Sometimes, you just need to let it out
I could compose how I feel about you into sentences, but I can’t say it without the words getting caught in my throat. It wouldn’t be fair to say anything reminded me of you because you are never forgotten, you are constantly on my mind. As I go to sleep, as I wake up. I consider you before making major life decisions and you’re the only reason I don’t want to leave my job.
I wonder what your eyes would look like in direct sunlight. Would they look like rays of light shining through the treetops in a forest or would they glow like a bottle of maple syrup in the sun? I could honestly stare into your eyes for hours if I weren’t so afraid that if I looked into them for too long, I would fall in love with you. Looking into your eyes, I feel the same warmth and comfort that I feel when the sun shines on my face. Your eyes are like the void of space where the sparkles portray the stars themselves.
I like it when you talk back to me. I like that you know when to let things go and when you shouldn’t. I like that you give the best advice. I like when you listen and it feels like you care, not just for me but for everyone around you. I admire your dedication to self-improvement, both physically and mentally.
I look at your hands and ask myself if you ever played an instrument. I look at your lips and how the tension builds waiting for a reaction when you’re trying to wind me up. I look at your smile and wonder what your insecurities are.
There’s a fine line between love and obsession, and I think I’m on the wrong side of it.