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Kaafi Sundar sa mausam hai, no need to respond to this it's just kuch baate thee man me toh. Itna toh janti hu thee ki jitna aapse kar pati thee. Baat utna kisi se nhi hone wali. Khair, aaj guru purnima hai iss din har koi apne teachers ke sath sath maa , papa ka ashirwad bhi lete hai. Maine call lagaya tha utha nhi. Bhaiya pe bhi kiya toh unhone bhi kuch der baad wifi off kar diya nhi kiya baat . Maan nhi hoga kuch kuch kehti hu toh unko lagta hai mai zyada stress de rhi, jayaz baat bhi hai akhir mai unse choti hu. Saach pucho toh kaafi loog hai aas pass mere par phir bhi ek ajeeb sa khali pan hai. Iss beech ek baar mera changu se jhagda hogaya. Not jhagda but but thoda sa huwa maa usse baat karna chahti thee aur maa ne kuch majak kar diya toh uspe woh mujhe aankh dikhane lagi. Idk mujhe bohot zyada bura laga kyu ki abhi mai uncle ke yaha hu. Woh mere saath aagyi hai aur jab se aayi hai usko thoda jealous feel horaha hai i guess . Kitni baar toh keh bhi chuki hai, tu kuch zyada hi accha banne ka dhong karti hai, zyada behen behen karti hai( jab bhi uncle ki betiyo ko dular karti hu tab) . Hamesha ka hai uska jab usse gussa aata hai toh woh mujhpe aake suna deti hai. Mai samajhti hu ki close hai isiliye but iska matlab yeh toh nhi ki mai punching bag hu jb man tab aake suna do aankhe dikha do kuch bhi bol do. Sunte sunte thak gYi thee mai mami ke muh se ki teri maa pagal nhi dhog kar rhi hai, kanjus hai and stuff . Woh nhi hai but ek minute ke liye hai bhi toh iska matlab yeh toh nhi ki hamesha hamesha sunati rahe. Aur changu ko lagta hai ki yeh waise hi bolegi aur mai sehti rahungi. But mami badi hai lehaj karti hu aur kuch nhi bolti hu. Isko kyu kuch na bolu. Maa ki kayi jagah galTi hai isiliye mami ki bhi seh leti hu warna Mai jawab deti. Aur kal maine usse daata isiliye ki usko kuch bhi samjhao toh nhi samajhti . Toh mujhe dhamki de rhi thee tu ayegi na abb toh pata chalega ki mai kya kya bolungi mama mami ko. Jaise ki maine usko kya boldiya ho. Harek cheez me sunati hai ki tu kisi layak nhi teri maa nhi rakhna chahti tujhe. Bolye ki itni choti si bacchi aur yeh sunati hai hai kitna koi baccha bolke ignore kar sakta hai??. Khud itni aalsi hai maine kabhi kuch bola. Yaha aane par bhi washing machine me khud ke kapde tak nhi uthake dalti aur kabhi kapde uthane gayi toh bakiyo ke utha deti hai mera chor deti hai aur jab phone na du toh uncle ki betiyo ko sunati hai ki shaadi hogayi na tab se ghamandi hogayi hai bolke.

There Is Nothing to Name

For once just one, i felt a something. I know as it was very much different than anything I had felt before but my fate was against it and that's alright not every thing that one love is affordable. However how can I not think of it.

isko draft me hi save karna hai, kyu ki baat karna sahi hoga nhi aur itni baate dimag me rhaegi toh mera dimaag ashant rahega exam me. aur post karna is not a good option. woh kabita padha maine, kaafi sundar likha hai, abhi kuch dino se iss parisksha ke aant ke liye ruki hu, haa mai koi pratiyogita nahi kar rahi bus mera chanchal sa jo man hai woh unn kabitao ke padhte hi kuch na kuch unke uttar me bana hi leti hai, aur jab tak unko na utaro man sant nhi hone deti, pata hai mujhe yu nhi dekhna chahiye par kya kare aadato se majbur bolna bhi kehna sahi nhi hai kyu ki aadat nhi hai ye, khud ke man se dekhti rehti hu. khair bus iiiiiiiitna kehna hai ki woh jo prem ki paribhasa hai bohot hi sundar hai, aapke sabdo me its noiceee . aur aap soch rahe honge ki jab paper hai kal toh ye itni raat gaye kya kar rhi toh maine just model question complete kiya hai, kuch dino se mai mama ke yaha hi reh rahi hu, kyu? woh toh kisi aur din ke liye rakh deti hu. mujhe nahi pata mai yeh kyu likh rahi hu, mere dimag ke anusar mujhe aapko paresaan nhi karna chahiye par man kehtaa hai likh lo warna maine sone nhi dena tumhe, mere behne exam dene se pehle hi acche marks aane ke khusi bana rahe hai, maine puri kosis ki hai, aur exam me bhi anxious na hone ki hi kosis rahegi waise toh padhai affect huwi hai khair piche 3 saal me kab nhi huwi last year ke alawa nhi huwi ....hee, you were there, iss bari bhi ho, just in a different form and this long post, idk if mai ispe post wla option choose karungiki nhi kyu i'm sleepy . 2 din se sahi se nhi ho rhi thee neend so acche se coffee pi hai maine aaj. i hope you're okay. i 'll probably be happy if you'll say that you don't care that i think about you. but if you'll say that i'll know you do care enough to respond to me. yes i think about you but just so you know i think about you staying within my moral boundaries. you know how i'm when it comes to my moral value. and if you donot understand what i'm talking about congrats its not for you. its more like the conversation between the sunset and the moon .

I never quite understood the thing before when you used to say that you talked to me in your head until it was my turn. I used to think you analysed the things with the filter of my beliefs but now I know it's more like having an actual conversation where your mind creates what the person is going to reply to this. How he is going to react to this, how is he going to take it , this would have made him smile, this would have made him close his eyes and breathe the sign of relief. And you actually have a full session of conversation without having to bother them.