Diary Of A Sleepy Cat

-Shogun

I should remember the good dreams as much as the bad ones. Like one dream, I was taking care of a pug puppy. My grandma was at my apartment too helping me. The puppy was brought by my bf. This dog was the most well behaved sleepiest pup you could ever imagine. Just adorable, cute and innocent.

I had a dream where I was volunteered in a life or death game. I have no memory of getting there. I just remember seeing others. Someone had volunteered me or maybe I did, for a maintenance position for the contestants for one particular level of the game. This level was bizarre because it involved cannons filled with pigs blood. The rules were to not get hit or have any splatter of blood on you by the end of the game. As for me and one other person, we were in charge of cleaning. My partner, a big masculine man, came out prepared, wearing an apron, gloves, boots and a hair net. I thought to myself, why didn’t they tell me to get ready? Or why didn’t my partner tell me where the supplies were? I asked him that I wanted to wear gear too, and he nonchalantly pointed towards the storage closet around the corner. We were under the building in the outside, but the players were out on an open field. I was hesitant to get the things I needed from that closet before anything could happen so I can see the action, and I was relieved to finally have myself put together. Hair net, boots, protective gloves, broom, mop, bucket and even a mask.

Sadly, by the time I came out, it seemed the game was over. Mess of pigs blood was everywhere like a murder scene had happened. My partner was not in sight. But the players were seen at a distance, as if they were preparing to walk themselves to the next level of the game. I thought to myself “there are only 3 people left” which meant that a good amount got hit. I decided to clean up the rest of the mess. But then I heard something loud. Eeerrkk… CHOOM! The catapult launched a boat load of pigs blood right at me. My chest was covered in blood. I was instantly disgusted and lightheaded!

He tells me, “the way you walk, you are just too young” with a hopeless look on his face. I get the feeling he has failed something, but what?

This whole time, after all the games and missions we’ve accomplished, he wasn’t trying to be my friend as I thought he was. Instead, he was sent on a mission to kill me. But he failed to. This man had fallen in love.

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In a different part of my dream, I saw my cousin. She had visited my old home. Later she invites us to go out. I see make-up, stores, inside a bigger building… So we were in a mall I guess. She tells us to put our phones out on the table, facing her. And for some reason our tables were arranged in a circle facing each other. Once we placed our phones, she suddenly received our pictures from our album on her phone. Hoping she didn’t see anything weird from mine, she was looking at picture of me and my bf. And she seemed heart-warmed by the fact that we loved each other.

…Something I remember certain dreams more than others. But dreams like these make me feel like we all have a life in a different dimension. We can be different and do different things, and it seems too surreal.

The food that I will eat tonight was made, and we will see this food as reminder of sacrifices we all make in our lifetime.

I had dreams last night but I forgetting details again. Ive been forgetting my dreams lately. But this is what I can remember from my previous dream:

As usual there were different parts of dreams so right now i can only remember the first part where I was only lightly asleep.

I went to someone and they showed me a box and they told me to look inside. I believe I was in at my parents front yard. I was hoping to see something pleasant if not interesting but turned to be terrifying to me. It was a head of a lizard, apparently from one that was big and white in color. I remember being afraid and trying to avoid that person, so I walked towards the house (or some building) and I was in a hurry.

When I got to the door I felt relieved but apparently there was another huge lizard (this one with black spots) that caught up to me and nearly bit my ankle. I had one foot in the door.

I woke up shortly after, likely because that lizard was just terrifying. Imagine the ugliest lizard, a bit smaller than a Komodo dragon, chasing after you.

I rarely have nightmares, but Im highly sure the other dreams I had last night were equally as scary/weird.

Has given my life a different meaning

As I realize how the world works

Mourn of innocence

A wave of emotions wash over me

I was underwater when I listened to it

The piano plays it’s nostalgic chords

As if it knew my life

Silly, scared, shy

Yet brave, ambitious, and curious of everything