Sawyer/Tavern

I don’t like being reminded that I’m handicapped I don’t like being able to *see* the difference between me and others. My roommate gets fired constantly and just picks up a job a week later but I can’t get a job even with months and months of trying. It’s been six months of fighting to get a job and my friends been through three different jobs while I sit here waiting for call backs that never come. I’m never told why they just disappear I just sit all nice and pretty waiting for calls that won’t come.

I know I’m autistic I know I have cptsd that gets in the way of my life. And it makes me so frustrated when my roommate claims to be more handicapped and has all the disorders I have as soon as I tell them. You have no clue you’ll never understand how this feels to have your face shoved in the dirt and rubbed in the fact that you aren’t normal. You never have to come face to face with the fact that you *are* broken. I’m broken and there isn’t a damn thing that can fix me, I try so hard to be happy and stay positive but I’m just a broken toy that no one wants.

I love my boyfriend god if he wasn’t so caring I don’t know how I’d stay hopeful. Still I wish sometimes he’d just leave, I’m nothing I’m not good at anything and I’m not handsome and I can’t do shit. He deserves better than me he deserves someone who’s not so fucking stupid.

" WHY DONT YOU TELL ME, WHY IT SO SOUNDS SO EASY,"

☀️ Sleepy Syndicate ☀️

🌆 19 🌆

🪦 He/It/Ask 🪦

🐦‍⬛ Traumagenic 🐦‍⬛

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💐 ~60 Alters 💐

⚰️ Persecutor Heavy ⚰️

🩻 FFs~ Atari, Fester, Rabies, Minx 🩻

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🪱 DNI: Basic DNI, Non-Traumagenic, pro-para, anti-MOGAI 🪱

🐾Name: Shelby Keller

🍁age: 14

🦴Species: Cat human? Cat boy?

🥩gender: Demi-Boy

🐾pronouns: He/They

🍁sexuality: Gay

🦴role: Persecutor, Gulit/Anger holder

🥩status: active in the system and taken