So Near While Apart

As she explained, we had a disagreement over a plot point and I've been swamped with my still-kinda-new-but-really-awesome job. When we sort it out, we'll be back up and running! We just want to make sure everything goes smoothly and makes sense and that we're both happy about it.

Also, just to clarify, we weren't clashing with EACH OTHER, it was just a butting of the heads over story stuff which, as she explained, exacerbated things. Mapal is my favorite person ever and we thought if we just stepped back from it for a bit, we'd be able to work it out and we're almost there.

So, sit tight and stay tuned and don't worry about us. :)

Alright so there's been radio silence here and I apologise for that. I'm going to try to explain as best as possible and as honestly as possible.

I stopped being a fan of Supernatural a while ago and I thought I'd be able to continue with SNWA as normal. I was pretty much right, even if I had lost some of my passion. It was all going sorta okay until we hit a problem in the plot.

Now... Mikey means a lot to me, like... more than I can describe really. We agree on nearly everything and when we throw plot stuff around it always clicks into place. Writing and plotting with her just makes me incredibly happy. However, we got to this SNWA point and we just clashed. It was horrible. I felt rotten. Words can't describe all of this effectively.

Basically clashing with Mikey is a problem for me and how it escalates with my autism is something I don't want to relive.

In the long run, I would always rather drop SNWA than Mikey, without a shadow of a doubt, and where pushed to a point of continuing something where we clash or dropping it so we can go and bounce ideas around about something we're both passionate about... I'm going to go for the second.

Lucky for you guys, I'm trying to rehash the part of the plot that caused the clash. If we can get something to stick and if we can get some traction again, we'll be continuing.

I'm sure my words can't effectively explain what has happened here and why the clash was so serious for me, but I hope you guys understand.

For now SNWA is on hiatus again.

Thank you so much for sticking with us for so long, nonnie! That goes for all of you that have followed SNWA, some even from the very start :)

Mikey and I are in this all the way ;) takes more than a hiatus to beat us! She does such an amazing job as Cas and I couldn't wish for a better role play partner. Sometimes something just works so well and you can't believe it, it all clicks into place.

I'm glad my Dean comes across well too :3

Love you nonnie <3

-- Mapal

You're too sweet!! Thank you for your support and readership and I'm so happy you're digging my portrayal of Cas! I LOVE YOU TOO!

There should be a new chat on Monday! Mikey promised me ;)

Glad you like the story!

It will ;) but the big content doesn't get released until we hit 1,000 followers! So you'll have to pick up the pieces as usual through chat and journal entries :P

Afraid not. We're struggling to get through a big chunk of something to get to the next chat log. I'm not sure if there's an update this week but we'll try for a chat log next week :) Apologies! We have lots of content just nothing that can really be released ;)

So Near While Apart - an almost real time Destiel fanfic starting from 1996. Written completely using chats, emails, letters and more.

DEAN'S JOURNAL - MARCH 16TH TO MARCH 20TH

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MARCH 16TH

I don't know what to do. I think I screwed up real bad.

I like Cas a lot, he's funny and smart and looks good how could I not like him?

I wanted to be mad at him I really did. I don't know where to even start.

He acts like having options and a future is a bad thing because he got scouted. Here I am struggling through school and raising Sam.

I'd kill for a chance like that. I feel like I'm not going anywhere in life and this it until I die I'm gonna end up like Bobby, sad and old and an alcoholic.

Cas went out that guy he bullied too got a milkshake or something

I can't help feeling jealous that this guy gets to spend time with Cas... THey should really hate each other but I guess Cas' apology was enough.

But then he went on to talk about fucking me or something

I don't think he realises but he said he'd want me in lingerie

I don't get how he thinks he's straight when he talks like that.

I kinda got turned on and I don't know what to do

Is it sick to think about him?

MARCH 17TH

I came so hard last night thinking about what he said and the first fucking thing he asks is what I dreamed about.

To make it all better I think dad drank a whole bottle of whiskey. He's angry and I don't even know why

Actually yes I do he's a bad father that's why I'm doing bad at school and it's like he thinks I want it that way

I'd rather be in a classroom than under a car

I don't even know what he spends all the money on but I think he's dealing more cars than I know about. Cas wants to send money to help out but I'm so confused about him right now because he said he would date me

Was he joking?

He seemed to take it back but not really and I got kinda freaked because no one ever say sstuff like that to me. All I could do was just log off in the end and now here I am with a bottle of whiskey just like dad.

I don't get why it's all gotta be such a mess and why did I have to start liking a straight guy whos just FUCKING WITH ME

18TH -ISH MARCH

Dad hit me on the jaw today that means no school for like a week or something if I go like this if it bruises bad they're gonna ask questions

I could just lie?

I got drunk again and Cas is sending money but I don't think he realises what sort of person I am

FAILURE

That's what

MARCH 19TH

Dad fucked off to do some work today so I can finally get the house tidy.

Sam is out with some friends as well it's nice to have the quiet but I think I'll see if he wants to play some games later.

I can't remember when we just hung out last

MARCH 20TH

HE SEND 300 DOLLARS?

I don't get why Cas would send me so much money. I nearly sent it all back but I know he'd just get angry and probably resend it

So I paid up on the bills and got some food in Dad's still not back and I'm just watching TV with Sammy

Might chat to Cas later if he's on but what do I say?

So Near While Apart - an almost real time Destiel fanfic starting from 1996. Written completely using chats, emails, letters and more.

8D It'll be Dean's journal today! Keep an eye out :)

As always, Mondays 8pm GMT :)

There won't be a new chat this week because we got busy with other things, but I'm hoping to release something for you guys to enjoy :)

Thank you very much for your support :) it means a lot to us!

Thank you bb <3 we're glad you're enjoying it!

So Near While Apart - an almost real time Destiel fanfic starting from 1996. Written completely using chats, emails, letters and more.

27th March 1996

8pm GMT <3

Thank you!!! We're so glad you like it. The support you guys give us definitely keeps us going. More to come soon!

So Near While Apart - an almost real time Destiel fanfic starting from 1996. Written completely using chats, emails, letters and more.

25th March 1996 - Part Two