in the soft current of water and desire

Most bittersweet news ever bc I cannot imagine what the Palestinian families who’ve already lost loved ones are feeling rn…… i hope the fact that this could’ve been prevented so long ago haunts everyone complicit for the rest of their lives

every time i feel like i haven’t done enough things to be proud of myself during the day there’s the voice of louise glück that emerges softly in my ears and says if you missed a day there’s always the next and if you missed a year it didn’t matter the hills weren’t going anywhere the thyme and rosemary kept coming back.. and i feel like life is beautiful and kind to me again

wanted to die then remembered when ocean vuong wrote ‘the most beautiful part of your body is wherever your mother’s shadow falls’ and now i want to die even more