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you and hyunjin had been together for some time and today was going to be the first time you’d ever meet his dog, kkami. if you were going to date hyunjin, you had to at least know most of the most important people in his life, so of course you had to meet kkami. hyunjin made sure to emphasize that.

before going to meet his dog, you and hyunjin had a mini date at a café nearby his home. once you two were done, you walked hand in hand to his home. now, the whole time on the way there hyunjin had spoke very highly of his dog but at the same time he would squeeze in some sentences that made it seem like he was scared of him.

after a few minutes you had arrived at hyunjins (kkamis..) house. he quickly opened the door and only a few seconds after, his dog came running in while letting out a few barks. hyunjin lent down and started to allow kkami to kiss him. (which led you to wonder if before your mini coffee date if he had kissed kkami because you had kissed hyunjin on that date and you didn’t really want dog saliva on your lips) kkami took some time to realize you were even there and just sniffed you a little before walking (strutting) away. hyunjin seemed a teeny bit concerned that kkami didn’t find interest in you. but as long as he didn’t hate you, he’d just have to deal with it.

“he’s not as scary as you made him out to be”

you seemed to be mocking him. especially after he basically just made out with his dog but he just slapped your shoulder.

“i didn’t say he was awful, but he has his moments…he’s just going to listen because there’s company over”

you rolled your eyes at that letting out a ‘sure’ before you both moved over to the couch and started channel surfing before you found a decent drama to watch. after quite a few episodes (which were all almost movie lengths long) it was starting to get darker and you two were cuddled up closer on the couch. soon you felt little bits of air being blown on your ankles and you looked down to see kkami smelling you once again. he soon leaped up on your side of the couch and started to smell your arm. hyunjin finally looking away from the tv and seeing the scene lets out a dramatic gasp once kkami moves up onto your lap and lays down.

“wow, and here i thought he didn’t like you”

which then caused you to let out a dramatic gasp back at him. you started to rub the dogs head a little and his eyes started to slowly close. but now hyunjin wanted attention. so, he started to call for kkami to come to him, which only caused kkami to stare at him as if he had said the most offensive thing ever, causing hyunjin to pout. so he moves his hand over to pet kkami as well but then kkami lets out a small growl, causing you to snicker when hyunjin yanks his hand back.

“and you said he ‘didn’t like me’”

you teased. he only gave you a glare.

“you can’t be serious kkami ! you just met her. she doesn’t kiss you everyday like i do !”

after finally rolling the dough into small circles and sticking them in the oven, you sat on the couch together closely cuddled up and watch tv waiting for the cookies to be done. but after some time you lean slightly away from him and start to take in his side profile. him eating the chocolate chips as if it’s a bag of popcorn, his eyes very invested in the scene of the movie, and his cheeks moving like a squirrel whilst chewing (terry??? 😮). you start to take in the few moles glittering the side of his face and just stare. after some time he catches on and turns his head to the side catching your eyes. his goofy smile slowly appearing.

“do you want a picture?”

you throw a pillow at his face and he lets out an ow and complains about how you could’ve spilt his chocolate chips. but before he could keep going, you spoke up.

“you have quite a few on your face”

he was a little confused and you moved closer to him and cupped his cheek with one hand. now, kai is a little dumb (but we love him) and he thought you meant that he got chocolate on his face (😭) but then as you glided one of your fingers over the mole over the top of his eye, and the itty bitty one on his cheek and he caught on and when he did, he immediately turned a bright shade of red. you then glide your finger over the one right above his lip, and then for a split second rub your finger over on the one on the very tip of his nose. and before he can react, you kiss it too. if he was bright red before then now he was very very bright red. you then kiss the one right above his lip and slowly move into kiss him. he soon sinks into the kiss and closes his eyes. after some time when you two finally pull away and his eyes flutter open, he just smiles at you and after being so bold, it now makes you blush. you lick your lips and then you laugh.

“your lips tasted like chocolate”

running. hiding. crying. trying to find a way out. you’d been locked in his house for maybe close to a month?? but today, by some ounce of luck, you found a way out of the room sunwoo had kept you locked you in. but that luck quickly ran out. the room you were locked before was dark and cold. you’re out of it now, but there’s still nowhere to go. all the windows are locked and all the doors as well and no matter how hard you kicked on them, they wouldn’t open. tears unknowingly had started to stream down your face out of frustration and you felt as if you were going to fall to your knees and break down. your awfully bloodied knees, the bruises running down your thighs. but you couldn’t stop here. you’ve made it this far after all..

you decide to just try to break one of the windows. punching it, kicking it, and you did end up cracking it, at the expense of your hands because they were now all cut and bloodied. but what was new ? only this time the blood was not caused by sunwoo. in your “tantrum”…you didn’t notice the front door opening and the man himself walking in. you didn’t notice him standing behind you. his eye boring into the back of your neck.

“are you done?”

he sounded bored but at the same time, very amused. you whipped your head around so fast, now face to face with “the beast.”

he moved slightly forward, causing you to jump a little which only made him laugh. that was probably the reaction he wanted. meanwhile you’re trying to look anywhere but at him for a way out of this. a way to move past him.

“i’m awfully impressed. how’d you get the door open?”

you don’t respond. he looks down at your bloodied hands.

“plus…you wanted out so bad that you cut up your beautiful hands. you hate me so much it’s amusing”

you turn back around and hit the window more causing a small hole and you start to scream for help. a smirk growing on his face. he moves right behind you and turns you around, holding your arms to your side.

“your screams are music to my ears”

his eyes were staring into you as if daring you to scream again. and you did. but only for a second before his lips came crashing into yours. his hands still holding your arms to your sides and the only thing you can do is try to move your head. he finally moved away and you kept your eyes squeezed shut, refusing to look at him after that.

“i know your body better than you think”

he paused.

“i know what you like,”

he stares at your lips..

“i know what make you feel good..,”

he ghosts his lips over your neck and you open your eyes immediately.

“and i know what makes you feel pain.”

he grabs one of your hands in his and squeezes it, causing more blood to stream out, and causes you to wince. he looks you in your now watering eyes, threatening to let tears spill from the stinging pain as he still holds onto your hand.

“you can hate me all you want. in fact, i encourage it. but sometimes you have to hurt the ones you love. this is my way of saying i love you, and your hatred is only you saying you love me back.”

he smiles.

soobin was your boyfriend. he still considered you two to be dating, but you had wanted nothing to do with him anymore. he just lost it one day. he invited you to his home, everything was going fine up until when you got up to leave he blocked the door and wouldn’t allow you to go back home. he said he was doing it all to protect you and that he loved you, but how could you continue to love someone that could do this to you?

for the most part he just kept you locked in his room. you were only allowed to leave to go to the bathroom, and although he had a window, he blocked it off awhile ago. how had nobody gotten suspicious? he had neighbors, had they never heard your screams? did they not find it weird that all of a sudden his bedroom window was boarded up? were you even in the news? was anyone looking for you..? all of these thoughts caused tears to stream down your face and you move your knees to your chest while sitting on his bed. a few minutes later the door could be heard opening and then you heard it lock a few seconds later. you look up to see soobin standing by the door staring at you. he had a sad look on his face, and deep in his eyes you could see a sense of guilt after he saw your tears.

“hi babe..”

you don’t respond and just look away. he sits on the edge of the bed still glancing at you. obviously he was feeling uncomfortable from the amount of guilt in his body. you could tell he wanted to reach out to you but didn’t dare to. it was moments like this that would be best to try to leave. if you pulled at his heartstrings good enough, maybe he’d let you go. it’d be a lot easier to manipulate him and guilt him even more so he’d let you go. if he felt guilty from a few tears streaming down your face, then any words you said to him had to make him feel at least a little worse. you soon decide to look him in the eyes so he could see the damage he’d down so he’d feel worse and before he could turn away again you spoke up.

“i want to go home..you say you love me, but if you did you’d trust me.”

you stop for a second knowing you had his attention. he was about to speak up but then you decide to continue,

“do you think i’m to weak to take care of myself? you don’t think i’m capable of looking after myself?”

that seemed to garner his attention even more. his eyes widened a little and was genuinely surprised by your words. he scoots slightly closer and his face drops once again.

“no babe, you aren’t weak — i should just be the one protecting you, okay?”

you don’t respond and only sniffle and wipe the more tears rubbing down your face. they were tears of sadness, hurt, and anger. once again, it hurt more because you were dating him, and you were happy with him, so why’d he have to ruin it all by kidnapping you? you offer him a look of anger and speak up once again.

“you ruined anything we had soobin, i want nothing to do with you ! i want to go home!”

it looks as if you struck a nerve with him for a second and he sits there silent for a while. then his face has a more determined and slightly angry look. he looks you directly in the eyes and speaks up.

“leaving isn’t an option.”

he gets up before the conversation can continue any deeper and before you actually start to get to him. he goes to unlock the door but before he opens it he says something whilst staring at the ground.

“i know you still love me deep down, love doesn’t just disappear….”

he continues,

“but if it’s true, you’ll love me again. we’ll get passed this, we’ll be okay…”

how long have you been here? how many times have you tried to find a way out? how many times have you cried here? you’ve lost count. however, you refused to lose hope. you refused to let him win. you refused to love him or give into whatever sick fantasy he had in mind.

you had woken up awhile ago and were just laying tied up on the ground. you’d guessed it had been around an hour before he walked in. his shadow projecting on the wall.

“good morning honey,”

ah, there it was. that same cocky smile he wore no matter what. no matter the situation, it was rare that his smile ever faltered. even when you didn’t listen it only would become more sadistic or shrink into a small smirk.

he crouched down to the ground and that smile he wore just looked even more cocky. and it was as if it was starting to mock you. he reached his hand out for your arm and you flinch immediately. he looks you in the eyes and his eyes held amusement and a slight curiosity in them. he then just reached his finger towards your neck. it wasn’t even his whole hand, he just glided one finger across your neck and collarbone, which you immediately flinch when he touched you and you stayed tense as he glided it across your skin. soon after he pulls away and actually laughs a little out loud.

“you’re flinching like i hit you already today.”

today. he hadn’t hit you yet today. he probably would end up doing it at some point. light shades of brown and purples littered your arms from his hits on you. usually he only left them when you had tried to runaway or did something ‘awful’ in his book. however, sometimes his grip just left bruises on you. he barely even needed to touch you. it was as if he made your skin weaker and easier to bruise from the amount of abuse he had inflected on you.

he leaned in closer to your face this time ignoring your flinch and attempted to kiss you. key word, attempted. attempted because obviously you hated any touch from him so you turn your head away. even his eyes staring at you made you want to just crawl out of your skin. he didn’t have the patience to wait or give you a second chance to allow him to kiss you. he grabbed your hair and forced you to kiss him. although you bit his lip he continued to hold the kiss for a few more seconds. he pulled away and kept your hair in his hand and pulled it tighter causing you to whimper. he grabbed your face with his other hand forcing you to look at him and you could see his lip was bleeding quite a bit. that smile still there, but his eyes were glazed with almost excitement.

“tell me, do you like making me mad?”

he moved his hand off of your face allowing you to look away from him. it seems as though he wanted you to answer though because he had yelled at you for a response. you shook your head back and forth as much as you can manage with his hand still in your hair. tears streaming down your face rapidly. he finally takes his hand out of your hair and your head drops down onto the ground and you groan in pain, sucking the air in through your teeth. he just slowly rises to his feet and looks down at you. his eyes still glazed with that almost excited look. his smile never disappearing.

“i will drain every last bit of resistance out of you. it doesn’t matter how long it’ll take. and i’d advice you listen. i said i hadn’t hit you today, but do you think that you’re not going to get punished now?”