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I will never be good and that's not bad

There's no one I'd rather be than me."

[...] you know what the top regret of dying people was?

That they didn't have the courage to be themselves."

Sadness is just, you know, from happenstance; whatever happened or didn't happen for you or, you know, grief or whatever it is.

And depression is your body saying »Fuck you, I don't want to be this character anymore! I don't want to hold up this avatar that you've created. In the world it's too much for me.«, you know?

And so a friend of mine who's a spiritual teacher has a really good take. His name is Jeff Foster and his take is that [...] you should think of the word »depressed« as »deep-rest«.

Your body needs to be depressed. It needs deep rest from the character that you've been trying to play."

Ich steh morgens auf, geh einkaufen, nach Hause, das war's dann auch schon wieder.

Den Großteil vom Tag zock ich einfach so, dann ist auch schon abends.

Das passt schon.

[...]

Kein Plan, ich mach einfach alles in meiner eigenen Geschwindigkeit.

Digga, die ganze Zeit nach links und nach rechts schauen, da wirst du doch bescheuert.

Ey, es gibt Tage da komm ich auch echt schon voll gut durch den Tag so, also...

Ja, »gut« ist aber halt auch einfach relativ, so von daher was sagt das schon?"