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You can't fill water in a broken utensil no matter how hard you try!!!

Dancing on the beat but music is incomplete

The love you gave me filled me but what you took left me nothing but empty

Just another dusk when i am sitting with my novel and evening coffe trying to enjoy the story but i am lost . Is there anything wrong ? whats that eating me from inside out , its my free time i should be relaxing but this ain't relaxing . Its exam fear i have just 10 days left for paper of my life i have awaited this to finally get what i want . Its fear of failure which is not letting me relax , just not conquering this paper but fear of loosing my hope . I am fearing to lose my self in this huge solar system of competition , nothing actually calms it down the more i think the more i fear that i will lose myself my hope . you know when you love something and set it a parameter of getting happiness , you fear that you wont be happy no matter how much you prepared , what you got .

Being in relationship and being in love are two different things , we all have been in a relationship but how many have been in love that mad love . So as most of you I too have been in relationship but this time I am falling in love cause I seriously know the difference I have never been this subtle , a feeling of happiness , a feeling of knowing that person more nd more , feeling of just looking someone's face , trying to be there , talking and talking all day, that magical feeling . Well this is nothing but beautiful a sense of someone is happy because of your person or you mean same . That unraveling pages of our story and trust me it's magical .

well i just realised something i went downstairs to get my bottle filled and i saw my old grandmother siting all by her self in dark staring at sky well i know this isn't the realisation part . before going downstairs i was sitting at my terrace on non so comfy swing all by myself eyes filled cause yeah i was low . well i realised that its not the phase that we say yeah we are alone , we are facing adulthood. in reality me and my grandmother are same in this was i just have few more things in my daily routine and she doesn't. we are two people who can relate on this point of feeling alone just the difference is i have my earplugs and some taylor swift to go and then sit and stare sky . May be we both just stare straight into eyes of universe and finding answer

well most of you don’t know me but i am a medical aspirant . For NEET it’s my  3rd time . I have done all the syllabus and revised it well but i am experiencing anxiety like i don’t know whats that but i can feel a pit in my gut . well its just few days to go and i am desperate about this one thing in my life .

Time really doesn't posses wings but it flies when it's good time . We can't get enough of those good times we are having with our person. These 3 days felt like few minutes when we were together and 3 days feels like forever if we are not together well call me psycho but trust me these few minutes are those doses of happiness that we all need time to time

Well call me boring but this setup has some vibes trust me , I don't remember how many wedding I have attended but there is something about this setup . I don't know the boy side of story but girl side of story we all have imagined ourselves with our special ones in this beautiful setup

Monotony is the reality and we all need Vacation. Let's just take a moment and appreciate the beauty of this journey .

Friends are the integral part of our life . We can't really survive without these people they have equal share in everything be it rambling , fun ,happiness, sadness,breakup . They are those medicines which keep you alive and make this life loveable..

Do you know feeling of betrayal even if it's not betrayal ? There are incidents when you feel betrayed even if there is nothing that big . You are putting all your Hope's and day dreaming around something and that thing doesnt happen . I won't say things doesnt happen in the way you imagined but I am saying that things just doesn't happen. This morning something important was suppose to happen but it didn't.

MEET ME WHERE THE SUN MEETS THE HORIZON

Have you all heard of love at first sight . So this  was 3 yrs back  when  i met a  guy before leaving my city  . For me it was for the 1st time i was mesmerized with someone’s presence . In that meeting of 30 minutes  i already imagined that parallel world  life where we would be in love  but soon i realise I was not  that girl he would even notice  . After that i had no idea where he was and what he was upto . Being a family friend i usually asked my sister if she heard from him but there was never much of info except this that yeah he is okay and in relationship . Recently i got message from this unknown number and that unknown number belonged to none other than him . I was surprised as well as happy you know that ray of hope cause feelings never get over . so as soon as i get to know that this was him we had conversations all day all night . I discovered a lot about him but most importantly that he is not in relationship any more  and discovery  continues . He looks different now well obviously  he had his metamorphosis from late teenage to young adult from lean body to BUFF BODY   but let me take a moment as i share about his eyes .Trust me his eyes are this huge ocean of innocence where everything seems to be deep but nothing is so deep , everything seems to be dives away but they are just one splash away . He got himself 4 different personality and one different from other .  First one is that one tough person who can  scare death in it self  , second one is a professional man who is all about work  money and success, third one is most romantic soul who can really ROMANCE whole william shakespeare and fourth and last one is a child without the process of whole metamorphosis of being adult and responsible that child is so happy who sings INKI PINKI PONKI ... i know that’s something you could really not find i a grown up person . I am not the first  girl he is talking too or fallen for him like trust me he has whole long list of girls way smarter than me way stronger than me and way beautiful than  me .He has already loved and lost , tried relationships but didn’t give up on love . He is strong enough to keep everything inside him but i adore him when he tries to control you know this face where one is biting lips rolling eyes just to control heavy tears that time his face is nothing less  than an innocent  panda .During late night video calls he slept on call and he sleeps like baby  so much of peace and smile on face  so i call him sleeping panda , well there is  just not  only good sides of him wait for the other side well he is not that good of a person he has also the ailments of a ruthless person one side with no love no emotions . he has this habit of late night smoking and he shows off his skills of smoke rings and i make fun that yeah panda is smoking . HE is many things but most importantly he is this DAFFY . SELF WILLED person who cant be in boundation , rules either of life or of  society but to me he is just SMOKING PANDA