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So back story, I lost my husband suddenly of 16 years back in 2016. He left me with 2 kids. Every since he died, I have this reoccurring dream. Had another one last night. In my dream, he comes back, like he never died, but he wants nothing to do with me. I cry, beg, plead him to come back to me. He is nasty to me and keeps telling me to leave him alone, that his been gone this long and he has moved on. Why do you think I constantly have this dream?

Met a guy online and we texted and chatted for a couple days. Seems like a good match, we like the same things, etc. Tells me he has a bikeand loves riding , living in a beach area, motorcycles are very common. So we decide to meet. I pull up to the restaurant and he pulls up on a moped!!! Really that is not a bike! I get it, but come on! So we eat and converse, the problem, I couldn't get over his ear! They were FLAT, no definition, nothing. Call me shallow, but I had to end the date after we ate!

Call me old, but what happened to dates? Everything is a text now! I wanna talk to someone, get to know them. Find out if there is more then just a physical attraction. Everything now is texting and sending pics, there is no taking a girl out anymore. Finding out that guys just want one thing. Well I know my worth! Not just giving it up to anyone. Why is that so hard to understand? I'm told by many guys, "we are both adults" so lets just go and jump ahead to the sex! No wonder you are still single. Again, maybe I'm too old for this shit!

On a dating sight, hits me up, theres a little connection, I'm 46, hes 38. Ok not a big deal. With in 15 mintues of texting I get a pic of his you know what!!! WTF! Is this what dating has become? I told him, I was looking for a relationship, not a hook up. Am I suppose to be all excited about his dix pix?