Just Peachy

"La distancia no es el problema. El problema somos los humanos, que no sabemos amar sin tocar, sin ver o escuchar. Y el amor se siente con el corazón, no con el cuerpo".

maybe when i say "i want to have pride" i mean. i want to be unashamed. i want the whole structure, stem to stern, to make me unafraid to be what i am. i want it to be an afterthought. i want it to be a-fact-of-life, i want it to be like telling someone my star sign - totally without fear, without compromise, without flinch.

“We’re up all night thinking about what she has that we don’t but instead we should ask ourselves what part of us we never let him see. Because the truth is that we guard ourselves and we hide important pieces of our lives to avoid getting hurt. But really, if we don’t put our whole selves out there, even though it means exposing ourselves to potential pain, we don’t have a right to complain that we failed because technically, we didn’t even truly try. See we do this thing where we hide half of ourselves from the people we care about and then wonder why we’re not enough. But the truth is, maybe the new girl doesn’t push him away when he tries to hold her hand on the train. Maybe when something’s wrong she cries into his chest and tells him about it instead of saying she’s tired and going home. Maybe his phone calls don’t get pushed to voicemail. Maybe he knows why she doesn’t get along with her mother and what she’s insecure about. Maybe sharing all those vulnerabilities made him feel wanted, trusted, needed, and safe. And maybe if we had been open about all these parts of our own lives, we would still have him. But the reason we can’t do this is because maybe we do show all of our cards, and he still leaves. And then we’ll know that everything we have is still not enough. Or what’s even worse, maybe it’s too much. But either way, there’s nothing else to blame it on besides our true selves not being what he wants. And that’s way too hard of a truth to risk having to face. So instead we just hope that the parts of us we want him to see are enough. And when he wants more, like we know he will, rather than opening up, we let him leave.”