but lately I get the feeling I came in at the end

I had an interesting experience in my creative writing class the other day when we were sharing out our journals, and I talked about pre-grief and the constant low-grade anxiety of knowing your parents are in ill health. And this very sweet 20-year-old man said "Everyone thinks this is crazy, but I'm not scared of death at all." And he's a nice guy and I'm not ripping him, but it did make me realize that some things just won't make sense until they make sense. And The Sopranos is amazing because every year that goes by I appreciate it more, and I find myself looking forward to next year because I know I'll find depth and meaning that old stupid me didn't know about. That's the mark of really, really good writing. It's larger than your interpretation of it. It makes you excited to see it with new eyes.