If Utena Tenjou ate a lithium-ion battery, she would turn into an electric car, not an airplane.

The phrase “Here comes the airplane” is spoken by parents while feeding their babies batteries, so that their babies can become airplanes. Becoming an airplane is considered good because it is a high-paying job. Money can be exchanged for goods and services.

but also this moment is genuinely so weird to me and it stands out every single time I relisten to aurons audios, and it's when auron is going through all the random examples to express that the legal department isnt exactly doing well atm and rook stops the conversation to prod on... his opinion about drug use?

Like the only reason I remember auron's comment about someone [mark] doing coke in the bathroom is because rook for some reason feels the need to question it which I dont know it just feels weird that out of everything that is the thing that catches Rook's attention and it's also very specifically them asking his personal opinions about drug use

It has just been a reminder that the medical system would rather I die, then to try to get me treatment. It is a reminder that they have given up & do not want me to live.

It has been seeing white disabled people get all the treatment & resources while black and brown disabled people are left behind.

It's been eugenics and the threat of losing ADA & bringing back institutions.

People would rather pretend life with several diseases, parasites, viral infections, unclean air that we can't breathe is normal rather than wear a mask and do something about it. Every abled person is letting us all die and watching, just like the beginning of Covid too.

I have not felt any pride or joy. I have not felt accepted in a community, i don't have community care or access to the resources other disabled people do.

I have felt shame, anger, frustration, jealous, depressed and other negative emotions. I feel hopeless.

People follow me for my art, but would you care about my art if I become so disabled I no longer can make it? If I waste away in bed because I can't get up and have no caregiver, or resources?

I am just another faceless nobody. A disabled person slipping through the cracks of the system that will never be here for me.

People tell me to stay strong but have no idea how hard it is to live for a day in my body

I am tired.

I have only 18$ in my bank account because of some mental health struggles of my partner (going in & out of residential and hospital treatment).

Commissioned from the one, the only

drumroll please

@strawbeetlez !!!

Maybe Tana lost someone to drug use. They put everything into being compassionate and available for them, but that wasn't enough to save them. Love alone can only do so much. Not just because of the sickness at the heart of addiction, but because there were equal parts cruel people who sought to profit off their person's pain and a cold indifferent world that allowed them to do so. I think they disappeared and Tana looked for them, and I think Tana was the one who found them after they OD'd. They're already set with a backstory as a nursing school dropout, maybe this was the catalyst for realizing that their version of wanting to save the world wasn't through that particular path. So they used the rest of their college fund to buy an underpriced house in a blink-and-miss-it town across the country and ran off to lick their wounds. I also HC that in the post-narrative future they will find a calling in local politics, and could see them choosing that scale for their love to help the world.

A big archetype I'm aiming for with Tana is a cheerful character whose optimism is mistaken for naivety, when in fact they are making the active choice to find the best in people because of what they've lived through. AND maybe they have a touch of my own "can't tell when people are insulting me" autism too, but even with that comes the moments where Tana chooses to give second chances and opportunities to learn people's best sides, and their efforts earn them the affection of Willowbrook.