november 25, 2019: [ new url is @/live-from-hotland, thanks anon. ]
[jan 3, 2020: if jirachi makes her cuphead multimuse, i’ll update this post once again. ]
so, after i made this post about six-sided-sinner, she made a reply post on her personal blog, and glittergummy also made a post about me.
https://pastelsugarstar.tumblr.com/post/187726175437/re-six-sided-sinner [ https://web.archive.org/web/20190915210557/https://pastelsugarstar.tumblr.com/post/187726175437/re-six-sided-sinner ]
here’s a reply to that. this is long and not under a read more, press j on the dashboard to skip it. pedophilia mentions below.
i don’t need pedophilia to be defined to me, jirachi. i don’t know if you forgot somehow, but let me state it again.
i am a victim of pedophilia.
don’t you DARE try to rant at me about how pedophilia damages people’s lives. do you think i don’t feel that damage every second i’m alive?
i don’t know why you think i CARE. i care SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE. because i was fucking molested, and then specifically abused further by being forced into looking at fanart of child/adult ships.
why the FUCK do you think i care about any of this?
you really honestly think that i enjoy this or something? do you think i enjoy randomly throwing out accusations everywhere because it’s fun?
i realized someone i cared about had a history of behavior that helps excuse pedophiles in online spaces, and made a post about it. your behaviors are weird, to the point i felt too uncomfortable trying to talk to you personally, and instead of making a genuine apology, you’re trying to deny things, trying to put words in my mouth, and generally digging a big hole. stop.
b) “That is what you are accusing someone of, when you call them a pedophile. It shouldn’t be used in situations like this.”
i specifically avoided calling you a pedophile, because i specifically did not believe you were actively physically harming children - i specifically referred to you as an apologist. stop repeating that i’m accusing you of being a pedophile. i am WELL aware that’s not a term to throw around lightly. from my post: “she’s definitely a pedophilia excuser + creepy, at the very least.”
again, from my original post:
https://web.archive.org/web/20190913000234/https://six-sided-sinner.tumblr.com/post/166666355255/dicecup-sounds-adorable-but-im-not-quite-sure [2017]
https://web.archive.org/web/20190913123957/https://six-sided-sinner.tumblr.com/post/179368643575/okay-alright-i-saw-a-post-and-it-made-me-want [2018] this post specifically… talks about how shipping siblings, thor and loki, is actually cool.
https://web.archive.org/web/20190913124126/https://six-sided-sinner.tumblr.com/post/179292848965/rules-of-a-happy-healthy-fandom [2018] “fiction isn’t reality"
https://web.archive.org/web/20190913002608/https://six-sided-sinner.tumblr.com/post/182943768475/yall-remember-that-wave-when-people-were-trying [feb 2019] check out the tags on this post in particular:
https://web.archive.org/web/20190913123735/https://six-sided-sinner.tumblr.com/post/184116982735/rpmemes-galore-repeat-after-me-writing-a [apr 2019]
while i don’t have archived links, i also have spoken to people who saw you reblog posts of similar caliber this march. you made cupdice/dicemug posts a long time ago, and while you stopped openly shipping that, you’ve continued to reblog posts and make comments about pedophilic and incestuous ships several times. that is what i said in my original post. i did not say you were a pedophile. i did not say i was going to do anything that could get you arrested. (???????)
now, re: glittergummy:
https://web.archive.org/web/20190915214707/https://glittergummy.tumblr.com/post/187731863872/my-experience-with-monokingrps
a) i blocked you because you were godmoding. you did it a lot in our one thread and it came to a point that i felt too anxious to talk to you, and i didn’t feel like you would change since i realized you tended to do that a lot in all the threads i saw you do, and it made me uncomfortable. that is literally the only reason i blocked you specifically. because you godmoded. not because of any joke or anything.
b) you sent me a message on another sideblog of mine, asking if i blocked you. this is reasonable. you thought we were friends and were probably confused. anxiously, i said yes and blocked you from that other sideblog. i could grab a screencap of this convo if somebody really wanted.
c) you then repeatedly block evaded by following me from your other blog, rnarblesocla on many of my blogs, despite the fact that each of my blogs very clearly states who i am - there’s no way you forgot who i was, since i apparently hurt you so much by blocking you. i could go grab screenshots of you following me repeatedly on my different sideblogs if anybody wanted. and here’s a post from somebody else about why block evading is fucked up, if it’s not clear. https://monokingrps.tumblr.com/post/187033549710/icxolation-marypsue-hey-folks-quick-internet
d) i’m allowed to block people. blocking people is allowed. the block button is not a request form. i am not required to explain why i’m blocking someone. it exists to be used when a user is uncomfortable. i’m sorry i did so while we were threading, but the way you were godmoding in our threads caught up to me quickly. i didn’t send you hate. i didn’t make vagueposts about you. i blocked you quietly and moved on. again, i’m allowed to block people and not have to explain why. the block button is made to be used. in fact, i was even nervous about blocking you at all. you make it sound like me doing so was out of some weird intent to turn my back on a friend or something, but i felt incredibly bad for doing it at all.
this is the most disgusting thing anyone has ever said to me. you should be ashamed of yourself. it’s none of your business, but since a lot of the content of this post isn’t either:
i AM getting professional help at the moment. i’ve been in therapy since 2015 to treat my ptsd, depression, and anxiety, thank you very much. i don’t think it’s right for you to suggest a survivor should go to therapy because he didun’t enjoy seeing someone repeatedly excuse potentially nasty content. or for blocking you. honestly, what the hell? do you think about everyone who blocks you this way?
now that I’ve said that, and spilled my heart out onto the tumblr dashboard for strangers who won’t care about me.
let me go ahead and make something else known. this entire mess, especially gigi repeatedly telling me i’m a bad person, has thrown my mental health into jeopardy. i called into work today because i was too suicidal to function.
discussing pedophilia and being told i’m a bad person is not healthy for me, so i’m not going to be responding to anything else either of you post about this, because i’m scared i’m going to injure myself and it isn’t worth it.
i’m gonna post this, and then leave, because i can’t be in any rp community that acts like this, even if either or both of you are gone. so, go enjoy your lives.