J.B

HELLO?!?!

because if the answer is yes, i’m begging you to tell me everything. i don’t care if it’s a huge story or just a tiny interaction that lasted five minutes. i want all the details.

especially if you’ve met baelor targaryen. is he actually as gentle and patient as he comes across? does he speak softly? does he smile often? what’s he like when he’s relaxed and not surrounded by court politics? I’m just so curious because he’s my s/o🫠

and honestly, tell me about everyone else too. dunk, egg, maekar, valarr literally anyone. what are they like? what surprised you the most? were there little habits or mannerisms that never made it into canon? random conversations? funny moments? things that made you go, “oh, that’s so them.”

i’ve never really told anyone because it sounds kind of ridiculous when you say it out loud, but sometimes i also wonder, “what if i’m a clone?” and then my brain immediately goes, “what if that’s why i can’t shift?” i know it doesn’t make much sense, but i’ve had that thought for so Long and seeing someone else basically say the same thing made me feel weirdly seen.

please tell me someone else has had this thought too.

i genuinely need your help. i’ve been trying to shift for 6 years now and i genuinely tried everything at this point. every guided meditation, every method, every tip people swear by, every piece of advice that’s supposed to be life-changing. i’ve tried all of it. i even tried making my own methods and figuring out what works for me personally.

and nothing.

in those 6 years, i think i’ve only been genuinely close maybe twice. the thing is, whenever i finally get motivated again (which happens once in a blue moon at this point), i’ll reread my scripts, scroll through pinterest for DR aesthetics, watch edits, listen to songs that remind me of my DR, and i get into that mindset like hell yeah i’m ready, I’m so motivated this time i’ll actually do it.

then i lie down and i’m immediately like…

okay, now what? What do I do?!?! because literally nothing works for me.

another problem is focusing. i’m not saying i have ADHD because i’ve never been diagnosed or anything, but i genuinely struggle with concentration so much. and the weirdest part is that it’s always worse when i’m relaxed. when i try to settle down and focus on shifting, my brain either goes completely blank or starts throwing 500 thoughts at me at once. there’s no in-between. it’s either absolutely nothing or everything all at the same time.