Idk writing stuff

Kept in a cave for the longest time,

With only the shadows to flicker around

Knew their shapes cast hollow on walls,

And figured out their patterns as they went along

Thought that this was all to be seen,

So there was no use trying to turn away

Shown real light for the first time,

Turned away from what was new

Wanted to know the outside and see,

What had been kept from me with lies

Felt too scared to look again,

And turned back to the shadows,

But some part of me is still the same

Everything is an equation that can be solved

Yet things still don’t add up

I’m using the formula and getting the wrong answer

There are variables that I can’t find

There are signs missing

The curriculum has advanced so far

I can’t make sense of the graphs anymore

His smile is brighter than the sun

He is everything I thought I wanted

I’ve been stuck in a storm for so long

I’ve been trying trying to escape a cave

I wanted to have happiness

Before I fell for the only light, a dim light

Before I didn’t know someone could be that bright

The past taught me to be wary

This time was brighter than any light that’s been in my life before

This time there was more care and consideration than I thought I could have

Yet I knew the time wasn’t right

I thought I knew light when a few of the shadows had been eliminated

I thought I was better when I could see a few feet ahead

His sunshine only showed me that I was still in the dark

I wasn’t healed from pain I had before

I wasn’t able to trust as I thought I would

I was still scarred from the past

Last time hurt in a way that can never be fixed

Last time was not like his company, wasn’t comfortable

The small flame I’d cultivated wasn’t nearly as bright as I thought

He was bright enough to give me light

He was gave everything I couldn’t ask for

Kara felt the cool sand between her toes as water rushed over them. Beca continued to lead her with both hands. The water rose up her calves and she began to get worried. Her breathing nearly stopped and they stopped walking. “It's ok, the water only gets to the knees at the deepest point.” They assured. “Or, or we could just stay here” Kara felt bad about the suggestion, they had been so excited the least she could do is follow through. She shook her head and took another step forward. Two more steps and there were smooth round stones.

You were the only light when everything was pitch black,

My spark of hope in a void of pessimism,

You picked up my shattered pieces,

When I was injured and dying, you talked me,

Spoke to me as a friend and loved one,

Made me feel like a person when I was used to being used like a tool,

Yet I treated you like the threat others had been before,

I left all my guards up,

Not ready to let you in but not wanting to let you go,

I kept you at an arms length until you gave up,

Now you’ve left and I know I can’t chase after you,

I can’t hold you there when I know you deserve so much more,

I want to bring you back to me,

To feel that your kind warmth again,

Yet I don’t want to, I can’t trap you in the darkness you helped me escape,

You were the light, the spark that lit my torch,