please reach out if you're struggling or thinking about ending it. you are not alone, and never have been.
intro post!!! (2.0)
hihiiii!! my name is silver and i am sixteen. i use they/them pronouns but gender is a concept that i do not wish to endorse. my birthday is june 17.
i got my blog deleted unwillingly in like oct '25 and then took a break from nov 25 - may 26 and i am now back :] my username used to be dzxthlyangel
i constantly change my username to try and deter my irls from finding this blog. i don't think it is working.
⚠ i will use this as a VENT blog. this blog may contain mentions of sh, suicidal thoughts, disordered eating, and general vents. PLEASE block if you're uncomfortable and/or easily triggered!!
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i am a school student in the uk. i would like to study physics, maths, chemistry, and further maths. i am a huge academic overachiever. i like astronomy a lot and if you ask me to yap about it i will yap about it. i have one brother and one father and one mother and also a cat that i love more than anything else.
i have a referral for PTSD and no other diagnoses, but i overthink a lot and have a lot of issues with unhealthy attachment that my teachers have been the victim of. i cannot explain my mental health
i am waiting to get help, but the organisations are very slow. for this reason i do not count myself as jirai.
i am very bad at dms. i end up ghosting people very quickly. i apologise.
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i operate on an "if i think it should be a new tag i'll make it one" system. however, there are a few specific ones that you may wish to be aware of.
silver vs food - eating disorder and self hatred tag
silver + silver = red - sh tag (i will not post pictures)
silver tarnishes - general crashouts and vents
silver and Him - some guy who i am told is a groomer
block any of these tags if they may trigger you or you find these topics uncomfortable!! i will also try tag my posts with tw [topic], where relevant
mutuals puhleasw tag pedophilia slash groominf if you can i will appreciate it thank you
a list of all of my tags <- does not work currently
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oh yeah i did try therapying today for the first time since january when my school told camhs "oh yes silver is struggling with these symptoms of mental distress so we referred them to this other organisation" and camhs' response was "okay well we're discharging you"
so like this new scary place is actually quite nice i think. better than whatever camhs was i'm sorry but those chairs were uncomfortable and everybody was so fake with their support istg but this place has people that don't give me the impression that i have the same worth as a stain left behind by a crushed fly 😊
anyway i am as noncommunicative as ever unfortunatley but it is only the first session so one hopes for a greater outcome
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the scary organisation accepted my existence and i fear if i want something to happen i need to throw myself at it with both arms extended or i will spend the rest of my life in a miserable agonising state of paranoia and depression
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i had a very nice supervisor for my thing this past week and she made so much sense and we talked about a lot and she is so sweet. anyway i heard someone else asking her supervisor for their email for references so i wanted to do the same and she said she couldn't because she's an adult and i'm under 18
and oh my god i feel so stupid like obviously yeah i can trust her i think but also why why why why why did i ever let my guard down without realising oh my god i'm not as cautious as i was and this is gonna get me in so much trouble and then i'm gonna die ahrvrhevjrgh
and like what if the situation from before didn't really affect me bscause obviously i was careless enough to let my guard down after 5 FUCKING DAYS so surely i'm not actually that "traumatised"?? and it didn't affect me for me to keep my guard up at all times especially if it crumbled like wet paper in the face of a vaguely nice person
