i wanna talk about it but i really dont wanna talk about it

Because matter can neither be created nor destroyed (on a practical, general level), your body is actually as old as the universe is. Nothing that is part of you didn’t exist elsewhere billions of years ago.

im deleting all feelings i dont know her

I don’t think I’m any good at being alone, but it didn’t feel much better being with you. I thought, even if I don’t really have you – at least not in the way I wanted you, it would be better than being alone. It was the idea that something is better than nothing. But being with someone like that, it can make you feel so empty. Because no matter what you tell yourself, you’ll always want more. It’s a certain type of self-destruction. Waiting, wanting, and hoping things will change when you know they won’t. It makes you think maybe you would be better off alone.

i just want to sit in front of the ocean for a little while