Sick & Kinky

I'm pro para and RQ, and im into a million and one things, which i all store on this one blog. English is not my first language. I'm an adult for a while now, my chrono age is not important. You can use any pronouns for me, my agab also does not matter.

I'm very autistic and also physically and mentally ill. I'm sick and disabled. There is no cure. I will get sicker and more disabled. I use a wheelchair since 2024, but I'm mostly bedbound. Sometimes I have moments where my health stabilizes, it becomes more predictable.

Most other times I have moments where my health destabilizes and I become bedbound, paralyzed, incontinent, and mute. My body lays still as my mind brings the most violent gore scenario's to my attention. I can't stop it or escape it. I feel small and vulnerable in those moments. Somehow my mind sexualized my illnesses and here we are.

I truly understand this blog is not for everyone. It might confront you with your own mortality and vulnerabilities, as well as internalized ableism concepts, self destruction ideas, and the romanticization of my own illnesses - that I cannot stop from progressing, as my health continues to decline, and i become more and more dependent for the most basic things.

I think an enabler, feeder, devotee, or some off brand sadist might enjoy my content though. Or maybe people with a misokink, medkink or who are into dark medical play. Or maybe people who have Factitious Disorder Imposed on Another or Munchausen by Proxy or those who are into Stockholm Syndrome might get a kick out of enabling me...