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eve murphy & eli agosto | @gcldensage â letâs just forget about them, and letâs focus on you. and how perfect you are. â
having halloween off is a relief, feeling like a much needed breather â sure, sheâs still exhausted from the long hours, but right now? sheâs comfortably drunk, feeling light despite regretting not wearing a proper pair of pants. dressing as holly golightly had felt like a great idea before the sun set, and the cool breeze took over. however, she loved to see eli in suit -- especially when he seemed to still have the jacket on, and she could steal it. the alcohol hasn't warmed her up enough, though it has her giving eli a lopsided grin when she spots him across the room. she makes a beeline for him, enjoying the way finding him in a crowd leaves her calmer rather than on edge. "have i ever told you how good you look in a suit?" she greets him, immediately stepping into his space. her arms wrap around his middle under his jacket, warmed by his body heat. after a moment a laugh follows, head tipped back to look up at him. "and i totally forgot to get our drinks on the way back."
@silverskies - Spencer & Eve
Sliding into the bar after his shift, he finds himself at a darts game for a bit with some of the other hospital employees before bellying up next to a girl. After striking out with her (considering apparently he'd already fucked and dumped her), he finds himself rolling his eyes and turning to the tables again. Spotting Eve isn't exactly unheard of at the Duck, considering these were the pair's old stomping grounds, so he takes the empty chair across from her, placing his beer on the table. "Waiting on someone?" he asks, despite already taking the chair as his own. Looking down at his scream mask that's now made its way around his neck, he chuckles to himself. "I can act like I forced you into letting me take the chair."
it is surprising to no one that eve has avoided spencer where she can over the last two months -- which, admittedly, is easier said than done when he's her resident, and she's often found trailing behind him on the surgical floor. dodging him at the hospital is practically impossible, but outside of work? easy. apparently not tonight, though. the familiar voice breaking through the noise of the bar prompts an eyeroll. eve and spencer had met in this exact spot many times before -- drinks, banter, leaving together. it feels like a lifetime ago, not barely three months. brow arches as she turns to him, surprised spencer had approached her at all. "i am, actually." eve answers matter of fact, giving him an unimpressed look. "don't you have a wednesday addams or barbie you should be striking out with?"
cyrus cruz & cole harrison | @ncbodyssoldier â weâre running out of space? Itâs impossible. this building is enormous. â
âdude,â eyes roll, not surprised to see that cole didnât understand what cyrus meant. âitâs not like, literally. i mean figuratively.â he continues his way through the line in the cafeteria, grabbing a pudding cup as he explains himself. "this hospital is fuckin' huge and yet everywhere i turn, cooperman is around the corner." cyrus points out, not caring that he's complaining about coop to coop's best friend. the latter still leaves him with a bit of resentment, feeling a sense of betrayal. "there's not enough room here. he's gotta fuckin' go." cyrus adds definitively, reaching for a saran-wrapped sandwich.
â  because you deserve the best.  â  the words fall from his lips without hesitation, answering with a true belief despite the past, despite the decisions that lead them to where they are today. the love never dwindled, not once. not when the anger or resentment began to take over, not when the sadness and reality sunk in, not when provided a safe space to openly discuss what had happened; lying seemed easier. falling in love with eve had been easy, something that he had always been prepared for, even when she forced him to sit on the bedroom floor and act out outrageous stories with barbies. he could replay the day they found each other again, the sound of her laughter, the way her hair had been slightly knotted from the wind, the slight pink-shade that was on her cheeks. he can feel the anxiety thatâs beginning to radiate off her as she began to talk. the way her eyes dart upwards, the way her body is tense, the way her voice cracks under the weight of each confession. he pauses before answering, knowing it was a fear they both had and one he was too reluctant to admit. what if she ran off again? what if she came to the conclusion that he wasnât what she wanted?  â  you didnât kill the mood,  â  his voice is quiet, soothing. a hand reaches out, steady in the midst of the uncertainty, moving to hold onto the hand thatâs closest to him, interlocking their fingers immediately.  â  i donât want you to apologize for admitting how you feel, darlinâ.  â  chocolate-coloured hues look towards her, capturing her gaze with his own, hoping it was enough to provide some sense of comfort in the uncertainty.  â  i want you to be honest, i want you to feel like you can come to be about these things  â  whether it be work, family or us.  â  a pause.  â  holding it in isnât the answer,  â  another pause as he clears his throat, moving to sit up for the heavy conversation, but never letting go of her hand, allowing it to be grounding for them both.  â  holding it in is what got us here in the first place, eve.  â  he lets the weight on his words linger.  â  i was pissed when you left. for various reasons but i was mostly pissed because you didnât talk to me. iâd rather you tell me the hard shit than hold it in and try to handle it alone, eve.  â  sharp inhale.  â  i love you. that hasnât changed, and it ainât gonna change, but you gotta let me in.  â
eve is silently kicking herself, wishing she could have swallowed things down and let herself enjoy their night without getting in her own head. their relationship isn't perfect, and there's still so much to figure out -- but addressing what's going on in her head rather than pushing it down is what the rational part of her knows she has to do. the only reason everything fell apart was her trying to put up a facade and pretend the ache in her chest doesn't exist; she owes it to him, to herself, to be honest even when it hurts. she gives him a sad smile as he tries to reassure her, hand reaching out to hold his as he moves. it's grounding, reminding her that they're here together -- even if nothing between them is simple anymore, the fact that they're having this conversation at all is a step in the right direction.
she's not looking for eli to absolve her of her guilt, or tell her she has nothing to worry about. eve knows she is the one that unraveled their life -- it's something she's going to spend the rest of hers trying to make up for, prove that she's worth it. even if she doesn't always believe it herself. holding it in is what got us here in the first place, eve. his words, though they're spoken gently, feel like a punch to the gut. he's right; eve knows they need to have this conversation, even if it makes her squirm. "you're right," she nods, wiping at her cheeks with her free hand. stray tears had spilled over, despite her best efforts. "i don't want to just -- i don't want to just bottle everything up and slap on a smile," eve begins, trying to find the words as she speaks. her chin trembles, nearly betraying her. "somehow actually talking about it feels so much scarier." a sad laugh passes her lips, though the admission does help ease the ache.
i love you. that hasn't changed. she turns to better face him, free hand reaching out to cup his cheek. "i love you, elijah." her tone is soft, quiet as if she wants to make sure he's the only one who can hear her despite them being alone. "nothing is ever going to change that for me, either." eve repeats the words, hoping it's a reassurance to him. a beat, her thumb moving slowly against his cheek. "i know this is my fault. i'm the one who -- i messed things up. i know i can't change that, only work to fix this and make it right." a sad nod, and deep breath after. "i want a future with you, i want everything with you. talking about this stuff isn't -- it's not easy. but i'm never going to let anything come between us again," she lets out a sad laugh. "not even me, and my bullshit. promise." her hand moves, finding the hair at the nape of his neck. her fingers push into curls, the ghost of a smile at her lips. "no holding anything in, no doing it alone. just you and me."

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she hums, low in her throat and leans back against the bar. "you're making a face." she repeats with a shake of her head. she can practically see the thoughts rolling through ade's head and none of them are particularly flattering as far as her boy... thing goes. she laughs when ade claims she won't ask anymore questions, knowing that that's probably only going to last so long. "i'll believe that when you don't start interrogating me three margaritas in," she points out with a raised brow. and then even though she had been the one wanting to end the conversation, she finds herself word vomiting. "i don't know. maybe it's stupid but it feels... different right now." she cringes at herself and the cliche, knowing she would be yelling about how men are never different if she was in the other seat. "like he's actually trying and i don't want to pretend that doesn't count for something." she shrugs, throwing back the rest of her drink. "but if it all goes to shit you get to say i told you so â and you love that part."
"well, we both know that's a lot to ask of me." she points out, unable to help her own laughter at the call out. "twenty questions will be more like, one point eight margaritas in. so you're on borrowed time." they both know ade can never resist the urge gossip, though she spares dinah her curiosity for now. "unless you can find me some better entertainment." she pauses a sip of her drink to point that out, giving her friend a knowing look -- of their friend group, dinah and adrienne weren't exactly known for being the calm, quiet ones. the woman across from her knows exactly what she's insinuating. while di cringes, ade appreciates the sentiment; even if she expects the worst out of cyrus, she's glad it's going well. ade is nothing if not a romantic at heart. "it's not stupid," she interjects, though she's unable to help the loud laugh that comes with her friend downing the rest of her drink after spilling something vulnerable. "it's sweet, really. i'm glad he's capable of like, real human emotion -- not just stupidity and b.o." she downs the rest of her own drink, before adding: "for the record, i hope it doesn't all go to shit."
â who: eve & miller (@silverskies) â prompt: your methods are sloppy and your conclusions are highly questionable.
âoh iâm sorry,â millerâs voice was muffled by the cabinet he was halfway inside of. âdo you want to come in here and get elbows deep in your trash compactor?â maybe he had been a little sloppy, when he sticks his head out from under the sink, heâs faced with the evidence of how many boxes and cleaning supplies he just haphazardly tossed out of his way when he got to work. but it wasnât like this was a precise project. it was going to be messy. also an extremely cheap project for eve and her roommates, considering eli wasnât charging them. âbecause i feel like that would end in disaster.â ducking back into the cabinet, he used his penlight to look into space he opened up in the drain. âwhat the hell happened anyways?â he called out. there hadnât been much conversation when he got the call while he was at the gym. just a panicked request to help deal with a plumbing issue. and miller didnât like to brag, but he was so good at plumbing issues he could fix them with his eyes closed. so he turned up and upended all of his fellow internsâ cleaning supplies and was now fishing a ring out of the drain. ducking back out of the cabinet, he exhaled, holding the ring up between his thumb and index finger. âbecause i have no clue how this managed to get there.â
when something goes wrong in their house, the first call eve, priya or sienna makes is to their unofficial handy-man, miller. it's a role he probably didn't want to take on, but in the last three months he's become their go-to on if something stops working -- tonight's event being the strange noise in their sink, and whatever is blocking it from draining. her nose wrinkles, arms crossed over her chest as she talks to half of miller's body -- eve watches as she works under the sink, giving him a look when he sticks his head out. "we both know for the sake of this rental, it's better if you're under the sink." she points out, a bit entertained by her own words. "personally, i wouldn't have tossed the lysol across the room." it's an exaggeration at best, her laughter making it clear she's just giving him shit. "still questionable, though." her eyes narrow, leaning towards him as she speaks.
at the question, eve sighs, shrugging a shoulder. between her, priya and sienna (and the occasional eli or ryan), it's a gamble on who did what to cause the blockage. all she knows is that after using the flashlight on her phone, she spotted the ring -- but managed to knock it further down when she attempted to get it. hence the frantic call to miller, rather than to the actual plumber. once he's got the ring, eve immediately steps forward to examine it -- shocked to realize it had been one of hers. "oh my god," she plucks it from his hand, "i've been looking for this all week -- i thought i left it in the intern locker room or something."
thalia's scalpel stills for half a second â not long enough for anyone to really notice, but long enough for her to feel like she's having a miniature stroke. she doesn't even look up, doesn't give him the satisfaction of a flinch and just tilts her head slightly to get a better look at what she's doing. "silas isn't my boss," she reminds him â the use of coop's first name slipping out of old habit â and somedays it feels like sullivan is barely even her boss, though he's certainly trying to reassert that. "just because he says jump doesn't mean i have to say how high. i told sullivan i had a meeting with a patient about their spot on the unos list â even he isn't heartless enough to tell me to bail on a guy waiting on a set of lungs. i don't need to be sleeping with someone to get out of anything." she sets her scalpel down, holds a hand out for the scrub nurse to hand her a set of forceps. and then because she feels a little bad for getting defensive with cyrus, who she does generally like, she continues. "we're old friends â or something like that. we were together briefly during my residency." and then about a hundred times since then, but she's not about to go into that.
"yeah, he's not mine, either." cyrus points out with an eyeroll, though the use of the man's actual first name doesn't go unnoticed. "silas, huh?" he arches a brow, giving her an entertained look. "sullivan may not be heartless, but they're both fuckin' jackasses. you'd be jumpin' if they were threatening to fire you, too." her defensiveness is unexpected; though neither miss a beat as they move. "or something like that, sure." he nods, arching his brow. her tone, the evasiveness -- it reminds cyrus of him and dinah. their love lives aren't really a topic he and thalia talk about much, but he doesn't let up just yet. had this been anyone else, cyrus would have stopped responding by now. he knows thalia well enough to have his curiosity piqued. maybe he's been working too many shifts with indira -- either way, he makes a mental note to ask di later if she's heard anything. "clamp. i'm calling bullshit." he states blatantly, giving her a look as the nurse places the instrument in his hand.
he let out a little laugh, trying to appear unbothered by her little jab. "got it, no bathroom talk. iâll save those details for someone who appreciates the full picture," and he was sure that someone around here would. "and for the record, my ass kissing game is strategic. you start too early, it looks desperate. you time it right, you look confident, duh," he explained as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. do really think that i don't know how to ass kiss? because i'm kinda offended at that notion."
she gives him a look, knowing evan is trying to crack a joke -- but adrienne isn't interested in hearing any more about his bowels. "never any bathroom talk. i never want that full picture, keller. like, ever. save it for spencer." ade suggests, brow arching at him. "isn't desperate the resident motto?" there's laughter in her tone, signaling that she's partially joking. "'cause if you had a latte, i'd consider letting you in the or." it's not entirely true; he'll be scrubbing in with her later regardless, but ade doesn't like missing a chance to mess with him. she shrugs a shoulder at the question, not wanting to giving him an actual answer -- truthfully, evan is one of her go-to residents, considering his interest in plastics. she doesn't want him over confident, though. "you've lost your edge."
âyeah,â she hummed. âiâve been told that before.â she was irritated, cyrus wasnât the source, but he sure as fuck wasnât helping. on days like this indira goes back to her old day dream of not coming back to work, to just saying fuck it and finishing her book and leaving everyone else behind. but sheâs created roots, and if you told recently graduated indira that she wouldâve laughed in your face, because this was just supposed to be a job, but here she was now. leaning on her elbows as she stared at her best friendâs something â situationship? boyfriend? â indira had no clue and she wasnât in the mood to poke that bear, but then cyrus was talking. âcoo â sorry dr. cooperman? dr. cooperman has got you acting like this?â
indira's combative tone doesn't phase him, the two going toe to toe plenty of times in the past. this is probably one of their more civil conversations, despite the fact that anyone watching would probably assume one of them will start yelling in the next few minutes. "yeah, dr. cooperman, the annoying fuckin' head of cardio. he's lodged himself up my ass." he clarifies with an eye roll, as if it's not obvious -- cyrus can't help but assume most of the hospital staff, aside from interns, were on the same page as him when it came to the man in question. "want me to spell it out for you?"

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âYou mean Elijah,â he corrects. He knows that one at least. The kidâs been stopping by cardio, trying to hop on casesâ or maybe Spencer told him to. Heâs not sure. Coopâs been enjoying himself as he jumps from thing to thing, but clearly, Cyrus isnât enjoying Coopâs latest jump around. Sighing, Coop crosses his arms over his chest, fingers tapping his bicep as he takes in Cyrus. âActually, you do need me to check on you, or you wouldnât have been pulled in for re-training. Look, Iâm not here to get you fired, but if youâre asking me, youâre going to do that all by yourself,â he warns, his tone still casual. Like it or not, Cyrus wouldnât be anything off Coopâs back if he did get fired. This whole 'fuck you' to the new guy wasn't going to win him any favors.
"elijah, yeah." he answers as if that had been what he said originally. eyes roll as the man looks at him like a disappointed father -- cyrus imagine if his stuck around the look would feel more familiar. regardless, a frustration blooms in his chest, though he stands his ground. while it's clear cyrus doesn't like the man in front of him -- he maintains his poker face, even if he's a volcano that's about to erupt. "not looking to get me fired, right." he nods, unsure what coop is looking for in this conversation, aside from scolding the younger man. "just here to breathe down my neck," he points out, turning his attention back to the chart he'd been working on. "do you actually need something, cooperman? i'm busy."
dinah certainly isn't going to complain about making the most of a night off. when his arm wraps around her again, she hums, leans into it unconsciously. "your girl, huh?" she hums, voice light but her eyes flicker back to him with something softer. there's always been something about cyrus that makes him hard to get a read on, always saying something like it's half joke, half truth and he's afraid of saying it outloud. sometimes it feels like just when she's got him figured out, he does something to pull the rug out from under her. so she knows he had probably wanted her to just let that go but she wants to push him right now â she figures he'll either finally say something completely honest or she'll at least get to drink expensive champagne and watch him squirm for a minute.
she doesn't bother telling him he doesn't have to go all out and get her the best. they both know she's okay with the cheap shit. that her life has never been anything even remotely glamorous so sometimes just being able to eat a meal at mcdonalds and not share her fries with one of her brothers seems five star to her. but if he wants to go out of his way to do something bigger â if he wants to spoil her a little, who is she to say no? she clinks her glass gently against his. "thank you, though. for this. seriously, i appreciate it." her gaze lingers on him for a moment longer than it should, eyes searching his face for whatever it is he isn't saying. "you've been different lately," she admits when she can't find it. "not bad," she reassures, not wanting that squirming to turn into claming up. "just... different since the ferry accident especially. but maybe even before that."
cyrus never fails to seize up in moments like this, constantly caught between being calmed by dinah and squirming when she points things out. your girl, huh? he hates the way his chest tightens a bit as she says the words back, though the look in her eye eases it just as quickly. his hand moves against her lower back, sipping a bit more champagne (admittedly, to calm his nerves) before answers. "my girl, yeah." he answers, trying to resist the urge to crack a joke or break a nice moment. while he struggles to say so and commit, he does want this with her -- dinah's the only person he wants to come home to, even if he's too chickenshit to actually admit it.
"it's nothin'," he waves it off, leaning down to give her a peck as he speaks. "i like spoiling you." cyrus adds, a beat passing as they watch one another -- both silently trying to reach each other's minds and figure out what each is thinking. this would all be much simpler if she could; then he wouldn't have to do what felt impossible: explain himself. you've been different lately. dinah isn't wrong -- he'd been putting in an effort that had been out of character for him in the past, showing up for her in the way he wanted to but often failed at. naively, he hoped they could keep going on in this way -- showing not telling. he hesitates, knowing this is a moment where he could either seize up and end it, or actually talk to her. he tries to shoot for the latter hoping it won't fall apart. "i feel different," he answers, hating how corny it sounds. "after all of that." cyrus adds, pausing for another sip of champagne, hoping the alcohol will help. "sounds lame, but it put some shit into perspective." eloquent, as always. another beat, then: "i don't want to fuck this up -- us."
"dr. cooperman is an excellent teacher, you'll learn a lot from him." tess is quick to praise coop, knowing that eve and everyone else are probably hearing a million and one conflicting opinions on him. she gets it â he's been brought in essentially as a scare tactic to everyone's job security and he's being a hard ass, but she's been friends with him a long time. he's a good guy. she has faith he'll do right by the hospital. she smiles a little more when eve calls her hardcore, humming in agreement. "i think it's a case where two things can be true at once." after her mother's death to cervical cancer, tess had always seen herself focusing on ob but once she'd gotten into fetal and neonatal medicine, she'd found herself unable to let go, wanting to follow cases after the birth so she had found herself stepping into a surgical residency and eventually her pediatric fellowship. it had been a long and exhausting path, but the right one for her, she thinks. "of course," she repeats with a soft smile. "if that's still how you feel when it gets closer, i can help you make some connections, make some recommendations." she lets a beat pass. "or if you choose to stay at pvmc, that just means you'll be with me for a long time."
there's been quite a bit of gossip about dr. cooperman since his arrival a month prior -- eve tried to reserve any judgment, considering he's apparently a close friend of tess and cole. it doesn't change the fact that he seems to have pissed off a majority of the attendings at pine valley, though. "is it true that he's making a bunch of attendings go to a teaching class?" eve can't help but ask; she'd heard the rumors, but had been to scared to ask any of the attendings involved -- it's not like they were known for their kind attitudes and openness.
a nod follows tess's words, mirroring the same soft smile. eve loves when they get to talk like this -- no high stakes or lives on the line, just a mentor and her student. "thank you," she answers simply, grateful to have the support. admittedly, eve isn't used to it -- anything she'd gotten from her parents, namely her mother, was usually backhanded or came with some kind of strings attached. it's refreshing not feel like she has to put on a show. bumping the other woman's shoulder gently. "i could think of worse people to work with." there's a teasing tone to her words, before a shrug. "my mom wouldn't be pleased, but i would enjoy it."
with eve done torturing her via detangling, sienna is free to stand from her place on the floor. she stretches dramatically, her hip popping in a way that should be concerning for a twenty-six year old, but she ignores that and moves to sit on the other end of the couch instead, her back against the arm and her legs crossed in front of her. "you did?" she asks quietly and it isn't so much judgemental as it is curious and surprised. "i always thought it was like... mutual." and she'd never been brave enough to outright ask, seeing as eve had been so skittish about the entire thing. "taking it slow is probably the smartest thing," she agrees with a nod of her head. "but i do have to ask..." her eyebrows knit together just slightly, pausing long enough to try to choose her words carefully. "if you ended it before, why do you think it will be different now?"
as sienna stands, eve tucks her legs under her and pulls a pillow in her lap. she can't help the laugh that follows the sound of bones popping -- they've been working such long shifts since their internship started, and even more so since the promise of restructuring, which more often leads to things popping and cracking every time they stretch. it doesn't surprise her that sienna has questions; they haven't talked much on the details of their budding relationships, or the further details of why things ended between her and eli originally. eve had been purposeful in her vagueness, mostly based in embarrassment -- the only one, aside from eli, who's heard all of the dirty details is her therapist. i always thought it was like... mutual. clearly, eli hasn't said much either. even can appreciate that, nodding as her best friend asks the obvious next question: why do you think it will be different now?
"i'm not proud of how i ended things." a beat passes, the look on her face giving her away. if there's anyone she trusts with this kind of vulnerability, it's sienna. (priya and eli being the other member's of the short list) she blinks a couple of times, mostly to keep any tears from building. taking a deep breath, eve continues. "i was... in a really dark place, towards the end of med school. i ended things abruptly, to put it simply." she settles on, making a face as she wrinkles her nose. she attempts to keep things relatively light; sienna didn't need to spend girl's night with eve crying on her shoulder. "i want it to be different, i'm different -- you know?" silently, eve wishes the pizza man would interrupt, the familiar anxiety settles in her chest. "i love him, and i want to be with him. we still have a lot to figure out, but we're working on it. i don't know how things will work out, but i'm determined to put in the work and do it right."
â  shut up.  â  itâs a quick response, and one that is almost a scheduled phrase when dealing with cyrus. he remained one of the very few that she respected, but could rarely tolerate  â  his ego filled up a room to the point of suffocation if you were in there long enough, but he was talented enough to make up for it  (to a point). seeing him amongst the group that were called into the office wasnât surprising in the least, knowing his hatred for the intern class and lack of interest in having to teach them. however, they differed  â  where zoya believed that sullivan was to blame for all of this and refused to throw blame onto cooper, who had just accepted a job like any one of them wouldâve done; cyrus is the other side of the coin. zoya takes the steps into the elevator first, attempting to gain back her own power and demeanor after the vulnerability that was stripped to itâs core during the lecture that was provided. she knew that sullivanâs words were true, which caused her an inability to fight back, having to sit there like a school-kid getting scorned at by their parent.  â  itâs bullshit. all of it, is bullshit.  â  she mutters as she presses the button, watching the doors close before them.  â  why should i waste my time with other interns when itâs obvious that one is interested in specializing in neuro? itâs redundant when they donât want to learn.  â
eyes roll, hand waving away her comment with clear annoyance. the last thing he wants is to be in this situation; having to deal with coop and sullivan and their bullshit -- it helps once they're on the elevator, feeling as though he doesn't have to hold his tongue. as much, at least. cyrus had a lack of respect when it came to authority, but he'd been at this career long enough to know when to bite his tongue. it didn't happen often; only with someone like the chief, who could send him packing without a second thought. (that has never stopped him mouthing off, though) arms cross as they stand in the elevator, giving zoya an annoyed look. "none of these dipshits would cut it in trauma." he adds with a huff. "doubt any of 'em would last anywhere that's not fuckin' dermatology."

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margotâs hands move with their usual deliberate rhythm as her scalpel slices through tissue easily, but her attention isnât fully on the patient. it lingers on adrienne as she fumbles through her vague recount of the morning, her voice tight and careful. itâs impossible not to notice the stiffness in her shoulders and the faint flush above her mask, the subtle hitch in her breath. margot says nothing through it all, just simply lends the other woman a gentle smile beneath her mask that carries the intention of making adrienne feel seen, special. itâs becoming increasingly more clear that sheâs already eager for margotâs approval â an almost mirror image of hollis before she broke free from her â and she doesnât know it yet, but she is the do-over. sheâs the newest in margotâs collection of eager young women to shape and claim, to bend exactly as she sees fit without fear of rebellion and the complications of an increasingly messy history.
âi try not to pay too much mind to the gossip, but of course itâs hard sometimes,â she murmurs, voice low and soothing as she continues to work. âlisten, adrienne â people are always gonna talk about anything you do. doesnât mean you messed up.â she tilts her head, her gaze soft in a way that she hopes allows adrienne to feel some comfort and the quiet permission to be human. all the while, sheâs trying to anchor her to one truth: margot is a safe place, an approving presence â the one whose judgment matters most. âgreg puts on a good show but weâve all been there, darlinâ. i may be new, but iâm pretty positive if he fired everyone that had a good time within the walls of this hospital, he wouldnât have any staff.â her words are warm and meant to reassure the other woman again, but thereâs a quiet undertone thatâs meant to steer, to make adrienne see that she doesnât have anything to fear here. margot is the one who can keep her safe â and that feeling of safety comes tethered with obligation. âjust gotta be more careful about leaving the evidence lying around, hm?â
the idea of margot knowing all about her sexcapades is a nightmare, on the same level as getting torn to shreds by the chief. yet, her words and tone soothe adrienne, help the tension in her shoulders lighten. doesnât mean you messed up. ade resists the urge to point out details of her underwear in the xray lab, knowing better than to confirm it to more people â like the other staff working in the or with them. regardless, itâs hard not to hang on to the womanâs every word, small smile concealed by her surgical mask.
she listens carefully, nodding slowly as she glances up at margot; her ease, quiet comfort and reassurance pull adrienne out of her potential spiral, remind her that the ordeal is over and done with. âthank you,â she answers simply, taking a deep breath as she does. the chief made a show of it â but didnât fire her. margot has a point; if dr. sullivan fired everyone who had hooked up while at work, they hospital would have no staff. just gotta be more careful about leaving the evidence lying around, hm? the other woman isn't wrong, but actually hearing her say those words creates a pit in ade's stomach. of course she knows the details; though the picture and speculation had made it through plenty of hospital staff group chats -- few had confirmation that it was her. actually hearing the words made her stomach knot. "right..." she shakes her head, silently willing her heart rate to calm down. "i made it out of that meeting alive, but it's hard not to feel like i'm waiting for another shoe to drop." the admission is a bit quieter, talking as she works.
for a split second, taren's totally on board â this class they've been forced into sucks and she fucking hates that any part of her ability to do her job has come into question. but what good would it do to drive away another cardio attending? iyer is long lost to the void thanks to his controlling wife and if they lose this guy, taren's almost more afraid of who would come next. it's not that cooperman's a bad guy â she's just not used to feeling dogged like this, though she knows that's mostly sullivan's fault. still, iyer trusted her even if he knew her methods were unconventional, and he basically let taren do whatever the fuck she wanted. clearly, that isn't going to fly anymore. "he just needs to learn to back off." taren's quick to unzip the pocket of her bag and lo and behold â cigarettes. she's quick to pick two out, handing one over to cyrus and lighting the other until finally, sweet fucking relief. "i mean, this is pure bullshit and i'm not running a fucking daycare service for the residents no matter how much he pushes, but we just like, have to stand our ground. sullivan's not gonna fire all of us." he'd definitely fire her insubordinate ass, but taren keeps that thought to herself.
now that there's more physical space between them and the conference room, he can feel his anger begin to boil -- as if being outside of the hospital means he can let himself react. cooperman, with all his do-gooder bullshit, often leaves cyrus with his jaw clenched and nails digging into his palms; he's gone along with the bullshit classes they have to take, knowing better than to blow up completely and be the first to get fired. "you know he's not gonna back off," cyrus points out with an eyeroll, taking the cigarette without question. "he's not some overeager intern." he adds, taking the lighter from her. shaking his head, he lights the cigarette between his teeth and takes a long drag. the burn in his lungs is a relief, smoke pushing past his lips before he answers her. "you really believe that?" cyrus can't help but ask, having a feeling taren is just spouting bullshit in hopes of making herself feel better. "'cause i'm pretty sure he'd fire us all if he could. clean house and shit." it's a bleak way to look at things, but he knows it's plausible -- a logistical nightmare of hiring new people and a mountain of paperwork, but if he wanted to send a message about restructuring, that would do it.