playing for sillies

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on the one hand, avoiding it makes me feel hollowed-out, and on the other hand i know how easy it is to go too far into the pursuit that i end up where you described.

but either way, happy pride! hope you're doing okay & know that you're appreciated ♥️

Pursuing (and achieving) greatness is one of the most wonderful feelings someone can experience, yknow. it isn't all bad, but it isn't all good. Knowing you put the effort into something for so long and actually reaped proof of reward, worthiness, and accomplishment, is a feeling that is unrivaled and unmatched. I would not want to deplete that feeling for anyone, nor would I say that anyone should avoid it.

I only think that if you are seeking it, you should critically analyze why you want it. That desire alone changes its entire outcome and whether it was worth it in the end. It has to be for passion and love and nothing else, because quite literally anything else will render it having left you more hollow than having never received it at all. If not your emotional hollowness, then maybe hollowness of the soul and personality.

neither is it ever a fix, neither will it ever allow you to feel capable, worthy, or good enough

Okay now look at this refreshing lemon dill tzatziki and salmon salad I made yesterday (it made me feel better for a bit)

- the Rage

- the Anger

- ravenous

- workaholic

- chocolate buzzballs are really good

- vodka seltzers 🤤

- dont talk to me

- I hate sex and blood so much actually

- the rage

- the anger

- sardines and mackerel🤤

- the rage