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half avoidant on my father's side

half anxious on my mother’s side

My nervous system wasn’t built for any of this

when i‘m trying to go to sleep but then i remember and remember and remember and remember

may whatever this year was never find me again

I smell good so you gonna moan a lil when you hug me

i need to be coerced into smth either rlly sweetly or violently right now im not picky

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just because i let you go doesn't mean i wanted to

i like the phrases "it's not for me," "it's not my thing," and "i'm not the target audience" because they're the most concise way to express "this thing that you enjoy has merits but idgaf about it" without being aggressive

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this