Like had a full blown break down about my physical health issues and then got so exhausted I went into a deep sleep so when the doctor came they couldn’t even wake me up bc I’m just fucking cursed

I just want it to be 9pm so I can take my sleeping pills and pass the fuck out and not have to think about how I don’t get a psych review till Monday and it takes a few days for transfer paperwork to go through and by then everyone I know at the private hospital will of discharged and I’ll just be thrown into another shitty hospital but idk it’s not about the other people that’s unhealthy it’s just I wanna leave now

This is my 4th hospital admission of the year and I’m just waiting hopefully to be transferred to a private hospital bc this fucking sucks. ICU and drug and alcohol unit were better to be on then this psych ward it’s shit and I have so many health problems and can never find a nurse when I need one it’s all making me feel so much fucking worse

Sorry for unearthing this account after like 2 or 3 years but I’m going through and blocking some old mutuals bc this is gonna turn 2014 sad tumblr again real quick and don’t want you guys to see that but also ???? Don’t care about anything I guess ???? Idk the vibe of self destruction is real strong