friendly? âHey, letâs resolve all this tension and maybe sleep together in a luxury resort before pretending it never happenedâ?â
Van made a face. âOkay, wow, gross. I literally just had lunch.â
You smacked her with the sweater. âBe serious!â
âI am serious.â She reached for your suitcase and began expertly folding your sweaters. âYouâre going to pack your grown-woman outfits. Youâre going to pretend this is strictly business. And youâre going to keep your feelings in check.â
You squinted at her. âAnd if I canât?â
Van shoved a pair of leggings in the suitcase. âThen at least wear cute pajamas so you can cry in style.â
You laughed despite yourself. âThanks, Van.â
âAlways,â she said, softer now. âJust donât let her pull you back in unless she means it this time. I like my best friend with some self-esteem.â
You gave her a salute. âYes, Captain.â
Van pointed a sock at you. âAnd pack moisturizer. That altitude is rude.â
It felt too fast when travel day was finally here. The Uber slowed at the edge of the private terminal, snowflakes melting against the windshield. Your driver glanced back, eyebrow raised.
âYou sure this is it?â
You stared through the window at the small, sleek jet parked on the tarmac like it belonged in a Bond film. At the bottom of the steps stood Charlotte Matthews, coat draped over her shoulders, scarf billowing slightly in the breeze, hair pulled back in a low, perfect bun, her whole body glowing like some kind of high-altitude goddess.
She was smiling. Actually, she was beaming.
You swallowed, hard. âYeah,â you murmured, grabbing your duffel. âIâm sure.â Before you even had a chance to fully step out of the car, Charlotte was already halfway to you, practically bouncing on her heels.
âHey,â she said, breath visible in the cold, hands fluttering like she couldnât figure out what to do with them. âYou made it.â
You chuckled at her. âItâs a private plane. Did you think I wouldnât?â
She laughed, cheeks pink from the windâor maybe from you. âYou lookâŚâ
âCold?â you teased, tugging your coat tighter.
âNo,â Charlotte said, stepping closer, eyes warm. âBeautiful.â
You opened your mouth. Closed it. Opened it again. âJesus, Matthews, we havenât even taken off yet. Take me to dinner first.â
From the top of the stairs, Lena cleared her throat, loud enough to interrupt, not loud enough to be impolite. She stood with an iPad clutched to her chest and a look that could only be described as: These two are ridiculous, but Iâm still rooting for them.
âCharlotte, I told you to stay inside. Youâll get windburn.â
âSheâs fine,â you called up. âBesides, itâs not like she listens to you anyway.â
Charlotte grinned and offered you her hand, like some kind of gallant knight. âCome on. Weâve got champagne andâLena made a seating chart, but Iâm ignoring it.â
You laughed despite the nerves fluttering through your stomach as you took her hand. Her fingers curled around yours, too warm, too familiar.
As you climbed the stairs together, Charlotte leaned in and whispered, âI packed an extra sweater. For you. In case you forgot.â
You turned to her, a smirk tugging at your lips. âWhat kind of girl do you think I am?â
Charlotte tilted her head, eyes sparkling. âThe kind Iâd like to sit next to for the next three hours.â
Behind you, Lena muttered under her breath. âGod, help me,â but you didnât miss the ghost of a smile playing on her lips as she stepped aside to let you both in.
Inside, the jet was as luxe as you expected, plush leather seats, soft lighting, a tray of mimosas already chilling. But none of that really registered. You were too aware of the way Charlotte sat beside you instead of across, the way her knee brushed yours when she shifted, the way her smile lingered like she didnât want to let it go.
This was going to be a long flight. A dangerous one. And you were already in trouble. The jet lifted with a low rumble, smooth as silk, and within minutes, you were gliding above the clouds. Charlotte had insisted you sit beside herâ âfor turbulence,â she said, which was cute, since the skies looked clearer than your conscience.
You were thankful regardless, you hated flights. Always had. The moment the seatbelt sign dinged off, she relaxed into her seat, legs crossed, fingers tapping absentmindedly against her thigh. Youâd never seen her this⌠soft. Not in the kitchen. Not at work. Not even in the quiet moments when she thought no one was watching. It was unnerving, kind of charming, and if you were honest, a little hot.
âYou really brought a duffel bag?â she teased, nodding toward your feet.
You raised an eyebrow. âWhat, you thought I was gonna show up with matching monogrammed luggage and a pressed travel itinerary?â
Charlotte pretended to consider it. âMaybe a backpack with your initials stitched in. Something⌠tasteful.â
You smirked. âSorry to disappoint, princess.â
Her ears turned red instantly. âIâm notââ she cleared her throat, âânot a princess.â
âOh no?â You leaned back into the buttery leather. âYou own a Michelin-starred restaurant, take private jets, and make people cry over garnish placement. But yeah, sure. Totally grounded.â
She narrowed her eyes, but the smile tugging at her lips ruined the effect. âYouâre infuriating.â
âAnd yet,â you said, reaching for the mimosa sheâd poured you, âyou invited me on this little Aspen getaway.â
âThat was⌠professional courtesy.â
âRight,â you drawled. âAnd the way youâre blushing right now? Also professional?â
âIâm not blushing,â she insisted, face fully pink. She tugged her coat tighter around herself, looking anywhere but at you. âIâm just⌠warm.â
You let it go. Barely.
The banter slowed eventually. Charlotte leaned her head back, staring out the window at the clouds stretching endless and glowing. The sunlight caught the soft edge of her jaw, the slope of her nose. She looked tired, not the kind of tired you sleep off, but the kind that builds in layers.
You stood and stretched, making your way toward the galley where Lena was reviewing something on her tablet. âHey,â you said, keeping your voice low. âCan I ask you something?â
Lena gave you a sidelong glance, cautious. âDepends.â
âWhat exactly is this trip? Charlotte mentioned a summit, but sheâs been avoiding the subject like itâs contagious.â
Lena sighed. Not annoyed, more like sheâd been waiting for the question. She closed the tablet with a soft snap.
âCharlotteâs father is the kind of man who believes legacy is built in boardrooms and polished over cocktails,â she said flatly. âWhen something in the Matthews empire goes south, bad press, investor tension, misaligned projectionsâhe sends Charlotte in to âclean up the mess.ââ
You frowned. âBecause sheâs good at it?â
âBecause sheâs the best at it. And because itâs easier for him to play puppeteer from a distance.â
Your mouth tightened. âSounds like he doesnât give her much of a choice.â
âHe doesnât,â Lena said, her tone even. âHe gives her a spotlight. With strings.â
You glanced back toward Charlotte, who was now pretending to read a magazine, one leg bouncing restlessly.
âSo this trip,â you said. âIsnât just a summit.â
âNo,â Lena said. âItâs damage control. PR spin. Polite warfare in ski lodges and five-star restaurants. Heâs testing her. Again.â
Your stomach twisted. âWhy does she keep saying yes?â
Lena didnât answer right away. Like she was finding the right words to say next. âBecause she still thinks proving herself might one day be enough for him to let go.â
That⌠hurt more than it should. You turned back toward your seat, and just before you slid back in beside Charlotte, Lena added under her breath, âSheâs different around you. Just donât let her burn herself trying to stay warm.â
You swallowed the lump in your throat and nodded.
Charlotte turned to you, already smiling, voice laced with something lighter. âWhat, miss me already?â
And because you couldnât help it, you smirked. âDepends. You still warm?â
She rolled her eyes. But her hand brushed yours under the armrest, and neither of you moved away. The Matthews âcabinâ rose like something out of a filmâall timber and glass, perfectly nestled into the snowy hills of Aspen. If the private jet hadnât already set the tone, this sealed it: Charlotte Matthews didnât just vacation, she curated experiences.
She led you up the front steps with practiced ease, punching in a code at the door and pushing it open with a small, proud smile. Warm light spilled into the foyer. There was a stone fireplace already crackling in the sitting room, a lofted ceiling strung with golden bulbs, and the faint scent of cedar and something sweet wafting through the air.
âI know itâs a little much,â she said, glancing at you as you stepped inside, âbut my father insists on keeping up appearances even in the woods.â
You laughed under your breath. âYeah. Just a humble little log shack.â
Charlotte grinned. âCâmon. Iâll show you your room.â
She led you down a wide hallway lined with black-and-white photos and abstract art that probably cost more than your rent. The cabin may have been all wood and warmth, but it had been decorated with sleek, minimal touches that screamed money with restraint.
Your room was at the far end of the hall, spacious, high-ceilinged, with a window that overlooked the snowy trees and mountains beyond. There was a king-sized bed dressed in navy linen, a soft throw blanket folded at the foot, and a set of your bags already placed neatly by the closet.
Charlotte stepped aside and gestured. âHere we are. Yours is just down the hall from mine. For convenience.â
You raised an eyebrow. âConvenience, huh?â
Her lips twitched. âWell, yeah. I mean. In case you need anything. Or⌠whatever.â
You gave her a look, then wandered in, fingertips brushing over the plush comforter as you turned. âSo whatâs the protocol here? Do I unpack now or wait until someone offers to do it for me?â
Charlotte rolled her eyes, but her smile was fond. âDinnerâs in two hours. Youâve got time. Do whatever makes you feel less nervous.â
You tilted your head. âIâm not nervous.â
She looked at you. Really looked. âYouâre always a little nervous when you travel.â
You held her gaze, refusing to smile, even though you wanted to. How she remembered that tiny detail all these years later wasâŚimpressive. âCharlotte Matthews got me all figured out, huh?â
âTrying to.â She mumbles.
Charlotte stood there a moment longer, fingers curling lightly around the edge of the doorframe. She wasnât moving. Not really. Just lingeringâlike there was something unsaid on her tongue.
You watched her, the quiet beat stretching. âCharlotte,â you said, voice low, âif youâre wanting a kiss, youâre gonna have to ask for it.â
Her eyes went wide. Color climbed from her neck to the tips of her ears. âIâthought it was our thing,â she stammered, âI walk you to your door, you give me a kiss.â
That got a laugh out of you, soft and surprised. âWow. And here I thought you just wanted to be chivalrous.â
Her mouth opened, probably to protest, but you closed the space between you first, one hand reaching up to cradle her cheek. You kissed her softly, deliberately, just a breath too close to her mouth. Her skin was warm beneath your touch. Her breath caught, and then her eyes fluttered open.
You didnât move your hand. âThanks for walking me to my door.â
Charlotte smiled, dazed and red. âKay. Iâll⌠uh⌠let you unpack.â
She backed out of the room a little too fast, nearly missing the doorknob as she reached for it. You smirked as it clicked shut behind her, your heart thudding just enough to make you sit down and breathe.
It was too much. It wasnât enough.
You exhaled hard, crossed the room, and flopped backward onto the bed with a soft whuff. The mattress cradled you immediately, the plush comforter rising around your arms as you stared at the wooden beams overhead, your chest rising and falling like youâd just run a race.
Your phone buzzed in your pocket. You groaned and fished it out. You opened it to find Vanâs text.
U alive or did your private plane crash in the Rockies đ¤¨
You huffed a laugh, thumbs moving quickly.
Alive. Landed. Not kidnapped. Plane had snacks and leather seats. Will send proof of life later.
Almost immediately Van responds back;
Donât do anything I wouldnât do
âŚwhich basically means donât sleep with your boss đŤŠ
You snorted, typing back;
U r worse than my mom
Another buzz, but it wasnât Van this time. You saw the name before the message and paused. Natalie. Your stomach twisted. You shouldnât open it.
You really shouldnât. But your finger tapped anyway. Your eyes lingered on Natalieâs text.
Did you land safe?
So simple. So normal. Like she hadnât reminded you about your first kiss only hours earlier. Like she hadnât showed up in your lifeâŚagain all breathy apologies and mixed signals. Like she still had some quiet claim on your heart she didnât deserve. And despite all that stillâyou typed back before you could stop yourself.
Yeah. Safe.
There was a beat. Then Natalie was responding back;
Okay bby donât have too much fun without me đ
You rolled your eyes so hard you thought they might get stuck. A smile lingering on your lips despite the eye roll. God you hated how she did that to you.
âJesus,â you muttered, chucking your phone onto the far end of the bed like it had personally offended you.
You lay there, body still and buzzing. The silence of the cabin was soft, padded, the kind that made you aware of your own heartbeat. Your hands came up to your face, covering your eyes, fingertips pressed into your temples.
You were here. In a luxury cabin in Aspen. With Charlotte. And it had been maybe two hours, and already she was lingering in your doorframe, letting you touch her face like it was a normal thing to do.
And all you could think was how badly you wanted to kiss her. Properly. Not a cheek-kiss. Not a teasing moment that ended with a flustered retreat. You wanted to close the space and stay there.
Your lips parted against your palms. You didnât move. God, how are you going to survive this trip?
You were still smiling when the elevator doors closed behind you.
It was ridiculous. Like really? Grinning like a teenager over a forehead kiss. But Charlotte Matthews had kissed your forehead. After walking you home, calling you her habit, and saying it with a look that made your stomach do something it hadnât done in a long, long time.
The kind of flutter you couldnât pin down. Soft and slow and somehow safe.
Your keys jangled as you stepped inside your apartment. The quiet was immediate, the kind of stillness that felt unfamiliar after the buzz of champagne and music, after standing so close to her all night.
You toed off your shoes, letting the black Converse fall with a soft thunk. The black tshirt, and faded jeans, felt like too much suddenly, too delicate for your little apartment, so you peeled it off and pulled on the nearest oversized tee from your laundry chair.
There were still remnants of the night clinging to you, the scent of Charlotteâs perfume lingering faintly on your coat, the ghost of her hand on your back, the warmth in her eyes when sheâd looked at you like she meant it.
Your reflection in the bathroom mirror smiled at nothing as you washed off your makeup. By the time you were settled into bed, the glow of your bedside lamp was dim and soft. You curled beneath the sheets, phone in hand, thumb hovering over your texts. There were unread messages from Van. One from Travis. A meme from Akilah.
And one from Natalie.
Just a single âYou up?â sent seven minutes ago. You stared at it for a beat. Your finger hovered, moved away, then hovered again. Before you could decide whether to text back, the screen lit up with an incoming FaceTime call.
Natalie.
You didnât even know how, but the conversation grew legs of its own. Natalie seemed to have only time and almost too much to talk about. The screen flickers, catching on Natalieâs tired but amused face, her hair pulled back messily, smudged eyeliner from earlier still faintly hanging on. Sheâs propped up on the couch in her darkened apartment, phone angled slightly askew.
âSo then what happened?â you ask, sipping from a mug and leaning closer to the camera.
Natalie blinks slowly. âHm?â
âYou just spaced the fuck out on me. I saidâwait. What were you thinking about?â
Thereâs a long pause. Natalieâs mouth opens, closes, then quirks into a half-smile. âOur first kiss.â
You nearly spit your water. âIâwhat?!â
But Natalie doesnât even flinch. Her voice is casual, low. âYeah,â she says. âI was thinking about that stupid humid summer and your uncleâs god-awful playlist.â
You could still see the sun and how it was folding into the sky, bruised orange and pink, the kind of light that made everything look a little more romantic than it had any right to be. The air was thick, buzzing with humidity and the low whir of traffic in the distance. Natalie sat on the back steps of the auto shop, jaw tight, boot scraping lines into the dirt like she could carve her frustration into the earth.
âThey said it was that or expulsion,â she muttered, not looking at you. âSo, congratulations. You get me âtil fall.â
You glanced over at her, halfway through a melted popsicle, bare knees pulled to your chest. âRemind me what crime you committed again?â
Natalie rolled her eyes. âTold Ms. Klein to choke on her clipboard.â
âThatâs not a crime,â you said around a bite of red slush. âThatâs... public service.â
Natalie cracked a smile despite herself. It was tired. Worn thin. âYeah, well, the principal didnât think so. So now Iâm on probation and the varsity soccer team. Community service hours are getting logged right here, with your uncle and his grumpy-ass record collection.â
You laughed. âThe man thinks Journey is the peak of human achievement.â
âCould be worse,â she muttered.
âYou are greasy,â you offered, eyeing the smudge across her cheek. âKinda looks good on you, though. All bad-girl meets carburetor chic.â
Natalie gave you a flat look. âYouâre such a dork.â
âAnd yet you keep showing up,â you said, nudging her shoulder with yours.
She didnât answer. Just let her boot still, staring ahead at the skyline blurring into dusk. There was something quieter about her tonight. Something heavy behind her silence.
You watched her. The girl everyone whispered about. The girl with the addict mom and the drunk father and the fists that knew how to break lockers but not how to hold anything gently. The girl who walked into the shop that first day like the world owed her a fight. But here she was, sitting next to you, letting her shoulder lean just slightly into yours. Breathing.
âSoccer players are hot,â you offered, trying to lighten the mood. âYouâll probably look great in shin guards.â
Natalie blinked, lips twitching. âDid you just say shin guards are hot?â
âI said soccer players are hot. The shin guards are just bonus.â
She burst out laughing, that rare, unguarded kind that scraped the bottom of her stomach and came out loud and bright. âYouâre so weird.â
You grinned. âTakes one to know one.â
And then she looked at you. Really looked at you.
Eyes shining. That soft glow of the streetlights catching on the curve of your cheek. You werenât judging her. You never had. Not when you found out about her record. Not when you saw the bruises she never explained. Not when she showed up sullen and exhausted and reeking of cheap beer her dad had left spilled in the kitchen.
You just⌠saw her.
And that scared the hell out of her. But it also made her brave. So she kissed you. It was sudden. Quick. Her hand landing clumsily on your jaw. Her lips unsure. Breath short. You froze, just for a second, eyes wide, pulse loud in your ears.
And then you kissed her back.
It was messy, awkward, and a little desperate. A silent admission of everything youâd both been trying not to say. The summer haze wrapped around you, the shop lights flickering on behind your heads like a stage cue.
When you pulled away, your forehead was still touching hers.
âSorry,â she whispered, voice thick. âI just⌠I wanted to do that before this all ends.â
You looked at her, something soft blooming in your chest. âDonât be sorry.â
And you kissed her again, slower this time. The cars passed by on the street. The soda can rolled off the stairs. And the world, for one impossibly beautiful second, was quiet.
Your eyes focused back onto the screen, with an amused Natalie watching you. Like she could tell you were remembering now, too.
âI canât believe you just said that out loud,â you mutter, half hiding your face behind your mug.
Natalie shrugs. âWhat? You asked.â
You groan. âWell, when I asked, I meant likeâŚâwhat you were thinking about for dinner?â notâyou canât just drop that on me.â
Her voice lowers, softer now. âIt was a good kiss.â
Youâre quiet. A small smile flickers at the corner of your mouth. âIt was,â you say.
Natalie watches you for a moment, then exhales slowly. âI donât think anyoneâs ever looked at me the way you did. Like I wasnât a fuck-up. You always saw me for me.â
You blink at the screen. âThatâs âcause you werenât a fuck-up. You were just⌠figuring your shit out.â
Natalie gives a one-shoulder shrug. âStill am.â
Another pause. Then you whisper, âYeah. Me too.â
You're still curled up on your couch, the mug now lukewarm in your hands, as Natalie lounges on the other end of the video call. Sheâs in her hoodie again, the same one from high school, collar stretched and faded from too many late nights and bad decisions. Her hairâs longer now, tied messily back, a few strands loose and curling near her cheekbone. She looks relaxed. Grounded, even.
Thatâs the weird part.
Sheâs still Natalie, but⌠not the hurricane. Not the wild, reckless fire you spent your teens dancing too close to. Thereâs a steadiness in her now. And worseâkindness.
Itâs messing with your head.
âYou okay?â she asks, breaking the silence.
You nod a little too fast. âYeah, just tired.â
But itâs not just that. You can feel something shifting. Reopening. A quiet warmth curling where you donât want it. And thatâs terrifying, because Natalie was supposed to be in the past. She was supposed to be a lesson, not a question mark.
And then she grins, slow and easy. âYouâre still doing that thing.â
âWhat thing?â
âThe thing where you touch your mouth when youâre trying not to smile.â
You scoff and pull your hand away. âYouâre imagining things.â
âMm, no. I remember it.â Her eyes narrow, teasing. âI remember a lot of things.â
Thereâs a flicker in your chest. You try to smother it. âNat.â
âWhat?â
âThat was so flirty.â
Natalie has the nerve to look smug. âWas it?â
You raise a brow. âFriends donât flirt with friends.â
She tilts her head, pretending to consider it. âThey do. A little. I think friends kiss sometimes too.â A beat. âI donât know.â
You groan into your hands. âJesus Christ.â
âIâm kidding,â she says quickly, holding her hands up. âOkay? Iâm sorry.â
You peek through your fingers at the screen. She looks genuine. Apologetic. Still wearing that goddamn hoodie.
You shake your head. âYou canât do that. Iâm notâI canât go back there.â
Natalie nods. âI get it. I really do.â
You believe her. But that doesnât mean it makes this any easier. Because now youâre thinking about how gentle she was last night. How she didnât try anything, didnât push, didnât ask for more. She was just⌠present. Steady. Sweet.
And then thereâs Charlotte.
Charlotte, who makes your pulse stutter when she looks at you too long. Who walked you home in heels and bought you midnight pizza. Who kissed your forehead like it meant something.
Charlotte, who terrifies you in a completely different way, because if you were honest, you didnât want to run from that. You wanted more.
You inhale slowly, grounding yourself. âI should go,â you say, soft but firm. âLong day tomorrow.â
Natalie nods, smile dimming but not disappearing. âIâll talk to you soon?â
âYeah. Soon.â
You hang up before she can say anything else. And then you sit there for a long moment, your heart a mess of nostalgia, tension, and something you donât quite have the words for yet.
Whatever it is, itâs getting harder to ignore.
Itâs nearly midnight when you slip out onto your apartmentâs tiny balcony, barefoot, wrapped in a hoodie that still smells faintly like garlic and burnt sugar. The night air is cool, the city quieter than usual. You unlock your phone, thumb hovering over Vanâs contact for a full ten seconds before you grimace and scroll past it.
Nope. Sheâd yell. Sheâd yell a lot.
You keep scrolling, and land on a name that brings relief like a balm. Akilah. You call before you can talk yourself out of it.
She picks up on the second ring. âHey, chef. You alive?â
You let out a breathy laugh. âBarely.â
âRough day at the restaurant?â
âNot even. I meanâyes. But not because of the kitchen.â
Thereâs a pause. âOkay. Do I need tea or tequila for this?â
You smile, the knot in your chest easing just a little. âBoth? But Iâll settle for just⌠you. Being chill. No yelling.â
Akilah hums. âSo Van doesnât know whatever this is?â
âGod, no. I like my ears unshattered.â
Another beat of silence, and then, gently, âSo. What happened?â
You lean back against the wall, eyes on the skyline. âNatalie called.â
Akilah doesnât react. Just waits, steady and soft, like she always is.
âI picked up,â you add, quieter now. âAnd it wasnâtâit wasnât anything bad. It was sweet. She was sweet.â
You hear her shifting on the other end. âAnd thatâs⌠bad?â
You groan, dragging your hand over your face. âNo. Maybe. I donât know. She said she remembers our first kiss. And she meant it, not in some flirty wayâokay, maybe it started flirty. But then she got all earnest andâugh.â
âEarnest Natalie?â Akilah sounds impressed. âWow. Times really have changed.â
âI know. And thatâs the problem. Because sheâs⌠different. But I donât know if I am. Not when she looks at me like that and it still makes me feel like Iâm sixteen again.â
Akilah doesnât say anything right away. You can hear the soft clink of her tea mug in the background, the creak of a chair.
âAnd then thereâs Charlotte,â you admit.
Now that gets a knowing exhale from the other end.
You add quickly, âNothing happened.â
Akilah snorts. âYet.â
âAkilah.â
âIâm just saying.â
You sigh, eyes fluttering closed. âI feel like Iâm losing my mind. Natalie is⌠old feelings in a new box. And Charlotte isââ
âTerrifying?â
You laugh. âYeah. A little.â
Akilah goes quiet for a moment. Then, with the soft certainty that makes you trust her, she says, âYou donât owe anyone anything right now. Not Natalie. Not Charlotte. The only thing you owe yourself is honesty. About what you feel. What you want.â
You press your forehead to the cool glass of the balcony door. âI donât know what I want.â
âWell.â Akilahâs voice is warm. âThen I guess youâre just gonna have to figure it out. Slowly. Like a soup. Not a microwave dinner.â
You snort. âGod, youâve been dating Travis too long.â
âMaybe.â She pauses. âBut Iâm also not wrong.â
âNo,â you murmur. âYouâre not.â
You donât hang up for another ten minutes. Akilah just keeps talking softly about her garden and Travisâs new menu research from hell and how she saw a pigeon try to fight a rat today. Normal things. Gentle things. Just enough calm to hold you over while your heart tries to sort itself out.
And for now, thatâs enough tonight, maybe. You were still half-asleep the next morning when your phone buzzed. The light of early morning slipped through the slats of your blinds, painting golden stripes across your bedroom wall. You buried your face deeper into the pillow, groaning as you blindly reached for your phone on the nightstand.
6:47 AM.
A text from Lena.
Good morning. Just a heads up â Charlotte will be out of office starting Thursday. Aspen for a work trip.
Try to get all final reviews in before then if you want her eyes on anything.
You blinked at the screen.
Aspen?
You sat up slowly, your comforter pooling around your waist. The message shouldnât have surprised you, Charlotte ran an empire, after all, but still, something about it made your chest tighten.
Gone. For how long?
You reread the message. Then again. You werenât sure why it bothered you. Maybe it was the fact that the last few days with Charlotte had been⌠different. Softer. Closer. And now, with the quiet weight of the almost kiss between you, the thought of her vanishing to another state felt too sudden. Too soon.
You rubbed at your eyes, then typed out a quick response.
Thanks for the heads up. Iâll tighten up the draft menus and get them in by tonight.
You hovered a second longer, thumb tapping at the corner of your phone. You considered texting Charlotte too. Something casual. Something⌠not about work.
Charlotteâs voice was calm. Too calm. That clipped, even tone she used whenever she was trying very hard not to scream.
âI am running the entire flagship,â she said evenly, hands pressed flat on the glass table in her fatherâs downtown office. âI donât understand how you expect me to split my time between New York and Aspen when the board is breathing down my neck to deliver this launch.â
Malcolm Matthews barely glanced up from the folder he was thumbing through. âThen figure it out. Iâve already told them youâd be in Aspen by Friday. Youâll meet with the hospitality lead and consult with logistics while youâre there.â
âBut why me? Why not Jensen or Claudia? Or literally anyone who isnât already juggling the Matthews Groupâs most high-profile opening in over a decade?â
Malcolmâs eyes flicked to her, sharp. âBecause theyâre not you.â
That shouldâve felt like a compliment. It didnât. It felt like a leash. The room was silent for a beat too long. Then Lena cleared her throat quietly, the only witness to the battle of wills. Charlotte didn't look at her. She was too busy imagining herself flipping the glass table over and screaming into the void.
âIâll go,â Charlotte said finally. âBut Iâm not going alone.â
That made Malcolm pause.
âI want to bring someone with me,â she added, tone shifting fast, like it had already been planned, already been decided. âThe chef weâve brought on to lead R&D. I need her insight on the Aspen menu. It'll be a working trip.â
Malcolm gave her a hard look. âFine. Send details to Jasmine.â
Charlotte nodded once, clipped and precise, and then it was over.
The moment they were back in the elevator, Lena turned to her with a slow, pointed look. âSo. Chef Y/N?â
Charlotte crossed her arms. âItâs professional.â
âUh-huh.â
âI need someone who can speak to the culinary side of Aspen. I canât do both.â
Lenaâs brow rose. âAnd this has nothing to do with the fact that youâve been humming in your office all day like a schoolgirl with a crush?â
Charlotte said nothing.
âYou do remember you told me you kissed her on the forehead like a Jane Austen character, last night on the phone, right?â
Charlotte groaned and leaned her head back against the elevator wall. âLena.â
âIâm just saying.â Lena tucked her tablet under her arm. âThereâs professionalism. And then thereâs whatever the hell this is.â
âI know.â Charlotteâs voice dropped. âI know. Itâs too much. You were right.â
Because it was too much. Charlotte hadnât stopped thinking about you. Not since that almost kiss. Not since her hand lingered too long on your waist. Not since the soft kiss to the cheek that Charlotte replayed every night like some ridiculous rom-com. It was pathetic.
She didnât want to be away from her.
Not even for a few days. Sheâd tried to rationalize it, she needed your expertise, your palette, your eye for flavor. But the truth was, she just wanted you near. The thought of going to Aspen without you made her stomach twist. Like sheâd be leaving something⌠unfinished.
And then, as if summoned by the universe and Charlotteâs unraveling self-control, her phone buzzed.
Before your trip to wherever we should get go back to that pizza spotâŚfor research purposes of course. đ
Maybe also because youâre leaving me alone for a whole week. đŞ
Charlotte stared at the two texts. Then smiled. And just like that, all reason scattered. She turned to Lena, who was already rolling her eyes. âI donât care,â Charlotte said. âI really donât.â
Lena sighed. âI figured.â
Charlotte tucked her phone away, heart already racing again. âBut thank you for pretending you believed me for a whole four floors.â
Lena smirked. âIt was exhausting.â
Charlotte didnât care. Not one bit. Because you were coming with her to Aspen.
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A/N: I added a fun lil cooking scene for yâallđââď¸
The kitchen buzzed with its usual rhythm, steam curling from pots, knives against boards, the distant hum of ovens warming, but Charlotte was moving through it like it was a dream.
There was a faint, contented smile on her face. A softness in her eyes that hadnât been there in weeks. She was floating.
âChef Matthews, the cod deliveryâs here.â
âMm? Oh. Great. Put it near station three.â She said it with a hum. Actually, she was humming.
You, on the other hand, were only pretending to be focused. You had an aromatic blend of garlic, shallots, and fresh thyme sizzling in a pan, a duck leg crisping in rendered fat, and a small bowl of reduced pomegranate glaze cooling on the side. Your knife worked swiftly, finely chopping parsley and tarragon, but your thoughts?
Still parked outside your apartment last night. Still on the way Charlotteâs cheek felt under your lips. Still reeling from Natalieâs sudden reappearance..
You tossed the herbs into the pan, gave it a quick swirl, and lifted the duck confit with tongs, watching the crisped skin glisten under the lights. It smelled like winter and bittersweet memories. Your phone buzzed again in your pocket. You ignored it.
âHey.â
You looked up. Charlotte was suddenly beside you, hands stuffed in her coat pockets, smile too bright for a Monday morning.
âIâve been thinking about your duck confit variation,â she said. âThe pomegranate glaze? That citrus-herb crunch on top? Itâs kind of brilliant.â
You arched a brow with a teasing smile. âOnly kind of?â
Her grin widened. âFine. Itâs stupidly brilliant. I was wondering if youâd be open to building a small plate version for the tasting menu.â
Your eyebrows lifted in surprise. âAÂ small plate? Not just a seasonal special?â
âIt deserves a permanent spot.â
You were about to say something, deflect, maybe joke but then Lena swept in with her tablet and a look that said the fun was over.
âCharlotte, your father just called. Heâs expecting you in Aspen by the end of the week. Business summit. Top floor boardroom. Legacy talks. He wants your schedule cleared.â
Charlotteâs smile dimmed. Just for a second, but you caught it, the drop in her shoulders, the breath she didnât take. âThanks, Lena,â she said.
Lena left with a quiet glance at you that said, Be kind.
You slid the duck confit onto a warm plate, drizzled it with glaze, and garnished it with a pinch of microgreens. Then, wiping your hands, you turned to her. âYou okay?â
Charlotte let out a breath. She gave you a smile, small and too practiced. âYeah. Itâs justâhe always does this. Calls it an opportunity and then dumps a list of crises like Iâm the only one who can fix it.â
You tilted your head, plating quietly as you listened. âIsnât that what being in charge means?â
âI donât mind being in charge.â Her voice was tight. âI mind being made to feel like itâs penance.â
You reached for another dish, this one already cooled, a cauliflower purĂŠe youâd been testing. As you plated beside her, you offered gently, âThen make this place yours.â
She looked at you then, really looked. And something in her chest cracked open.
âIâve been doing everything I can to make this flagship restaurant mine. Not his. Not the boardâs. Mine. And when Iâm here... with you in this kitchen...â she paused, âit feels like it could be.â
Your hands stilled over the plate. There it was again, that impossible, dizzying thread between you. The one that always felt one breath from snapping.
Your hand brushed hers, slow and deliberate. âThen letâs make it yours.â
Charlotteâs fingers closed around yours, hesitant and warm. Her eyes flicked to your mouth. You didnât even pretend you werenât leaning closer. The scent of citrus and rendered fat clung to your clothes. Her breath mingled with yours.
And then she froze. A blink. A step back. âWeâre at work,â she whispered, almost regretful.
You nodded, throat tight. âRight.â
Still, neither of you moved far. Her hand lingered a second longer.
The rest of the day passed in a blur of movement, and not looking at each other. Orders were fired, dishes plated, and cooks barked like orchestra conductors. The duck confit small plate was tested on the staff. It was a hit.
And hours later, when the kitchen had long since emptied, chairs stacked and counters wiped down, the kitchen was quiet again. Just the hum of the walk-in fridge and the scent of citrus still clinging to your clothes.
You reset the pans. Labeled a few containers. Wiped the steel prep table where her hand had touched yours. You tucked a towel over your shoulder, carefully organizing the garnish trays, half-lost in your own thoughts. And then your phone buzzed.
Natalie Scatorccio.
You stared at the screen, thumb hovering. Sheâd already texted earlierâa simple âLanded.â No emojis. No drama. Now she was calling? You sighed, leaning on the prep counter. The last thing you wanted was more mixed signals. More half-sincere apologies laced with innuendo.
But instead of answering, your mind drifted backward to last night. Natalie was waiting at your door, still in her black suit from the gala, minus the tie, her sleeves rolled and hair messily tucked behind her ears.
âYou said you were flying out at five,â you had said, slowly, the surprise making you sound flat.
âI am,â she replied. âI just... wanted to spend a little time. Even if itâs not what it used to be.â
You stared at her for a long moment before stepping aside. She didnât push. Didnât touch.
Instead, she sat on your couch with her legs curled under her, talking about her consulting gig in Austin, the weird airport sandwich she regretted. It was weird how normal it felt. It was weird how casual she was being in your home.
Last time they had been this casual with one another in an apartment, you were convinced theyâd be buying one of their own in a year. Her hands seemed to drum on her thigh as she spoke cooly, of things that were dwelling in her mind.
You listened. You listened because surely this appearance was important enough to drop in on her ex. You tilted your head and watched as her blue eyes seemed to study you. Like she was a hunter trying to find the best angle to catch you.
Still then she sighed, and leaned back into your couch, and then finally she got to the point. âI hated seeing Charlotte all over you tonight,â she admitted, her voice low, eyes not meeting yours. âNot because I still want you. Not like that. But because you were always mine, even when we were a disaster.â
You let out a dry laugh. âThat's not a great pitch for friendship.â
Natalie shrugged, looking... older, somehow. âIâll admit I miss you in more than a friend way.â
âNatââ
Natalie puts a hand up to stop you. âNo. I know. I know weâre past that. I justâŚI just realized I still want in on your life. I just canât lose you. I donât want to. I want to make the friend thing work.â She says, finally meeting your eyes.
You waited for the twist. The touch. The late-night pull. The unsolicited kiss. But it never came.
She asked to sleep on your couch till the morning. And she stayed on the couch. Fell asleep curled in a blanket, her back to you, like a dog left out in the rain who didnât expect to be let in.
In the morning, she left quietly. A note on the counter:Â Thank you for the couch. Donât forget your jacket at the restaurant. And tell Charlotte to keep her hands to herself. Kidding. Sort of. Hopefully, see you soon. -Nat <3
You wereâŚsurprised. No, you were more than surprised. You were impressed. When the fuck did Natalie Scatorccio grow up? It was almost attractive how respectful and honoring she was all night. It left your stomach in a pit.
It made your brain drift to her all day, which mightâve been the end goal for her. She wanted to be top of mind. And you hated that she was successful.
The phone buzzed again in your palm. You sighed. And this time, you answered.
âHey,â you said.
âHey,â Natalie replied, and there was warmth in her voice. âI landed. My driverâs late, and Iâve already forgotten how humid it is here.â
You smiled despite yourself. âGlad you made it safe.â
âYeah,â she said, quieter now. âThanks for... last night. I know it was probably weird. But I meant it. Iâm glad we talked. And Iâll try not to make it harder for you.â
There was a pause. âYou were always the best person I knew,â she added softly. âI just didnât know how to treat you like it.â
You closed your eyes, leaning against the cool steel of the fridge.
âThanks for not being a mess last night,â you said. âI wasnât expecting that.â
âIâm working on being less of one,â Natalie said. âAnyway. Just wanted to say that. Iâll let you go. Love you.â
She didnât wait for you to say it back before she hung up first. But even after the line went dead, you stood there in the stillness, caught somewhere between the past and whatever strange, quiet thing the present was becoming. Youâre scrubbing out the last of the sautĂŠ pans when you hear the soft click of heels against tile. You donât have to look up.
âYouâre late,â you call, glancing over your shoulder.
Charlotte leans against the doorway, hair slightly tousled from the wind, blazer unbuttoned, hands in her pockets like she owns every square inch of the night. âTraffic was abysmal. Wall Street rats everywhere.â
âMustâve been a real nightmare. All that money clogging the roads.â
She smiles at that, stepping further into the kitchen. âI told you Iâd walk you home.â
You arch a brow. âDidnât realize you were serious.â
Charlotte shrugs, a little awkward. âWell⌠I was. Thought it might be nice.â A pause. âPlus, Lena said youâve been in your own head since this morning.â
You pretend to scoff. âLena needs a hobby.â
âShe has one. Itâs called watching you roll your eyes when you think no oneâs looking.â
You laugh, flipping off the last light in the kitchen as you grab your bag. âFine. Youâre walking me home. But if I trip on the sidewalk, youâre legally responsible.â
âWouldnât dream of letting you fall,â Charlotte says, softly, so soft you almost donât hear it.
New York is quieter in that golden lull between 11:30 and midnight. Still alive, still buzzingâbut slowed down. You and Charlotte walk side by side, your shoulders brushing now and then. The silence between you is comfortable until she glances down at your stomach and grins.
âYou hungry?â
You hesitate. âMaybe.â
âThereâs this pizza spot. Ridiculously good. Horrible hours. Weâd have to eat on the curb like rats.â
âTempting.â
âMy treat,â she adds, eyes gleaming. âConsider it hazard pay for working under my tyrannical rule.â
You snort. âFine. But if itâs a trap and I end up in a Yelp review about someone proposing in public, Iâm walking out.â
Twenty minutes later, you're convinced the night has become kind of perfect. A white paper plate, a greasy slice folded in half, city lights bouncing off windows around you. Charlotte sits beside you, chewing with the grace of a raccoon. Both your backs turned to the Pizza shop Charlotte swears by.
âYou have marinara on your chin,â you say.
She frowns down. âBattle wounds.â
You laugh, brushing it off with your thumb before you even think about it. Your hand lingers a second longer than it should.
âThanks,â she says, voice suddenly quiet.
You both sit for a beat. A cab honks in the distance. A guy in a suit walks by arguing into his airpods. The moment should break, but it doesnât.
âYouâre good at this,â Charlotte says suddenly. âThe restaurant. Leading. Even when Iâm... a lot.â
You smirk. âYouâre always a lot.â
Charlotte mock gasps. âRude.â
âTrue.â
Sheâs smiling at you. That open, unguarded kind of smile she rarely gives anyone. You realize, absently, that her knee is touching yours. You should probably shift away. You donât.
âI like this,â she says.
âWhat? Pizza?â
âThis. You. Out here with me. Feels like I won something.â
Your breath catches. âThatâs dangerously cheesy, even for pizza.â
âI meant it,â she says, and sheâs still smiling, but thereâs a flicker of something honest behind it.
âI know,â you say, voice soft.
She stands suddenly. âIâm gonna run to the bathroom before we start walking again. Try not to fall in love with me while Iâm gone.â
You give her a half-laugh, half-snort, shoving her lightly as she heads into the bodega next door. You take a bite of pizza, you barely taste, staring at the spot where sheâd been sitting. And just like that, the thought slams into you.
You like her.
Not just the âha-ha we flirt sometimesâ kind of like. Not just âI admire her talentâ or âsheâs hot and terrifyingâ.
You like her. The way she laughs. The way she looks at you like youâre the only person that matters in a room. The way she makes everything feel a little less heavy, even when sheâs under pressure herself.
It makes your stomach twist, not with dread, but with something just as terrifying. Youâre not sure what happens next. But for the first time in a long time, you want to find out. You also realizeâŚjust because you like her doesnt mean she likes you.
Wasnât it always Charlotte who ran away? After every kiss, hook-up, and tender moment. Wasnât it always her who walked away, or left you hanging? You frowned because, yeah, she did.
Yet, the thought of her now swept those thoughts out of your mind. And the undeniable rush of butterflies exploded into your chest. Even the idea of a kiss from her, or her hands on yours. It had you dry swallowing, to feel level.
Oh no.
You try your best to walk normally. Casually. Like Charlotte didnât just make you laugh harder than you have all week. Like you hadnât just spent the past half hour feeling like your world tilted slightly on its axis over a paper plate of pizza grease.
Charlotte walks beside you with that maddening ease, hands in her pockets, posture just shy of smug. You sneak a glance at her and immediately regret it. Sheâs doing that smile again, the one thatâs both soft and knowing, and it makes your stomach twist.
âSo,â she says, voice low, almost teasing. âYou gonna tell me why you went all silent the minute I came back from the bathroom?â
You shrug a little too hard. âDid I?â
âMm.â She hums, a hint of a laugh on her face. âVery convincing.â
You stumble slightly on an uneven patch of sidewalk, and Charlotte instinctively reaches out to steady you, her hand grazing your elbow. âCareful,â she murmurs. âI like my culinary geniuses upright and fully mobile.â
You scoff, flustered. âDonât flatter yourself. That was a structural failure. Sidewalk sabotage.â
âOh, Iâm the one flattering myself?â she teases. âInteresting, considering you were about five seconds from serenading me with a pizza sonnet before I walked away.â
âI hate you,â you mutter, and she just laughs a full, delighted sound that makes your chest ache.
You reach your door with a reluctant sigh. Neither of you makes a move to end the moment. Charlotte shuffles slightly, glancing up at your building like sheâs memorizing it.
âWell,â she says, all soft charm again, âguess this is goodnight.â
You hesitate only a beat before stepping in and leaning up to kiss her cheek. Itâs slow, deliberate, and warm, and you feel her skin go hot under your lips. When you pull back, Charlotteâs grinning, wide, stunned, and ridiculous.
âIs this going to be our thing every time I drop you off at home?â she asks.
You raise an eyebrow. âDepends. Are you going to make this a habit?â
Her eyes drop to your lips for a half-second, and then right back to your eyes. âIf it means youâre kissing me, then absolutely.â
Your heart stutters. Your reply gets caught in your throat, but before you can say anything, Charlotte steps forward, hands on your waist to steady you, and presses a kiss to your forehead. Itâs soft. Gentle. Oh, so tender. You close your eyes at the warmth of it.
âGoodnight,â she says softly, still close.
And then sheâs gone, walking back down the steps like she didnât just completely knock the air out of you. You lean back against your door, fingers brushing the spot on your forehead where she kissed you, heart pounding wildly.
A/N: I know I left u hanging for no reservations but hereâs a present đ¤˛đź nat has all the audacity đ¤đź
Charlotte descended the stage with effortless poise, applause still buzzing in the background, her focus narrowing to the figure in red silk. You. Laughing softly. Smiling. And then she saw who stood next to you.
Someone tall. Cool. Beautiful. Leaning a little too close.
Natalie Scatorccio, a name and face she remembered well. All those late-night conversations of how she broke your heart, and Lottie being the one to hold you. She wanted to have a face to the name. She never forgot how⌠beautiful she looked. How exactly opposite she was to Lottie.
Or the parties where Charlotte had to pretend not to stare as you would straddle her lap, and kiss her like she was the only person on earth you wanted to kiss. Her stomach was in knots remembering it all. Even now seeing the way Natalieâs voice seemed to draw a laugh out of you, the way you feel into an automatic rhythm with her.
The room felt hot. Charlotteâs stride slowed for only a second before she composed herself and approached. She slipped in beside you, her voice light but lined with steel. âSorry I took so long. Everything okay over here?â
Your smile faltered for a fraction of a second, but your tone stayed easy. âAll good. Charlotte, this is Natalie.â
Charlotteâs eyes never left her. âRight. Natalie Scatorccio. Weâve met.â
Natalie turned, extending her hand with a faint smirk and a confused glint in her eye. âNot officially, I donât think.â
Charlotte shook it, firm and brief, her other hand already resting low at your waist. The touch made you resist the urge to shiver. âWell, here we are.â
âHere we are,â Natalie echoed.
âStill consulting?â Charlotte asked coolly, sipping her champagne.
Natalie grinned. âYou keep tabs, huh?â
âMade sure to know everyone on the guest list. Especially anyone talking to my staff.â
You coughed and gave Charlotte a sharp look, but Natalie just laughed like she was impressed.
âAutomotive, still. Helping restructure the logistics arm of a company in Dallas. Boring corporate stuff. Nothing nearly as sexy as launching a flagship in Manhattan.â
Charlotteâs smile didnât reach her eyes. âMm, well. Itâs not about sexy. Itâs about precision.â
Natalie lifted her flute. âAnd you Matthewâs always love being precise.â
Charlotte's fingers tensed on your waist, but she recovered quickly. âPrecision keeps the business standing. And people in line.â
Natalie tilted her head, eyes flicking to you. âIâm sure your teamâs very disciplined.â
You opened your mouth to say something, anything, to steer them off the inevitable collision courseâbut Natalie was already leaning in, lips brushing your cheek far too closely to your mouth with the kind of precision that was entirely intentional.
âText me before I fly out?â Natalie murmured, the whisper sliding right past Charlotteâs defenses.
You froze, with a wide-eyed nod. âSure.â
Charlotte didnât wait. Her hand slipped lower, fingers tightening just enough to send a message.
âWe should go dance,â Charlotte said, voice clipped.
You feel yourself take a sharp breath, and then you swallow hard. âNow?â
âYes.â
Charlotte was already leading you away, her grip steady, the crowd parting as they moved toward the dance floor. She didnât look back. Natalie didnât follow. And you? Well, you were trying very hard not to combust.
The music was elegant and low, the kind that floated around you like silk and made everything feel a little closer, a little quieter. Charlotte's hand rested at the small of your back, guiding you into the sway of the room like it was second nature. It probably was, for Charlotte, anyway. She moved with a kind of practiced grace, but her shoulders were tight.
You could feel it, even in the careful way their hands met.
"I'm sorry about that," you said softly, not looking at her. "Natalie⌠sheâs kind of unpredictable."
You looked up at her. âThat sounded a lot like itâs not fine.â
Charlotte sighed, her voice gentle, but too honest to be convincing. âSheâs your past. I donât have a say in who talks to you. Or who kisses⌠too close to your mouth.â
You winced. âYeah, that was⌠unexpected.â
Charlotte gave a tight smile, one that didnât quite hide the flush rising up her throat. âYou donât have to explain anything to me.â
You searched her face. âI just didnât want tonight to be weird.â
âItâs not weird,â Charlotte said quickly, then, realizing how stiff she sounded, added more softly, âOkay, itâs a little weird. But not⌠bad weird.â
You exhaled, letting your forehead nearly rest against Charlotteâs collarbone as they turned with the music. âWant me to pivot the conversation to something incredibly safe and stupid?â
Charlotte huffed a soft laugh, the tension cracking just slightly. âPlease.â
You lifted your head, eyes gleaming. âOkay. You know those people who claim tomatoes are fruits? And then think theyâre clever because they call ketchup a smoothie?â
Charlotte blinked. âThatâs not real.â
âOh, itâs very real,â you said solemnly. âAnd those people should be monitored.â
Charlotte laughed then, and the sound of it did something warm to your chest. Her laugh was quieter now, closer, and her grip around you had softened without either of them noticing. They were still dancing, barely, just enough to not draw attention. But mostly, they were just⌠there. Holding each other.
âI think you might be dangerous,â Charlotte murmured.
You smirked. âOnly in kitchens and casual debates about condiments.â
Charlotteâs eyes met yours, slow and soft and open in a way that made the music feel far away. Her voice dropped to something fragile. âYou look beautiful tonight.â
Your breath caught, and for the first time since Natalie reappeared, it was your turn to be flustered. âYou clean up pretty nice yourself, Matthews.â
âLottie,â Charlotte corrected, almost under her breath. âYou called me Lottie earlier.â
You smiled, bashful now. âYeah. I remember.â
Charlotteâs hand tightened just a little, just enough. Neither of them said anything else for a moment. Just the music.
And the distance between them kept shifting, drawing closer.
Charlotte introduced you to a dozen people over the course of the night, but none made her as visibly nervous as the moment she approached a tall, elegant blonde woman near the back bar, nursing a glass of something amber and neat.
âLaura Lee,â Charlotte said, her voice oddly formal. âThis is Y/n. Y/n, this is Laura Leeâmy best friend since forever.â
Laura Lee turned, her sharp eyes landing on you, and immediately a bright smile bloomed on her face. âSo youâre the famous Y/n.â
Charlotte groaned under her breath.
You paused and looked between her and Lottie. âFamous?â
âOh, please,â Laura Lee said, reaching out for a warm handshake. âShe talks about you all the time. It's borderline annoying.â
Charlotte choked on her champagne.
Laura Lee grinned wickedly. âThough I must sayâshe undersold you. Youâre even more beautiful than she said.â
Charlotte flushed a full shade of crimson. You nearly dropped your glass at the admission from Laura Lee.
âThatâsâthatâs notââ Charlotte tried to cut in, but Laura Lee was already sipping her drink, delighting in both your stunned silence.
âIâm going to get a refill,â Laura Lee said with a wink. âTry not to combust.â
Charlotte muttered something that sounded like betrayal as they parted ways. But her hand settled on the small of your back again, gently guiding you through the crowd. It lingered a little longer this time.
They found a quieter table near the terrace, sitting close enough that their knees brushed beneath the linen-draped table. The night had cooled, but inside the warmth lingered, chatter, clinking glasses, soft jazz weaving through everything.
Your phone buzzed against your clutch. You glanced at it, just enough to see the name:Â Natalie Scatorccio.
Charlotteâs voice was low. âIs that⌠Natalie?â
You let out a nervous laugh, trying to downplay the shift in air. âWhy? Jealous?â
Charlotte didnât smile. She didnât deflect. She looked at you, eyes unreadable, but her voice steady. âYeah.â
It hit like a stone tossed gently into water, unexpected but rippling deep.
You froze, the blush from Laura Leeâs compliment returning in full force. Your mouth parted, searching for something clever or lighthearted to say, but it all dissolved into the heat in your chest.
It mightâve been the champagne. Or Charlotte in that impossibly tailored black suit. Or the way the candlelight flickered across her face like it had been waiting for this moment too.
You leaned in, barelyâjust enough to feel the pull between them catch fire. And Charlotte was leaning in, too. Her eyes dipped to your lips.
The air hummed as you both inched closer and closer. â RING.
Charlotte blinked and fumbled for her phone. She stared at the screen, her expression crumpling just slightly.
âMy dad,â she said, apologetic but already rising. âI have to take this.â
You nodded, swallowing the feeling clawing up your throat. âOf course.â
Charlotte hesitated before walking away, like she wanted to say something else. But instead, she pressed a soft hand to your shoulder and mouthed Iâm sorry before disappearing toward the back hall.
You stared down at your still-glowing phone. One text from Natalie. One almost-kiss from Lottie. And a heart that wouldnât stop pounding.
Charlotte slipped out the side door of the ballroom, ducking into a quieter service corridor lined with coat racks and catering trays. The phone was still pressed to her ear when she leaned against the wall, posture rigid.
ââI know, I know, Iâm sorry,â came her fatherâs voice, barely apologetic, more distracted than anything else. âSomething came up with the Tokyo team. I couldnât make it tonight. But I trust the eventâs going well?â
Charlotteâs jaw clenched. âYeah. Itâs fine. Great, actually. Y/n, my new development lead sheâsââ
âI donât care about the menu right now, Charlotte,â he cut in. âLook, I need you to pivot. Thereâs an issue with the third quarter reports from the Aspen location. Itâs not adding up, and the regional managerâs on vacation.â
Charlotte blinked. âWaitâAspen? I donât have capacity to pick that up. Iâm already full-throttle with the flagshipââ
âYouâll make capacity,â he said coolly. âBecause youâre the only one I trust not to completely screw it up.â
Her fingers curled tighter around the phone.
âYou always say you want more responsibility. This is it. Figure it out.â
And thenâclick. The line went dead. Charlotte lowered the phone slowly. Her reflection glared back at her in the silver pan resting on a nearby serving cart. For a second, she just stood there, eyes wet and unfocused, jaw tight.
She swallowed hard, pressed her hands to her face, then took a long, grounding breath. When she returned to the ballroom, her smile was almost convincing.
Almost.
You noticed the second she sat down again. âYou okay?â you asked gently, brows pinched with concern.
Charlotte tried to wave it off with a vague shrug. âFamily call. You know how that goes.â
But her shoulders were stiff, and the light behind her eyes wasnât quite the same. Her glass was empty, but she reached for it anyway, pretending to sip.
You leaned in slightly, not pushing but making your presence known. âYou sure you donât wanna talk about it?â
Charlotte met her gaze, and for the briefest moment, the mask falteredâjust enough for you to see it: the weight of expectation, of always being the one who held the entire world together.
âIâm fine,â Charlotte murmured, quieter this time.
You didnât believe her. But you didnât say that. Instead, you reached forward and gently placed your hand over Charlotteâs, thumb brushing the edge of her knuckles. The small touch felt like a silent I see you. Even if you donât want me to.
Charlotteâs eyes dropped to their hands, and her breath hitched. She didnât pull away.
The ride back was warm in the kind of way that made you not want to speak too loud. Charlotte had her personal car brought around to take you home. She drove with one hand on the wheel, the other resting loosely in her lap, where your fingers had brushed earlier in the night and never quite made it back again.
You talked about everything and nothing. Where to find the best croissants in the city. The couple who got engaged during the event. Some new seafood vendor Charlotte swore by. But beneath the conversation was a current of something unspoken, something soft, blooming, and real.
At red lights, her eyes would flick over to you. Not in a way that asked for anything. Just in a way that said, God, I like sitting next to you.
By the time you pulled up to your building, the city was quiet. The party noise had faded into the kind of still that only New York could manage, buzzing faintly under the surface.
Charlotte parked and turned toward you. âI had fun tonight.â
You smiled. âMe too.â
There was a pause. The kind where a lot could happen. The kind where, a year ago, you both mightâve done something reckless. But now? You leaned in slowly and kissed her cheek. Soft, lingering. One hand resting lightly on her shoulder.
âThanks for tonight, Lottie,â you whispered. âFor everything.â
Charlotte blinked. Her whole body seemed to warm beneath your touch. When you pulled away, she was smiling wide, goofy, stunned.
She laughed under her breath and reached for you again, pulling you into a hug that was all arms and warmth and lingering scent of her perfume. You held her back, just as tightly.
When she let go, her hands hovered near yours like she didnât quite want to stop touching you. But eventually, she let go and you stepped out into the night.
You walked slowly, as if the moment might last longer if you didnât hurry. Your heels clicked against the sidewalk, heartbeat still a little high. Your fingers still tingled from the brush of her cheek.
But when you turned the corner to your buildingâs front stepsâyour heart dropped. There she was.
Natalie Scatorccio.
Still in that black suit. Still wearing that same champagne-glass smirk. Leaning casually against your apartment door like she hadnât kissed you too close hours ago. Like she hadnât disappeared for months. She was standing there like she had every right to be there.
She straightened up as you approached, her voice low, dry, unmistakably hers.
âTold you Iâd text. But, you know me. Always been more of a show-up-at-your-door kind of girl.â
Your breath caught. Because of course she was. Of course tonight couldnât just end softly. Charlotteâs cheek still warmed your lips. And now Natalie was hereâburning through your carefully stitched calm with one look.
âCan we talk?â she asked, softer this time.
And somehow, you had no idea what to say.
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