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Warnings: anxiety, overthinking, worrying, talks of infertility, self worth worries, zayne being literally the most perfect man to walk the planet
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"If my wife is an overthinker, then I'll be an over-explainer; I have no problem putting her mind at ease."
The first time Zayne realized she was an overthinker, they were sitting in his car, parked outside her apartment building. The rain had come in early that evening, drumming against the windshield in a steady rhythm. It was the kind of rain that blurred street lights into soft halos and made the world feel smaller, quieter.
She had been staring out the window for the past three minutes, her fingers idly tracing patterns into the condensation forming on the glass.
âYouâre thinking too hard about something,â Zayne said, his voice cutting through the hush of the carâs interior.
Her head snapped toward him, eyes widening slightly. âIâwhat?â
He turned in his seat, the leather creaking beneath him. âYou get quiet when youâre overthinking. And you do this thing with your fingers.â He gestured vaguely to the absentminded movement of her hand against the window.
She glanced down, like she hadnât even realized she was doing it. A small, embarrassed smile flitted across her lips before she sighed. âItâs nothing.â
He waited.
She sighed again. âOkay, fine. Itâs just... I had a really nice time tonight.â
Zayne frowned slightly. âThatâs what youâre overthinking?â
âYes.â
He blinked. âYouâre overthinking something good?â
She huffed, pulling the sleeves of her sweater over her hands, curling into herself. âBecause what if this doesnât work? What if I like you more than you like me? What if I say something stupid and ruin everything? Or what if Iâm not what you actually want, and you just havenât realized it yet?â
There it was. The spiraling. The way her thoughts tangled into each other like threads pulled too tight.
Zayne inhaled slowly. He could have told her not to worry. That she was being ridiculous. That none of those things would happen. But he already knew that wouldnât help. She wasnât the kind of person who needed vague reassurances. She needed facts. Proof. A detailed breakdown of exactly why her fears were unfounded.
He tapped his fingers against the steering wheel once before turning to her fully. âAlright. Letâs go over the variables, then.â
She blinked. âThe variables?â
âYes. First, you said you had a nice time tonight.â
âI did.â
âWell, so did I. That cancels out the first worryâthis isnât one-sided.â He tilted his head slightly. âAnd the second one, about saying something stupid? Statistically speaking, everyone says something dumb at some point in a relationship. I myself have said incredibly stupid things before.â
She gave him a skeptical look. âLike what?â
He exhaled through his nose, a hint of amusement creeping into his expression. âWhen I was in med school, I was so sleep-deprived that I once called my professor âDadâ in the middle of a lecture.â
Her lips parted, and then, despite herself, she snorted.
Zayne grinned. âExactly. Embarrassment is inevitable. If you say something stupid, I guarantee it wonât be worse than that.â
She let out a breath that sounded dangerously close to a laugh. But then her shoulders tensed again, the deeper worry still sitting in the back of her mind. âAnd the last part?â
âThat youâre not what I actually want?â He shifted slightly, his voice lowering just enough to make her really hear him. âI donât go on dates for fun. My job is too demanding, my time too valuable, to waste it on something I donât care about.â He held her gaze, steady and sure. âIf I didnât want thisâdidnât want youâI wouldnât be here.â
Silence stretched between them, filled only by the soft patter of rain against the windshield.
She inhaled, her fingers still wrapped in the sleeves of her sweater. âYou really have no problem over-explaining things, do you?â
Zayneâs lips twitched, his hazel-green eyes warm despite the dim lighting. âNot if it helps.â
She exhaled a quiet laugh, and he could see itâthe tension in her shoulders, the tightness in her expression, finally unwinding.
Later, when she climbed out of the car and lingered at the door for just a second longer than necessary, he rolled down the window and called out, âBy the way.â
She turned.
âIâm going to kiss you next time,â he said. âJust so you donât overthink it when it happens.â
Her breath hitched, but this time, it wasnât worry in her eyes. It was something softer, something lighter.
And when she smiled before slipping inside, Zayne knewâthis would not be the last time he had to explain things to her.
And he didnât mind one bit.
It started with a text message.
She had sent it while he was finishing up rounds at the hospitalâjust a simple, Hey, are you free later?
Zayne had responded a few minutes later, something casual, something easy. Yeah, want me to pick you up after my shift?
But by the time he pulled up outside her place, she was already pacing the sidewalk, her arms crossed tight over her chest.
He could see it before she even got in the carâthe slight crease between her brows, the way she kept worrying at the inside of her cheek with her teeth. He knew that expression now. Knew the way her body language shifted when she was spiraling, thoughts looping over themselves in an endless, tangled mess.
She climbed in, shutting the door a little too carefully, like she was afraid of making too much noise.
âHey,â he said, glancing at her as he pulled away from the curb. âWhatâs wrong?â
She hesitated, fingers tightening in the fabric of her skirt. âItâs stupid.â
Zayne exhaled through his nose. âThen itâs a good thing I donât mind stupid.â
She huffed, a tiny, almost-there laugh, but it didnât reach her eyes. For a few moments, she just stared out the windshield, like she was trying to put her thoughts in order.
Finally, she murmured, âI think I annoyed you today.â
His brows lifted slightly, glancing at her again. âWhen?â
âThis morning. When you were at work. I texted you first, and I donât know, you just took longer to respond than usual, and your reply seemed kind of... short?â She bit her lip, looking away. âAnd I know you were busy, I know that, but my brain just kept thinking, what if I was being annoying? What if Iâm one of those people who doesnât realize theyâre texting too much, and Iââ
Zayne took one hand off the wheel and reached over, slipping his fingers beneath hers and prying them loose from where she was gripping the hem of her skirt. He laced their fingers together, squeezing just enough to make her pause.
âYou werenât annoying me,â he said, voice steady, certain. âI was in the middle of rounds when you texted. I answered as soon as I had a second.â
âI know,â she whispered. âI know that, butââ
âBut your brain still decided to worry about it anyway,â he finished for her.
She let out a breath, tilting her head against the seat. âYeah.â
He turned onto a quieter street, the hum of the engine filling the space between them. âOkay, letâs analyze this. If I was annoyed, what do you think I wouldâve done?â
She swallowed. âMaybe not respond at all.â
âRight. But I did respond. And even if I was annoyed, what would the logical next step be?â
She blinked. âUm... youâd probably talk to me about it?â
âExactly.â He brought her hand up briefly, pressing a kiss to the back of it without taking his eyes off the road. âI donât do passive-aggressive things. I donât do silent treatments. If somethingâs wrong, Iâll tell you. You donât have to guess.â
She exhaled slowly, her fingers tightening in his.
Zayne glanced at her again, taking in the way her shoulders had dropped, just a little. It was always like thisâher worries curling tight around her like vines, and him untangling them one by one.
A beat of silence passed, then she muttered, âI really need to rewire my brain.â
Zayneâs lips quirked. âOr you could just keep me around. I donât mind doing the rewiring for you.â
This time, she actually laughed, a quiet, breathy thing, but real.
And when he finally pulled into the parking lot of the little cafĂŠ they liked, he didnât let go of her hand, even after he put the car in park.
He turned to her fully, thumb stroking slow circles over her knuckles. âIâm not going to disappear just because you send me a text,â he said. âOr because you overthink. Thatâs not how this works.â
Her gaze softened. âNo?â
âNo,â he said, firm, final. Then, because he knew her, because he knew the way her mind worked, he added, âAnd if you ever actually are annoying, Iâll let you know in excruciating detail.â
She let out a startled, half-exasperated laugh, shoving his arm lightly. âGod, you really donât shut up, do you?â
His lips twitched. âNot when it comes to you.â
And later, when they sat across from each other at the cafĂŠ, her foot nudging his beneath the table, he could see itâthe way she breathed easier, the way the storm in her mind had finally stilled.
And that was enough.
Zayne found her sitting on the floor of her apartment, surrounded by half-filled moving boxes, staring at an empty suitcase like it had personally wronged her.
She didnât even look up when he leaned against the doorway, arms crossed, watching her. He could see itâher mind running laps around itself, her fingers curled into the fabric of her sweatpants, the way she chewed on the inside of her cheek.
âYouâre overthinking,â he said, because he had long since stopped bothering with preambles.
She sighed. âI know.â
Zayne pushed off the door frame, stepping over a pile of bubble wrap as he crouched beside her. âAlright,â he said. âLetâs go through it.â
She groaned, tilting her head back against the couch. âGod, I hate that you know me this well.â
His lips quirked. âYou love it.â
âI tolerate it.â
He nudged her knee with his own. âTalk to me.â
She exhaled sharply, eyes flicking to the half-packed boxes around them. âWhat if this is a mistake?â
His brows lifted. âYou think moving in with me is a mistake?â
âNo! I meanâyes? Ugh.â She pressed the heels of her palms against her eyes. âI want to live with you. I love being with you. But what if it changes things? What if I get on your nerves? What if I do something weird and you realize you actually hate the way I load the dishwasher or fold my clothes orâI donât know, breathe too loud at night?â
Zayne blinked. âI already know you breathe too loud at night.â
Her hands dropped from her face. âExcuse me?â
âIâve fallen asleep next to you plenty of times. Sometimes, you make this little noise when you exhale, like a tiny sigh.â He smirked. âItâs actually kind of cute.â
She gaped at him, horrified. âI do not.â
He shrugged. âYou do. But see? I already know. And I still want you to move in.â
She opened her mouth, then closed it, then huffed. âThatâs not the point.â
Zayne tilted his head slightly. âThen what is the point?â
Her gaze dropped to her lap, fingers twisting in the hem of her sweatshirt. âI guess... I just keep thinking, what if I ruin it? Weâre good right now. What if living together messes everything up?â
Zayne let the silence stretch between them for a moment, studying the way her breath had gone shallow, the way her knee bounced like she was trying to shake off the thoughts clinging to her.
Then he reached for her hand, unfolding her fingers from where they were gripping her clothes, lacing them with his. âAlright,â he said. âLetâs analyze this.â
She groaned again. âYou and your analyzingââ
âShh. Iâm working.â
Despite herself, she let out a breath of laughter, small but real.
Zayne continued. âSo, letâs start with facts. You love me.â
âYes,â she said without hesitation.
âAnd I love you.â
She swallowed. âYeah.â
âAnd we already spend most of our time together anyway.â
She hesitated. âWell... yeah.â
âAnd I already know about all your little quirks.â His voice softened. âI know you keep the spoons separate from the forks in the dishwasher because it âjust feels right.â I know you have to have a blanket on you even when itâs hot. I know you like your coffee way too sweet, and I know that when youâre tired, you forget to drink it entirely and then complain when it gets cold.â
Her lips parted slightly, eyes searching his face.
âI know you,â he said, voice quieter now, steadier. âAnd you know me. This isnât a risk, itâs a next step. And if something comes up, weâll handle it. Together.â
She inhaled slowly, like she was trying to let the words sink in, like she was testing their weight in her mind.
Zayne squeezed her hand. âAnd for the record?â
She blinked at him.
âI want to live with you,â he said simply. âNot just because itâs convenient, not because itâs âthe next step,â but because when I come home after a 12-hour shift, Iâd rather collapse into bed with you than spend the night wishing you were there.â
Her breath hitched, and for a second, he thought she might cry. But instead, she surged forward, pressing her forehead against his, her hands coming up to grip his shoulders.
âYou really have an answer for everything, donât you?â she murmured.
He smirked. âOf course. Thatâs my job.â
She exhaled a quiet laugh, tilting her head so her nose brushed his. âI love you.â
Zayneâs smirk softened into something smaller, something real. âI know.â
She groaned, shoving him lightly. âGod, youâre insufferable.â
âAnd yet, you still want to live with me,â he said, smug.
She rolled her eyes, but when she sat back, the crease in her brow was gone, the tension in her shoulders finally unwound. She looked around at the boxes again, and this time, her expression wasnât one of panic, but quiet determination.
Zayne stood, brushing dust off his knees before offering her a hand. âCome on,â he said. âLetâs finish packing.â
She stared at his outstretched hand for a second before slipping hers into it, letting him pull her up.
And later, when they were surrounded by the last of the packed boxes, when she was sitting cross-legged on the floor, sipping her too-sweet coffee while he flicked through the TV channels, she leaned against him and whispered, âI canât believe I almost let my brain talk me out of this.â
Zayne hummed, pressing a kiss to her hair. âGood thing I never shut up, huh?â
She smiled against his shoulder, and he could feel itâthe moment she finally, finally let herself believe.
Her hands were shaking.
She hadnât noticed it at first, too caught up in the chaos of the wedding preparationsâher mother fussing over last-minute details, the makeup artist dusting powder over her cheekbones, the soft hum of music floating in from the reception hall. But now, standing in the bridal suite with her veil pooled over her lap, fingers clenched in the fabric, she realizedâshe was trembling.
Because Zayne wasnât here.
And he was never late.
She kept staring at her phone, at the last message he had sent over an hour ago: On my way. Canât wait to marry you.
No updates. No follow-ups. Just silence.
And her mind was already sprinting ahead, forming theories, catastrophizing, twisting his absence into something bigger than it was.
What if he had changed his mind?
What if he had gotten cold feet and didnât know how to tell her?
What if she had missed the signs, what if he had only thought he wanted this but now, on the way to the altar, had realizedâ
Her phone buzzed.
She jolted so hard she nearly dropped it.
Zayne.
She fumbled to answer, pressing it against her ear so fast she barely registered her own breathless, âHello?â
âHey, sweetheart,â came his voiceâcalm, steady, warm. Familiar. âI need you to do something for me.â
Her heart slammed against her ribs. âZayne, where are you?â
âFirst, I need you to breathe,â he said, his voice dropping into that smooth, grounding cadence that always managed to cut through the noise in her head. âDeep breath in for me, okay?â
She swallowed, gripping the phone tighter. âZayneââ
âBaby,â he murmured. âBreathe.â
Her throat tightened. But she did it. Inhale, slow and shaking. Exhale, a little steadier.
âGood,â he said. She could hear the faint hum of his carâs engine through the receiver, the occasional honk in the distance. âNow, Iâm going to explain whatâs happening, and you will not assume the worst until Iâm finished. Deal?â
She squeezed her eyes shut. âOkay.â
âThere was a pile-up on the highway. No oneâs hurt, but it backed up traffic for miles. Iâve been inching forward for the last forty-five minutes, and Iâm about ten minutes from getting through the worst of it. Iâm going to be late, but I am coming. I will be there. I am marrying you today.â
She blinked rapidly, staring at the floor. The knot in her chest loosened, but the panic hadnât fully left. âBut what ifââ
âNope,â he cut in, gentle but firm. âNo what ifs. No spiraling. Tell me what youâre thinking, and Iâll tell you why youâre wrong.â
She let out a shaky breath, pressing her fingers to her temple. âWhat ifâwhat if this is a sign? That somethingâs off?â
Zayne exhaled through the receiver. Not exasperated, not frustratedâjust knowing. Like he had already predicted this exact worry before she even spoke. âAlright. Letâs break that down. What would this be a sign of? That the universe doesnât want us to be together?â
She hesitated. âI donât know. Maybe.â
âSweetheart,â he murmured, soft and unwavering, âthe universe has thrown a lot worse at us, and weâre still here.â
Her breath hitched.
âThink about it,â he continued. âWe survived me being in med school while you worked full-time. We survived the long shifts, the exhaustion, the nights where I fell asleep mid-conversation and you just laughed and pulled a blanket over me. We survived you almost backing out of moving in together, and me annoying the hell out of you by explaining, in painful detail, why you were overthinking it.â
That startled a breathy, half-laugh out of her. âYou did do that.â
âAnd I was right,â he reminded her smugly. âAnd Iâm right now, too. This isnât a sign of anything except that traffic is shit, and I need to leave earlier next time.â
She sniffled, pressing her palm to her eyes.
His voice softened. âYou still with me?â
She nodded, even though he couldnât see. âYeah.â
âGood,â he said, relief threading through his tone. âNow, tell me the truthâare you standing there in your dress, looking stupidly beautiful, worrying about the one thing you donât have to worry about?â
She glanced at her reflection in the full-length mirror across the room. Her dress fit perfectly, the veil draped like something out of a dream, the delicate lace covering her shoulders. And yet, none of it mattered. Not if he wasnât here.
âI justââ Her throat went tight again. âI just want you here.â
âI know,â he murmured. âAnd I will be. But in the meantime, I need you to do something for me.â
She swallowed. âWhat?â
âFind my mom,â he said. âTell her whatâs happening, so she can keep everyone calm. Then, go to the mirror, look at yourself, and remind yourself that I am coming. Because this isnât your worst fear coming true. Itâs just a logistical nightmare.â
She exhaled, her heartbeat finally slowing from a frantic sprint to something steadier.
âAnd while youâre at it,â Zayne continued, a smirk creeping into his voice, âconsider how dramatic of an entrance Iâm about to make. Pretty sure me rushing in, still half in my suit, to marry you is going to be some next-level rom-com shit.â
She let out a choked laugh, rubbing her temple. âGod, I hate that youâre making me laugh right now.â
âYou love that Iâm making you laugh right now.â
She sniffled again, but this time, she smiled. âYeah. I do.â
âGood. Now go find my mom,â he said. âAnd keep breathing. Because the next time you hear from me, Iâll be at the altar, waiting for you.â
And for the first time since she had realized he was late, she believed him.
She sat on the edge of their bed, hands clenched into the fabric of her pajama pants, staring at the single pink line on the test.
Another negative.
She had known it before she even took itâhad felt it in the hollow ache of her body, in the familiar weight of disappointment pressing against her ribs. But knowing didnât make it hurt any less.
The bathroom light was still on, its glow bleeding into the dim bedroom, casting long shadows along the walls. The clock on the nightstand read 2:13 AM, the kind of time that existed only for insomniacs and worriers.
She was both.
The floor creaked, and she barely registered the quiet rustle of blankets before Zayneâs voice, heavy with sleep, cut through the thick silence.
âSweetheart?â His voice was low, rough-edged with exhaustion.
She didnât answer.
The bed shifted as he sat up, and a moment later, she felt the warmth of himâhis presence wrapping around her before he even touched her. A second passed, then another, and then his fingers brushed against her knee, tentative at first. Testing. Feeling out the weight of her silence.
Finally, he asked, âAnother one?â
Her throat tightened. She nodded.
Zayne let out a slow breath, the kind that said I know. I know what this means to you. I know how much it hurts.
She clenched her jaw, her grip tightening on her pants. âTwo years.â The words felt heavy, bitter in her mouth. âTwo years of tracking cycles, vitamins, doctor visits, stupid fertility teasâtwo years of getting my hopes up just to end up right back here.â She let out a short, sharp laugh, but there was no humor in it. Only exhaustion. Only anger. âI think itâs time to admit it, Zayne. I might not be able to get pregnant.â
She felt his hand shift, fingers trailing slowly up her thigh before settling over hers, prying them loose from the fabric she had been clutching like a lifeline. He held her hand in both of his, running his thumbs over her knuckles in slow, methodical strokes.
âOkay,â he said. Just that. A quiet, steady acknowledgment.
Her breath hitched. âThatâs all you have to say?â
âNo.â His grip on her hand tightened, gentle but firm. âBut I need you to tell me exactly what youâre afraid of before I tell you why youâre wrong.â
She squeezed her eyes shut, willing herself not to cry. âIâm afraid that Iâll never give you a child,â she whispered. âThat Iâll never be able to give us the family we wanted.â
Zayne exhaled slowly, then shifted forward, his presence overwhelming in the best wayâwarm, solid, here. He reached for her, guiding her between his legs so that she was sitting against his chest, her back pressed into the steady rise and fall of his breathing. He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close, one hand slipping beneath her shirt to press against the bare skin of her stomach.
âAlright,â he murmured, lips brushing the shell of her ear. âLetâs break this down.â
She let out a half-sob, half-laugh. âGod, you and your breaking things downââ
âShh,â he hummed, kissing the side of her head. âIâm working.â
She sniffled, but she didnât pull away.
His fingers traced slow, soothing circles over her stomach. âFact number one: The ability to get pregnant does not determine your worth. It does not determine whether you are enough for me. You are enough. Always have been. Always will be.â
Her throat closed up.
âFact number two,â he continued, pressing his lips to her shoulder. âThis isnât over. Not by a long shot. There are optionsâtreatments, specialists, other ways to have the family we want. And I say we because this isnât your burden to carry alone. Itâs ours.â
Her breath stuttered.
His arms tightened around her, his voice softening, dropping into that low, reassuring timbre that always made her feel safe. âFact number three,â he whispered. âI didnât marry you because I wanted a baby. I married you because I wanted you.â
A sound broke from her throat, something fragile and small.
Zayne pressed his lips against the side of her neck, lingering. âA child would be a gift, but youâyouâre the dream, sweetheart. You are my family.â
And thatâthatâwas what shattered her.
The tears came fast, hot and silent, spilling over before she could stop them. She turned in his arms, pressing her face into his neck, clutching at his shirt like it was the only thing keeping her from falling apart.
Zayne just held her, one hand in her hair, the other still pressed to her stomach, as if anchoring her to the reality he was trying so desperately to make her see.
They stayed like that for a long time, tangled together in the quiet darkness of their bedroom, in the heavy stillness of a truth she hadnât let herself believe until now.
And when she finally found her voice again, it was small, hoarse. âYou always know what to say.â
He huffed a quiet laugh, his lips still against her temple. âOf course. Thatâs my job.â
And for the first time in two years, she let herself believe that maybeâjust maybeâthey were going to be okay.
The car ride home was silent, but not the kind of silence that came with comfort.
It was the too still, too fragile, afraid-to-breathe kind of quiet.
She sat in the back seat, her body turned slightly toward the impossibly tiny person strapped into the car seat beside her. One hand hovered over their daughterâs chest, not quite touching, as if she was trying to convince herself that the gentle rise and fall of breath was real.
Zayne kept glancing in the rearview mirror, catching the way she barely blinked, the way her fingers twitched like she was fighting the urge to undo the buckle and pull their daughter into her arms.
âSheâs okay,â he murmured, his voice breaking through the hush of the car.
Her gaze flicked to him, wide and uncertain. âWhat if sheâs not?â
Zayne exhaled through his nose, a small, knowing smile tugging at his lips. âThen, statistically speaking, you will know before the car even stops.â
That earned him a glare, sharp but not real. He could see itâthe way she wanted to be irritated, wanted to snap back that this is different, but she was too exhausted, too overwhelmed.
Still, she pressed her fingers gently to their daughterâs tiny chest, feeling the rhythmic little breaths beneath her palm.
The driveway appeared sooner than he expected.
It felt different, pulling up to the house with her in the car.
For years, it had been just them. Two people in a house that had once felt too big, too empty. And now, suddenly, it was as if the space had shrunk, like the walls had shifted to accommodate this new, impossibly small presence.
Zayne parked the car, then turned to look at her fully. âYou ready?â
She swallowed. âNo.â
His smile softened. âThatâs okay. Weâre doing it anyway.â
She let out a shaky breath, nodding.
He climbed out first, moving around to open her door while she unbuckled the car seat with careful, practiced motions that still felt foreign. Her hands trembled slightly, but she didnât stop, didnât hesitate as she lifted their daughter into her arms.
And then she just... froze.
Zayne didnât rush her.
He watched as she stared down at the tiny bundle against her chest, eyes tracing every delicate feature like she was memorizing her for the hundredth time. Her fingers hovered over the soft down of their daughterâs hair, brushing lightly, reverently, as if the moment she pressed too hard, she would disappear.
âSheâs ours,â she whispered.
Zayne stepped closer, pressing a hand to the small of her back. âYeah,â he murmured. âShe is.â
For a moment, she didnât move, didnât breathe.
And then, finally, she tore her gaze away, looking up at him, eyes glassy with exhaustion and something deeper, something heavier.
âWhat if weâre not good at this?â she whispered.
Zayne didnât answer right away. He reached out, his fingers settling over hers, pressing against their daughterâs impossibly small back. He let the silence stretch, let the weight of her words settle before he finally spoke.
âWell,â he said, voice low and warm, âif weâre bad at it, sheâs got no frame of reference, so sheâll never know.â
She let out a half-sob, half-laugh, and he took the car seat from her hands before she could collapse completely.
Inside, the house felt... different.
The air was heavier, charged with something new. The walls that had once held only the quiet sounds of two people learning how to love each other now had to stretch, make room for the soft, uncertain presence of someone else.
She stood in the middle of the living room, their daughter still tucked against her chest, staring at nothing.
Zayne set down the car seat and moved toward her. âSweetheart.â
She didnât respond.
He touched her elbow, and she blinked, startled, like she had been somewhere else entirely.
âI donât know what to do,â she whispered. âI donâtâsheâs here, and I donât know what to do.â
Zayne let out a slow breath, reaching out, slipping his arms around both of them. He pressed his forehead against hers, his voice soft and steady. âOkay. Letâs go over what we do know.â
She closed her eyes, her breath hitching. âZayneââ
âShh,â he murmured. âFact number one: Sheâs here. Sheâs real. We did it.â
Her fingers curled into his shirt.
âFact number two: Sheâs warm, sheâs breathing, and despite all your worrying, she seems to be a very content baby.â
She let out a shaky laugh, barely more than an exhale.
âAnd fact number three?â He reached down, gently brushing his knuckles against their daughterâs tiny cheek. âWe love her. And thatâs the biggest thing, sweetheart. Thatâs the thing that matters most.â
She let out a small, broken sound, pressing her face into his neck, clinging to him like he was the only thing keeping her from unraveling.
Zayne held her tighter, cradling both of them, anchoring them in the moment.
And later, when their daughter was finally asleep in her crib, when the house was still and quiet again, she curled into him in bed, her fingers tracing absent shapes against his chest.
She let out a breath. âWeâre really parents now.â
Zayne pressed a kiss into her hair. âYeah.â
A long silence stretched between them, but it wasnât heavy. It wasnât uncertain.
It was warm. Steady. Full.
And then, quietly, she whispered, âWhat if she doesnât love us?â
Zayne exhaled a quiet laugh, pulling her closer. âShe will.â
âBut what ifââ
âShe will,â he said again, pressing another kiss to her forehead, lingering there. âBecause we love her. And because sheâs got the most overthinking, stubborn, impossibly wonderful mother in the world.â
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