CHOOSE TO LIVE */

“please don’t go.” “you have to hold on, okay?” “he/she/they broke up with me.” “i’ll never be the same if you leave me now.” “why would you do this?” “i’m done playing your stupid games! i’m through with you!” “i just keep thinking about it.. and it hurts, so much.” “pain like that doesn’t make you stronger. it just makes you different, and not in a good way.” “i never cared about you. not even for a second.” “i killed someone today. i’ll never be able to erase that image from my mind.” “i never thought being alone could be this bad.” “you’re such a fucking joke.” “did you honestly think anyone was going to buy that kind of pathetic excuse?” “get out. i never want to see you again.” “i’ve lost so many people. i can’t lose you too.” “your name is going to be poisoned for me forever.” “i feel like no matter what i do, nobody likes me any more than they used to.” “everything is changing, and i’m being left behind.” “one day, i’m gonna give you hell for what you did to me.” “you didn’t have to go that far!” “i don’t know how to cut myself some slack.” “am i just not good enough for you?” “so you thought lying about it was the best solution? really?” “i can’t handle this anymore. i don’t know what to do.” “do you ever wonder if this is all you’ll ever amount to?” “i can’t shake the feeling that something bad is happening.” “i thought we would have more time together than this.” “it should have been you. you should have been the one that died, not him/her/them.” “i know i shouldn’t, but i miss you.” “i hope you end up alone for the rest of your miserable life!” “don’t touch me.” “i just need my space from you.” “everyone always lies. that’s just how people are.” “i can’t love you.”

❛  turning  back  isn’t  an  option  .  ❜ ❛  you  must  return  home  ,  even  if  it  kills  you  .  ❜ ❛  you  left  everything  i  promised  you  .  ❜ ❛  your  heart  grows  heavy  .  ❜ ❛  despite  how  dangerous  your  love  is  .  ❜ ❛  i  feel  like  you’re  the  only  one  who  truly  cares  .  ❜ ❛  let  me  do  what  is  best  for  you  .  ❜ ❛  what  am  i  doing  ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  not  who  i  am  .  ❜ ❛  we  have  forgotten  who  we  are .  ❜ ❛  you  found  it  in  your  heart  not  to  fight  .  ❜ ❛  after  everything  i  have  done … ❜ ❛  i  know  you  cannot  forgive  me  .  ❜ ❛  please  do  not  forget  me  .  ❜ ❛  promise  me  you  will  save  us  .  ❜ ❛  promise  me  i  won’t  die  here  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  skin  and  bones  !  ❜ ❛  sooo !  how  does  it  taste  ?!  ❜ ❛  well  ,  this  is  embarrassing  …  ❜ ❛  show  them  your  sunny  side  ! ❜ ❛  i  put  a  lot  of  sweat  ‘n  blood  into  this  thing  .  ❜ ❛  your  funeral  .  ❜ ❛  so  what’ll  it  be  ?  ❜ ❛  what  ?  no  .  ❜ ❛  listen  ,  bucko  .  as  much  as  i  admire  you  trying  to  get  yourself  killed  ,  don’t  .  ❜ ❛  i  just  don’t  have  the  heart  to  care  for  stupid  questions  .  ❜ ❛  lucky  for  us  ,  we  have  forever  .  ❜ ❛  i’d  say  your  time  here  is  limited  .  ❜ ❛  personally  ?   i  kinda  want  them  dead  .  ❜ ❛  someone’s  gotta  do  it  .  ❜ ❛  what’s  with  that  look  ?  ❜ ❛  aw  ,  gotta  family  waiting  for  you  ?  ❜ ❛  that’s  cute  .  ❜ ❛  you  look  pretty  miserable  .  ❜ ❛  i  told  you  not  to  get  too  close  ! ❜

❛  fight  because  you  don’t  know  how  to  die  quietly  .  ❜ ❛  i’d  rather  die  on  my  feet  than  live  on  my  knees  .  ❜ ❛  i’ll  get  over  it  ,  i  just  gotta  be  dramatic  first  .  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  get  to  be  surprised  that  nobody  gives  a  fuck  about  you  after  you’ve  worked  so  hard  to  alienate  the  entire  world  .  ❜ ❛  i  wouldn’t  be  like  this  if  i  knew  how  to  not  be  like  this  ,  okay  ?  ❜ ❛  i  had  to  fight  like  hell  and  fighting  like  hell  made  me  what  i  am  .  ❜ ❛  i  will  be  brutal  .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  be  soft  anymore  .  i  want  to  be  bloody  knuckles  and  glass  shards  and  i  want  people  to  be  afraid  of  hurting  me  .  ❜ ❛  bring  them  to  their  knees  .  head  bowed  and  fists  bleeding  —  make  them  repent  .  ❜ ❛  is  this  what  i  get  for  loving  a  god  ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  a  weapon  ;  and  weapons  don’t  weep  .  ❜ ❛  i’ll  survive  .  somehow  i  always  do  .  ❜ ❛  the  things  that   used   to  make  me  cry  just  make   my  hands  shake  and  my  eyes  blank  .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  begun  to  understand  why  god  died  .  ❜ ❛  i  speak  violence  .  ❜ ❛  it’s  not  my  fault  i  have  my  father’s  eyes  .  ❜ ❛  judge  if  you  want  ,  we  are  all  going  to  die  .  i  intend  to  deserve  it  .  ❜ ❛  i  need  to  kill  you  .  ❜ ❛  i  will  continue  to  watch  you  rot  .  ❜ ❛  i  wasn’t  born  to  be  soft  and  quiet  .  i  was  born  to  make  the  world  shatter  and  shake  at  my  fingertips  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  a  nice  person  ,  are  you  ?  ❜ ❛  when  i  punched  you  .  that  was  when  i  first  felt  something  for  you  .  ❜ ❛  if  you  don’t  terrify  people  a  little  bit  then  what’s  the  point  ?  ❜ ❛  i  could  tear  you  apart  if  i  wanted  .  ❜ ❛  do  not  tell  me  what  i  can  and  cannot  do  .  ❜ ❛  i  can  and  i  will  .  watch  me  .  ❜ ❛  no  one  made  me  .  i  made  me  .  ❜ ❛  take  a  breath  ,  spit  out  the  blood  in  your  mouth  ,  and  get  back  up  on  your  feet  .  you  still  got  a  couple  motherfuckers  to  prove  wrong  .  ❜ ❛  here’s  what  i  know  ;  i  will  die  only  by  my  own  hand  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  everything  you  can’t  control  .  ❜ ❛  i  am  violent  ,  and  bitter  ,  and  ugly  inside  and  out  .  ❜ ❛  i  am  being  perfectly  fucking  civil  .  ❜ ❛  goddamn  right  ,  you  should  be  scared  of  me  .  ❜ ❛  you  are  losing  my  interest  ,  and  that  is  very  dangerous  .  ❜ ❛  if  i  can  still  breathe  ,  i’m  fine  .  ❜ ❛  i  will  do  what  it  takes  to  survive  .  ❜ ❛  if  karma  doesn’t  hit  you  ,  i  fucking  will  .  ❜ ❛  don’t  be  sorry  .  i  trusted  you  ,  my  fault  not  yours  .  ❜ ❛  i  wonder  if  life  smokes  after  it  fucks  me  .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  have  to  prove  shit  to  you  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  tearing  down  my  walls  for  anyone  again  .  you  want  to  know  what’s  inside  ?  climb  .  ❜ ❛  i  am  mine  .  before  i  am  ever  anyone  else’s  .  ❜

but will always remember exactly what death feels like

eli goree as quincy carter in ballers season 4 episode 5 “doink” (2018)

❝     what  are  you  doing  with  that ?     ❞

clarke  griffin  of  cw’s  the  hundred.      protected  by  caroline.     previously  shebore.   

❛ you look lonely and lost. ❜

Guess we got more in common than meets the eye, huh?