Singularity

This really a mantra…

Sean Don

Getting closer and closer to the beginning for me. Its crazy creating something that doesn’t exist and watching it come to life. It’s going to change my life drastically which is what I wanted. Its what I asked for. You were in the city over the weekend. I can’t believe I still want you today just as much as I wanted you the first time I saw you. I’ll see you in person sometime sooner than later. I’m sure of that at least. I still got big plans. Big plans to be the big man…

It’s crazy how things played out like I said they would so far. You found someone else. Got engaged and had a little girl. She is your twin if I ever have seen one. Its almost time for the part of the story when you come home. I’m almost ready for that. I never told you that when I told you that you would go off and live life then come bacc it wasn’t just me saying it. I saw it. I’ve seen more since. I understand more now. I know what I can do and will do. I just don’t know exactly when it all will happen. Patience is my strongest attribute. Patience is always there…

I still don’t know what happened. What brought on your decision. Was it something I said or did. I play bacc the convos in my head. This is where having a memory like mine does not come in handy. Then I think what if I just told you I wasn’t ready also and we should just date would that have relieved pressure off you as well. I do know I never stopped thinking of you. It’s crazy. I usually can chalk it up. But something is not letting me this time. It’s like I know exactly what I am suppose to do and who is around m, I just can’t figure out how to get them there honestly. When I told GOD I was ready and it was going to be now because after I know it would be almost impossible for me and you came along I knew what it was. Thats what made me not want to give up like I normally do. It’s crazy how I tell myself relationships aren’t for me for years and now I only want to be in one with you. I don’t want to give up but I also want to give you your space. I’m not suppose to like people like this. But I am quite fond of you...

I miss you more now than ever before. You come to my dreams often...