Name’s Gray

Eating is really hard right now. I can tell that I’m hungry, but every bite feels really difficult. I hate our brain and stomach.

It’s really hard trying to better myself when things and people keep making me want to have a meltdown.

I think I’m going to start learning now to animate this year. Just simple animations for now. It’s silly but I’ve always wanted to do some of those little storytime animations? I think that’s what I’ll work up to. It’ll give me something to focus on aside from our incoming pup <333 I just don’t want to obsess so hard on it that it becomes an anxiety point heh. Another outlet will be good.

I am the He/Him Wife.

I know I’ve said it a lot, but I cannot wait to move. Hit a bit of a boiling over point tonight. Mom in law is just so inconsiderate and annoying. I even tried to plan around her presence this time. Had to hold myself back from snapping. I’m mostly mad for our Fur Babies’ benefit. Don’t want to get too into the details. But yeah. And it doesn’t help that I’m starving because it’s the end of the month and we haven’t got very much food.

I think I miss them sometimes. But then I realize I mostly miss the good parts of the relationships. And crave the chaos the relationships brought on an unhealthy level. It’s a mess I know.