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p's Perspective on: N's Two-Slave Household Project

N suggested I do one of my 'p's perspective' pieces on Her ongoing project to create a loose, two-consensual-slave household: one general dogsbody (Me) and one (for want of a better phrase) sex-slave and escort (m).

Actually, that's putting it far too crudely. I know that I am more than just a dogsbody to N. In some ways, I am closer to Her than m (though I don't mean that to sound as if we are in competition). I have known Her longer and in greater depth. I am Her collared slave, he is still effectively a 'trainee', though I doubt if he sees it that way.

That is not just to say I am the more experienced kinkster than m; that means that N and me have a very deep connection, which we choose to express in Her Ownership of me rather than marriage. We have a firm commitment to our relationship which N does not have with m - at least, not yet.

Of course, N could simply decide that She wishes to have an exclusive relationship with m and dismiss me; that's always possible as our relationship is simply a matter of Her choice. At the moment, though, while my duties are more menial, my place is more secure as she has not yet taken full ownership of m.

I should perhaps mention that m does not have access to this blog; in fact, I'm not even certain he knows of its existence. It is between N and me - and you! True, sometimes N will prohibit me from accessing it too, but only temporarily, when She wants to hide something from me for a while, such as when I am likely to obtain my next release.

So how - from my point of view - is N's project going? Well, as my main consideration must be Her happiness and She is very happy with it, I am obviously happy too; but not just because of that. The project could clearly go badly wrong, but so far, the issues I was most worried about haven't really materialised.

N knows that I have a hard limit around serving another male and She doesn't wish me to do so either, at least not directly. She has therefore made very clear to m that he is not to consider himself my Master and that She considers him to be a slave like me; moreover, less experienced and uncollared.

As he is not (as far as we know) a natural sub, She is taking a big risk in telling him this, as She may lose him. Her attitude to this is simply, "easy come, easy go" and so far it has worked. She has been very careful not to push him too far too quickly, but they are slowly and surely 'getting there'.

Where 'there' is may need a little more explanation. m is not to be another me. N does not intend him to be at the same level of slavery. He will service Her at Her discretion and She will control his sex life completely. He will also submit to Her will generally, but he will not usually be required to perform a range of domestic duties as I do.

Neither will he usually be subject to the same discipline or subjected to the same 'humiliating' treatment N regularly inflicts on me as part of our BDSM play. I stress usually as I know She intends to do so every now and then to remind him that She regards him as one of Her slaves. She has not yet done much of this, for obvious reasons.

N recognises the mistakes She made in Her previous attempts to establish this sort of three-way relationship and is keen not to repeat them. She wants to make each of our roles very clear and in particular, She wants m clear that he is not Her 'partner'. She does not currently want a 'partner'.

If She changes Her mind, it is likely She may get rid of me, as I indicated above; but right now She just wants Her collared slave (me) and another male who can provide the sexual and escort services I am unable to provide. I'm fine with that. You might think I'd be driven mad by jealousy - and in the past, I may have been - but I'm really not now.

It takes a long time - at least I took a long time - to get into something approaching 'full slave mentality'; but once you get there, you find that you don't just think, but feel differently about many things. Am I still anxious that N may choose to be with m exclusively? Of course - but that just makes me try harder than ever to please Her!

One other thing I should mention perhaps is serving N, or being required by N to humble or humiliate myself, in front of m. Yes, that can be a challenge, but maybe not so much as you might think. When N commands me, I am pretty much fully focussed on Her and what She wants me to do. I'm not thinking of m or what he thinks.

N has reminded me that I haven't said anything about how I actually get on with m personally, or how I feel about him. We get on okay - we have to! Do I like him? We could be friends, but I don't think we could ever be close friends. Maybe that's a potential problem, but it's one N is aware of and as She is happy to say "Let's see", so will I.

p

- You girls have male slaves! That is so cool!

- And now that you’ve joined the sorority, you three can use them as well if you like!

- I like!

- I definitely like!

- I absolutely like!