vwhatevwer.

hm.

don't vwant to feel bad anymore.

seadvweller hate is so cute.

sometimes i don't knowv if he vwould still choose to be vwith me if he knewv i vwould turn out to be like this.

i'm. not a good partner.

i don't knowv howv to stop feeling bad.

blugh.

really surprised people havwen't started sending shitty anons about howv i only evwer talk about jet, yet.

need me a freak that vwill lay on me for 5 hours.

i'm just. going to lay dowvn.

you knowv, at least before i had a job i could sit through my vweird emotion rollercoaster on my owvn, avway from people, but nowv i havwe to keep it all together until i come home and then cry it out in one go and that's... vworse. i think.

vwhy do i do that.

ah.

i don't think he's upset about it.

don't evwen knowv vwhy i'm crying about that.