adult - he/they - one of many - not straight - not cis - not white - not human
Call me Phosphor!
I’m just here (very reluctantly, given tumblr’s Everything) for my friends and my fandoms, and I read much more than I post. I expect that I’ll mostly post Fallen London stuff (namely my OCs and my fanmade sigils) but who knows. I may occasionally post things on my headmate Lark’s behalf, including stuff about his own FL OC. (You can find him on his own blog as well, at @lutekeeper.)
Anyone who’s not a TERF/Nazi/etc is welcome to follow. I believe in good faith and in caring about people despite their messiness; I have no fondness for exclusionism, puritanism, or the slapfighting that passes for “discourse” on social media. Do with this information what you will.
Tags/posts of interest:
My Correspondence sigil art
My "what even is Fallen London" guidepost
References for canon Correspondence sigils
(more info below the cut)
Other links:
My system’s website
My account on the fediverse, where most of my personal posting happens - instance is set to allowlist only because I got tired of Nazi whack-a-mole, but if you want to follow me and your instance isn’t allowlisted, let me know and I’ll add it. (If you don’t have a fedi account but want one, here’s a few instances.)
My blog, where I keep many of my longposts, including some that I don't put here or on fedi.
FAQ
Why am I blocked?
See this post.
Are you still drawing Correspondence sigils/taking requests?
Yes! I go long periods where I don't draw any because I'm prone to getting deleted by seasonal depression and other health woes, but it's always okay to send in requests as long as you understand that it may be a while until I get to it.
Can I get a tattoo of one of your sigils/use it in my Fallen London fanart/brand it onto my Fallen London OC’s back/(some other personal noncommercial use that doesn’t involve blockchain or AI)?
Yes, go ahead! No credit needed.
Can I make NF*Ts of your sigils/use your sigils to train my AI/(some other techbro junk)?
No. Fuck off.
Can I use your sigils in a non-techbro commercial project?
Ask me first! If it’s something like slapping my art onto T-shirts, almost certainly no. If it’s something like “I’m drawing my Correspondent OC for a Neathy charity zine and want to use one of your designs,” then it’ll probably be fine - but again, ask me first!
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"hey, did you hear about the mass crab gathering? yeah, I don't know what it's supposed to be either. the bohemians are calling it a 'rave'? apparently it's happening because mr fires is dead. yeah, they're saying it died of something called 'ligma'"
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are you a well-adjusted person who thinks your life is worthwhile and does not feel the need to prove anything to anyone, least of all yourself. or are you Ralph from obscure classic The Legend of Zelda: Oracle of Ages, who thinks that the best way to protect others is by retconning himself out of existence with a noble and completely unnecessary sacrifice
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are you a well-adjusted person who thinks your life is worthwhile and does not feel the need to prove anything to anyone, least of all yourself. or are you Ralph from obscure classic The Legend of Zelda: Oracle of Ages, who thinks that the best way to protect others is by retconning himself out of existence with a noble and completely unnecessary sacrifice
something that we (system) struggle with periodically as people who Came From A Shitty Family is a profound sort of grief for Who We Could Have Been.
who could we have become, if we'd been properly nurtured? if they hadn't stomped out every trace of independence at every turn? if we had been fed on love and respect instead of fear and shame? how much easier would everything have been, if we weren't starting from not just zero but deep in the negatives on basic things like "emotional regulation" and "self-esteem"? who could we have grown up to be, if they hadn't strangled us in the crib and left us as a collection of ghosts haunting a lonely flesh?
despite everything we've accomplished, it's hard to not let that bitterness creep in. to see the gulf between where we are and where we want to be. grief, too, is something we were never taught how to handle, and the pain of it all can be so overwhelming that it feels easier to simply lie down and die, a second time. we know the platitudes - "sit with your grief and honor it without letting it drown you" "the present is all you have, don't lose yourself in could-have-beens" "Practice Gratitude(tm)" - but it all, frankly, feels like fluffy dogshit sometimes, even if we understand where it's coming from. sometimes you just want to rend your hair and hurl things and shriek into the darkest hours of the night like a proper ghost, y'know?
wren just constantly gaslights everyone around her into thinking the esoteric things she periodically does are entirely sensible, if not Actually Just Normal. it's not even deliberate on her part. it's just that these things *are* entirely sensible to her and she's supremely competent and self-assured when she does them and also she has an utterly no-nonsense attitude that Doesn't Invite Questions. she'll walk out of a building full of smoke with a bandana doused in some unknowable substance tied around her face, suffering zero effects from smoke inhalation whatsoever, and she'll be like "your school didn't teach you about the most basic use of creeping mucosa distillate? are they stupid?"
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wren just constantly gaslights everyone around her into thinking the esoteric things she periodically does are entirely sensible, if not Actually Just Normal. it's not even deliberate on her part. it's just that these things *are* entirely sensible to her and she's supremely competent and self-assured when she does them and also she has an utterly no-nonsense attitude that Doesn't Invite Questions. she'll walk out of a building full of smoke with a bandana doused in some unknowable substance tied around her face, suffering zero effects from smoke inhalation whatsoever, and she'll be like "your school didn't teach you about the most basic use of creeping mucosa distillate? are they stupid?"
For a while, it’s been technically advantageous to never finish your University storyline. We’ve sorted that out, tidied everything up, and added some new activities besides.
I have a new standard for the level of haterdom to aspire to, and it's Reddit User KismaiAesthetics, who hates doing laundry so much that he got really good at it, so that he can (I quote) do it right the first time, every time, and get back to watching cat videos on the Internet.
and by "really good at it," I mean that he does a bunch of reading on the chemistry of laundry, subscribes to academic journals about laundry, and buys a bunch of different laundry products (including from outside the US) to scrutinize their ingredients and test them for himself. he writes a bunch of incredibly detailed longposts about his findings on /r/laundry and his website, which is also about laundry. he even got interviewed about his laundryposts, in which he revealed he's writing a book about laundry. this man is like ahab and the white whale, if ahab had a reddit account and moby dick was a pile of clothes with cheeseburger stains on them
anyway the reason I encountered this guy was because recently, the household washer has been leaving these gross little oily brown flakes on anything washed in it. this is kind of a big problem for me, given that I not only have (literal, diagnosed, medicated) OCD which includes a contagion phobia, I also sew a bunch of stuff with the intent of gifting or selling it, and sometimes that involves prewashing fabric. only, you know, washing is supposed to make things cleaner, not dirtier.
and my research brought me to (gross photos warning!) Kismai's post on the very topic. apparently this stuff is called "scrud," and it's basically a residue that forms over time inside the nooks and crannies of a washing machine - leftover detergent reacting with mineral traces in tapwater to form a buildup that also traps dyes, grease, and other dirt, which bacteria then feeds on, because it wasn't already gross enough. it forms faster if you have hard water, use too much detergent (which most people do), use fabric softener, wash only on cold and the list goes on and on - point is, scrud is the reason that you have to actually clean your washing machine, or be super fastidious about how you do laundry.
(I'll take "things I wish school/my parents actually taught me" for 800)
so now I am engaged in a lengthy battle against scrud, armed with a tub of oxiclean and a sack of citric acid crystals. (we're renters, so disassembling the machine is out of the question.) pour in a scoop of oxiclean, run a machine clean cycle, pour in a scoop of citric acid, run another machine clean cycle, all while wiping piles and piles of scrud out of the drum at the end of each cycle. I'm on the eighth cycle now. there's still so much scrud. the reddit record for "how many cleaning cycles were needed to get a machine entirely free of scrud" is 22 cycles. help
I have a new standard for the level of haterdom to aspire to, and it's Reddit User KismaiAesthetics, who hates doing laundry so much that he got really good at it, so that he can (I quote) do it right the first time, every time, and get back to watching cat videos on the Internet.
and by "really good at it," I mean that he does a bunch of reading on the chemistry of laundry, subscribes to academic journals about laundry, and buys a bunch of different laundry products (including from outside the US) to scrutinize their ingredients and test them for himself. he writes a bunch of incredibly detailed longposts about his findings on /r/laundry and his website, which is also about laundry. he even got interviewed about his laundryposts, in which he revealed he's writing a book about laundry. this man is like ahab and the white whale, if ahab had a reddit account and moby dick was a pile of clothes with cheeseburger stains on them
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