Lost and still wandering...

maybe life is all about waking up every day and trying to learn how to appreciate the beauty of the world without allowing the ugliness of everything that has happened to me in the past to interfere with it

you need to be earnest. you need to tell people that you love them. you need to speak on how you’re feeling honestly. you need to be sentimental. you need to stop letting the fear of other people laughing at you have so much control over how you express yourself. you need to get over yourself. you need to be embarrassing but true.

“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”

Even if you admit that you're lonely, people always find ways to blame you for it. They never want to be the reason or the solution to your loneliness. They simply offer empty words of advise and comfort. Then, you're back again to hugging yourself for feeling bad that you made them feel bad, and turning the situation awkward. It's a cycle.

#Perspective #Progress

One simple positivity to try.

Reminder to self: Stop frequently blaming and putting myself down. *sigh*