Vent Blog

If you know me irl, go away.

I wish i wasn't such a useless freak. I wish I didn't need to rely on someone else to take care of me. I wish I wasn't a moronic child that wasn't supposed to grow up

Don't let anyone convince you to fall in love. It's a stupid distraction from the truth. We all come into this world alone and we leave it alone. People move on. Someone who loves you now will forget your existence in a few years. Dust to dust.

How much more can life take before I give into it. I feel too drained. I don't want to fight anymore. I can't do this much longer

Crying from watching a scene. An actual scene. Not just laying there and being dumped until ordered to give a bj. An actual scene where the sub is being hurt in the best way because she isn't fragile. She can take it. I'm too fragile. That has to be the reason I don't get that treatment. I'm a bad fragile sub who doesn't deserve pain

Oh yeah being completely useless is something I love doing. Honestly nothing better than feeling like a useless piece of shit

He'll eventually leave me for a woman. He'll eventually leave me for a woman. He'll eventually leave me for a woman.

If i was meant to live this long it wouldn't hurt like this

Wow a girl is more important than me yet again? I should hide the shock on my face

Oh so I am annoying? Awesome thanks for confirming that

Not only would killing myself be fun but it would also benefit society!!!!! No more stupid entitled bitch!!!!!

Yeah I wouldn't wanna have sex with me either

Doesn't fucking matter what I need. I always have to bend over backwards for others. Need to lose sleep so you can gain it but don't worry. I'll keep my smile since you can't stand any negative emotion toward you yet you don't give a single shit how I actually feel

I'll never get the dynamic i want. I have to come to terms with that (:

Can't I just have one fucking day? Oh wait. I can't cause i'm an adult and if I wanted to still be a kid I should've offed myself when I had the chance

I'm so happy for people who get their dream 24/7 dynamic and get to live wonderful fantasy lives. A bad person like me doesn't deserve pure romance or fantasy.i don't deserve anything good :)

Back to the back burner where I belong