Whatcha got? I got nothing

Yeah go ahead and mock my earthquake survival kit, but that was scary.

The elves are the creepiest damn things and hence I had to have them.

This though:

Is a Mister Rogers mug that his cardigan appears when you put something hot inside. I mean COME ON something that cool just made me happy just to know it was in the universe. It will now be the only mug I drink out of.

The reason that as of now I am going to go complete bitch is:

I will no longer let people treat me like shit and when I finally get up the courage to say something let them blame me.

Fuck this blaming the victim bullshit. I am sick of it!!!

Caring about people is a suckers game. All you do is make others feel better while you continue to do and do. It is never enough for anyone and you are left feeling bad for not doing it right or enough.

Life is falling apart and I am managing to hold it together with paper clips and shear determination. Just danced around my apartment swinging my head around holding a full glass of a literal $3.00 bottle of wine and it tastes “eh not bad”.

I just got an egg, hash browns, an English muffin, and coffee for $1.86 at the rehab center.

Seriously I got hit twice by an old man who should not be behind the wheel. He hit me got confused backed up and hit me again. I am now waiting to see if my giant headache is permanent or just a fun reminder that my life kind of sucks right now.

Being at the hospital for 12-16 hours a day is not conducive to doing laundry. Guess who is wearing her mamma's undies?? 😧

Guess who remembered she was wearing her mamma's underwear when she put her hands on her hips? 👋🏻 Why in the world do they make underwear that high??

There is a reason my cousin turned down a charge nurse position from this hospital group. They really do suck here.

The new neuro did give another diagnosis though. Still got told time was the cure.

The other night my mom was convinced I was trying to kill her. That was not my best moment.

My friend who said I was rude when I nicely suggested a cat sitter. Still hasn't answered me and she has my key and the life of my cats in her petty hands.

My uncle who has done nothing since my dad died but try and get money and expensive items from my mom has been asking to "come together as a family as he is one of only family I have left" yeah ummm fuck off. My moms property and money goes to supporting her and helping to get her better not to you asshole!

My friend is pulling the "I am trying to support you" crap while meanwhile I am here for 16 hours a day feeding, washing, being a hawk for my mom she is telling me "don't take it personal. In my culture we..." or "make your cousins come in my culture they would already be there". Well guess what my cousins all live 1.5-3 hours away and they aren't coming. Somehow this is a reflection on me as I am not forcing three women with children and jobs to drive 3-6 hours a day to come to the hospital.

She is feeding my cats because she wants to help, but then she feeds them only every two days and never gives them affection (she hates cats) She puts out two days worth of wet food which my guess is that it is going bad and it is going to make them sick. But when I said just meet the cat sitter and give her the key. Then I was being rude because she is trying to support me. I literally said "you have so much on your plate. Tell me when you can give the cat sitter the key"

But I am being rude.

What the fuck do people want from me?!?!? You know why people who care for someone disabled withdraw from the world? THIS! I can't be your fucking cheerleader because you opened some cans every two days. I am sorry I don't have the energy to kiss your ass. Saying thank you everyday isn't enough apparently.