ranya.

magical thnking ths magical thnkng tht ok so whn do i trnsform into a magical girl?

one thng tht pmo ab schizotypal prsonality is tht i cn't say shit like oh i hope xyz doesn't happn to me bc ths magical thnking bs will mke it happen anyway or at least it'll mke me thnk i set myslf up fr it so it's gna happn one day or anothr i wish i cld cmplain nrmally sumtimes bt i alw thnk i'm causing my own misery

tmi bt i've lit th worst uti rn nd they do say burning's anothr method of sh so let's thnk my body fr doing th work fr me

i ss any post i mnage to like bfore a scond is up. fr storage

why do scars hv to whiten ovrtime why do scars hv to flatten ovrtime omg i js wna hv scars tht are prtty nd stay prtty without me hving to work forvr. i swear i'm gna b ovr ths cvtting business by th time i'm 30 bc of laziness

my family's got ths meet up w th whole neighbourhood ths weekend nd i'm nt ncssarily excited to b socialising w so mny diff ppl bt it'd also b a huge stretch to say tht i'm afraid. ik all th ppl attnding so i'm like alr mntally preparing myslf to deal w thm fr a few hours. so long as thr's lots of food nd litres of diet coke i cn manage it. #trust

i ws gna redo my google doc bt i hate being on mobile so i'm leaving tht fr whn i go bck home

j'pourrais jms sortir de l'église c jste impossible pr moi j'peux ps me passer d sensations qu'me procurent les écritures les chansons les sermons... qd j'me sens au bord d'la spirale j'lis j'chante j'récite et ça m'apaise ça m'rappelle qu'je perds la tête pr d raisons cmplètement stupides prfois et que dieu sait bien pls d'choses qu'moi et qu'j'dois dc lui faire cnfiance. c vmt bien mieux qu'la thérapie pr moi. j'aime ma psycho mais elle peut ps m'aider com j'en ai bsoin. j'ai ps bsoin qu'on m'dise qu'je délire qu'j'suis jste une autre folle à enfrmer en hôpital psy. j'ai bsoin qu'on m'dise que j'av une vie auparavnt et que j'v avoir une vie ds l'au-delà et que ts les problèmes ds ma vie actuelle ne subsisteront ps. j'ai l'droit à la paix éternelle.

i'm relearning th hard way why i strted identifying as a landmine

i'm bout to kms i ws disinfcting sum stuff nd my coworker clled me asking me if it ws normal tht thr ws water flooding th kitchen nd i ws like obviously not i'm cming dwn nd. wht do i find out whn i check out th kitchen. it's th fcking coffee machine tht caused ths. ths is why coffee is th devil's drink. i js spnt an hour cleaning tht shit up

i thnk th reason th church is suing mormon stories is bc so mny blieving mmbers wtch his videos.... i dn't thnk they care all tht much ab th name thing... i mean it ws alw a stupid choice to move on frm th term mormon... snce whn did tht sound like a slur. they might as well chnge th whole damn scriptures while they're at it