"i know it's bad, but i can't be alone right now. i can't. i'd lose my mind." ( @televeyesing from the evil dead prompts !! i saw this on your wishlist & got excited )
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β β β βAre you that fucking desperate?β he asks snidely, cloaked under a veil so thin as to be made of thin plastic; thereβs no hiding the wavering quality of his voice, or the widening of his eyes and wilding of his slanted smile, capturing a mirror image that makes him sick to his core to see βwho is this? Is that me?
β β β And he is opening his arms to embrace him knowing now, more than ever, that no one else will.
β β β His hands roam, open-palmed, the planes of his mirrorβs back, to make sense of it from his own point of view. Warm, not-quite-human skin, and that monstrous spine. Pulling him surely from the mirror and into his self, and hoping it wonβt make either of them more or less disgusting than they already are. They slide together like two mismatched puzzle pieces, so clearly from an unkempt board and unable to link together, and yet they do.
β β β This is Hell, Vox thinks, tears pricking at the corner of his digital eyes.
β β β βYouβre not alone,β he whispers, hoarse and high-strung, thinking thatβs a cruel relief to find companionship in a single person and have them be yourself.
β β β Heβs always been the other βdinners with forks and knives, and heβd first held them in the wrong, opposite hands after his mother had never bothered to teach him, and though heβd corrected after the first time, the thought lingered like marks on his palms each time he went to dinner next.
β β β His room is quiet and lorn, but he isnβt an other here, and he pulls his second self back until theyβre both of the bed and he can lock his legs around the back of him to keep him trapped. He suspects he wouldnβt leave anyways; what a first time for that thought.
β β β When his internal trembling stops and his vision pulls back into a stark focus, he adds, bolstered by a husky laugh, βBut I think youβve already lost your mind.β