suck my nuts dead and gone

new pinned whateverrrrr. my name is chad yes i know its stupid no i cannot change it i have to bear this cross forever. 25 he/him moderately skinny not terribly mean but definitely a FAGGOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i truly could not give a fuck about anything anymore. @ramstarsfury my comic i actually care about will start eventuially. i tag fandoms and #art is my stupid bad dumb art when i remember to upload it #talk is whatever dumbfuck shit i feel like saying. i mostly just reblog stuff that gets a little chuckle outta me

im genuinely begging with all of my heart to just be left alone im sorry i even said anything and im sorry that im a bad judge of character and im sorry that im so like, uniquely hateable for this shit to happen to me over and over and over again but if it makes u feel any better u win i mean i was already not apart of, literally anyones spaces now but ill just become more of a recluse and go offline entirely i guess. ill atleast finish owed art but i just like

i genuinely never said anything to discount that document. someone i ASSOCIATED with told the victim they werent groomed, the victim came to me asking for my opinion on the situation and i stated numerous times that it was not my place to say, i have no personal connection with either of them and i do not have enough knowledge of anyone involved to have a direct opinion. i have proof of this conversation for the record. apparently though this response was not good enough so the victim publicly told people that i supported icedog and people started dogpiling and harassing me to the point where i got intentionally high and just fucking drove (i didnt harm anyone/get harmed thankfully) but the whole situation was incredibly traumatic to me to the point that for the past 2 years on each anniversary of the incident (which also happens to be my husbands birthday, which is fun) i genuinely get suicidal.

so like, u understand why i dont want to talk about that? or anything? u understand why i have not engaged in the community like, at all, for a long while? i only spoke about aaron because unlike the other two ive actually interacted with him and was going from the conclusion i made of what he told me. but im sorry that i even said anything in the first place ill retract what i said ill cut myself ill deactivate my accounts ill do whatever the fuck u guys want if it gets u to just leave me the hell alone.

im already genuinely fucking unstable as hell from my own sexual abuse trauma rn i have no access to therapy i have no money for meds and im already running out of my emergency prozac refill and, idk if yall saw me during the withdrawal period but i was like, fully ready to kill myself then, so like? when the withdrawals come back (and the fucking psychosis i get from my pmdd) i would really like to just be left alone because i say this with complete sincerity and again without trying to guilt trip but im being totally serious when i say that i am scared for what i will do to myself if this continues. ok? you guys win like i already, literally was not apart of the wc community anymore/literally my only public platform is toyhouse (this doesnt count i have 90 followers here and i literally only reblog stuff) so i dont really know what u want me to do