Cloud District

I gotta stop tweeting about therapy. Niggas I don't even know tryna encourage me to do that shit. And while it's appreciated, it's stressful cause I feel like I'm disappointing people or letting them down if I continue to avoid it out of fear and just not knowing where to start or what I'm even looking for to help me. I should probably just delete Twitter for a while. Like I don't tweet that shit for attention. I'd prefer no one know. I'm honestly disappointed in myself because I've had to lean on my friends to calm me and encourage me. I don't like not being able to handle shit on my own. I don't like that people are actually paying attention to my tweets. This feels all wrong. I just be wanting to vent, I don't want an audience. I haven't talked to my Mom about this. Nor my brothers. I don't want anyone to worry about me. I'm fine. I'm lying. But I'm fine.

I'm scared that I'm really bipolar. I'm scared I might be schizophrenic. I'm sleeping less and less. I'm constantly forgetting to eat. I can only express my emotions when I'm on pills or I'm drunk. I'm constantly in fight or flight.

I didn't realize how many nudes was in my old phone. Didn't realize getting my old phone working would be the only way I'd post on here. Gonna listen to this 2013 YE Ali tho. Been almost a year exactly lol.

I'm just here to try and download music from my page. Hi tho, I guess.