Friday 30th - Sunday 2nd October 2022 - Part 1
Friday 30th - Sunday 2nd October 2022
It is going to take me a little time to proses this weekend and to get my thoughts inline but do I plan to journal this weekend to help me proses but also I hope a lot of you will find some pleasure in it. But it may be hard for some to read as it will involve some physical and mental suffering. All asked for and consented to by me, with safeword and signals in place and much aftercare given.
Please accept that as your warning.
The last day or September will mark the last day of Mistress Grace. Yes I was a domme but for the last 5 months I have been walking then crawling a new path. My love Kaylle and I have switched roles in our life together and while she lives the life of a Domme Switch I am now her slave. I have never been happier.
Anyway over the last few weeks I have felt the old Miss Grace keep creeping out. It started when a “friend” I “met” in the park came to visit for the weekend to give Mistress (Kaylle) some much needed sub time. Mistress tried to protect me from seeing her as a sub as much as she could but the old Dom in me smiled a little. It was a good weekend and Mistress came back firmer and stronger than ever but the Dom inside continued to whisper. My good friend Jess ( @thebestbossjess2 ) who is like a big sister to me bore the brunt of the growing Dom. If you know me then you know her page and her journey as a cuckquean. I own her so much and it was wrong of me to tease her edged out fuzzy brain. It was fun and we both enjoyed it but forgot about her safety and went too far.
So after a lot of talking with my Mistress, Miss Alex (My PA) Goddess Rose (Her partner) and with the involvement of Miss CC ( @collegecuckcake25 ), I spent this weekend as a faceless non-human IT as Miss Grace broken out of me, hopefully for good, if not for now.
To Jess “Sweety I know you got a lot of twisted pleasure from me pushing you so hard and I’m sorry again for “THAT DAY” even though you loved it. But I scared myself and I was so worried and upset thinking I have harmed you. Know I love you and Sir and that you are both such an important part of my life now, but under no circumstance are you to feel you caused or were responsible for what I chose to happen this weekend. I needed this to happen. You know of that “need” I am talking about. **hugs** Xxx
**turns and kneels before @collegecuckcake25**
To Miss CC. Where do I start? You are amazing and truly terrifying. I met a side of you this weekend that I kind of knew was there but I never knew the depths and I have a feeling I still don’t. I wish to thank you for the physical pain I received and the new lows you pushed me to. I will admit my safeword was on the tip of my tongue a couple of times, but I swallowed it as was I was forced to swallow other things. :)
However the mental suffering you put me though was evil and heart breaking. There were times I brought down every curse I could on you as I was forced to hear my Kaylle scream because I failed you, Then other times, I cried my soul out as you ripped my heart from me, as I begged for your forgiveness.
You are wondrous person that makes my heart leap when you speak to me and a dark and terrifying evil bitch that could break my soul if I begged you hard enough. I cannot find the words to thank you enough for what you did to me and for me this weekend. I know now it is a true honour to know you and a gift I will always treasure. Thank you.
**lowers my face to the ground and kisses your foot**
This will continue on my new Livejournal but please give me a little time. I will post the link in a day or so.
Before Tumble purged my account I had made some rather large posts about my journey from Dom to sub. Thankfully I still have most of them and have decided to set up a LiveJournal blog and repost them there and to try and keep it a bit more updated.
If you never saw my old updates please have a read as they will give you context on who Miss Alex and Goddess Rose are.
