Today I felt I needed to write.
Reflection of my journey, bringing knowledge to others, and simply being a good human are so valuable to me.
I love the old ways. I worked so hard to get where I am. Not just in the lifestyle, But at life.
I turned 50 this year. I promised myself, the second half would be better than the first. I would be authentic to myself.
I'm still learning. The day I stop learning is the day I die. I'm still growing. Becoming a better version of myself.
No longer surviving, But thriving.
I seem over the top for so many. But I was lifestyle before the internet and the influx of the BDSM apps and groups and so forth.
There was no testing the waters online. It was hands on, trial and error. If that makes me different ok.
I know I am not for alot of Dominants today. However for the one I was created to serve, they will find beauty in all that I have done in the last 30 years to prepare to lay my entire being at their feet. To give everything I am so that they can become who they were intended to be.
Serving under a woman, taught me the elegance, the Grace, of service.
She was so very proud of her girl. My heart aches for her today. Her kindness, and yes her harsh words I needed at times.
She used to say, My girl deserves all the good things.
She loved me enough to let me go, so I could do just that. THAT'S DOMINANCE.. and that is love.
Without that experience, I would not have known that side of myself.
I served another even though our season was short. He too showed me a side of myself I didn't know existed. My primal instinct. I will forever be indebted to that dragon. And today I am so very happy he has found His way. Why be bitter. Remember the beauty within the season. My first Master of 23 years he molded and trained me until he left this world.
Then there was the one that taught me the ugly, the violence that harms. And I almost lost me life. And today I am grateful, I learned and now I know what red
My Life In Leather gave me back family, a place I belonged I didn't stick out because I longed to serve. I wasn't weird because I enjoyed being apart of something bigger.
That enjoy the beauty at and event standing at attention behind the The Master of the House I served.
I was nick named an emotional support slave. That I am proudly.
I live this 24/7. This is simply who I am. I cannot change it no more than I can change my DNA.
See in this life and this lifestyle, there is a place and a purpose for everyone. Your journey is yours. And when you choose to it is YOUR story to tell.
I hope when people look at me today they see the beauty in my service to my community and to who I am today.
I said all of that to say this. I found beauty in the darkness, and today I embrace the light.
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