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so.. this is my first time posting anything on tumblr and probably no one will see since i don’t know how to use this app properly but it doesn’t hurt to try. mdni.

cw: mean jinx, manipulation, degradation, arcane universe, boss jinx and reader employee toxic dynamic, insecure reader (and jinx eat that up), mentions of shimmer - part 1

wc: 1,2k

you fucked up. and jinx doesn’t tolerate that well

the light in the hideout is dim, neon ones that sometimes blink faintly throughout the gigantic extractor fan. after your pupils adjust to it, you can see a silhouette sitting in front of you on a makeshift throne like chair, you’re not able to see her face yet but you know her entire attention is on you.

spread legs, skinny waist, lean arms resting on the chair, two long braids surrounding her body. and when she tilted her head down just a bit… looking at you with her upward gaze you could see it, glowing pink amongst the dark.

shimmer.

“j-jinx… sevika said you would be up here.” you hated how pathetic your voice sounded, but being alone anywhere with her was a challenge, specially on her personal chamber.

silence. a dry swallow caught in your throat, but you continued.

“the… enforcers were already there, observing us from afar and the plan couldn’t be completed—but we are doing everything we can to fix it! a-and i’m here so we can discuss a new plan and-“

a gush of wind combined with the rapid sound of movement and then… nothing. you blinked twice while looking to the chair. she wasn’t there anymore.

your body instinctively took two steps behind, heart racing at the thought that you were walking blindly and backwards on a literal massive fan blade but just before your brain could process what was happening, your eyes opened wide, your mouth following shortly. jinx. her cold figure felt like a wall behind you, contradictorily instantly heating you up. would that be shame? no, it seemed more… warm.

you swore you could feel her smile against your ear, her hand swiftly going to your chin and tilting your head upwards, exposing your neck. you didn’t have the strength on you to fight it, always giving in the second she lays her hands on you. she loved that.

“can’t have none of that now, can we, baby?“ she huffed and your entire body shivered. the grip on your chin became tighter and tighter, to a point where you knew her nails would leave a mark and your jaw felt like exploding, a small whimper left your lips, and just when you were about to complain she was gone again.

your breath was completely ragged, your throat finally swallowed dry and you felt the kind of anxiety you only did when you entered jinx’s den. you hear a loud sound from your left side, where jinx workbench and all her new projects were. sounds of things breaking, metal clashing on metal and a deep growl coming from her fill up your ears, making you feel even more startled.

“fucking useless, should’ve done it myself. knew you weren’t good enough.”

that’s it. that was all it took to have you in full pleasing mode. before you could stop yourself, you’re clumsy walking in her direction, your feet getting in the way of each other, your hands desperately gesturing as you talk.

“no! no, jinx i promise it isn’t like that. we did everything you said, it-they were already there with the grey and there was no way of knowing… the gas got in our way…” you could feel the tears forming already, no matter how hard every part of you fought not to cry in front of her.

she walked closer to you, her figure seemingly so intimidating all of the sudden. you didn’t knew exactly if it was her confidence, how deliberate each step looked or her unforgiving gaze. you really were just a prey to her eyes.

sharp and stingy. her hand slamming down on your face was nothing new but it got to you every time. you let out a pathetic sound, gasping and panting, thinking that maybe the slap felt so much harder this time because jinx seemed high on shimmer.

uneven breathing while she’s watching, tears desperately wanting to drop from your eyes… shit, this doesn’t look good. whatever you do, don’t beg. don’t give her what she wants, and specially don’t apologize. she wasn’t there, if she thinks she could‘ve done a better job…

she… probably could.

“i’m sorry… you’re right, I should've paid more attention… please, jinx. i’m sorry”

her eyebrow lifted at the same time a big smile lazily formed on her thin lips, that combined with her fixed gaze made her seem utterly insane. maybe apologizing wasn’t the right call? was it truly better to make her happy crazy over angry crazy? both seemed equally bad right now.

“kneel.”

once more, your eyes widened. jinx somehow always found new ways to keep humiliating you… even when you do exactly as you’re told and everything goes well her praise sounds condescending at best. but this was something different. slapping was the lowest she ever went to.

you made the mistake to stare at her gaze once more. it was like staring at a wolf's eyes while begging for mercy, just wouldn’t work. you were hers to play with from the moment you walked in her lair.

her hands stayed at her hips, not budging on that idea but your body just couldn’t move, you were paralyzed by the thought of actually going through that much humiliation. suddenly, a high pitched laugh exploded from her mouth, once again, her eyes never squinted from that type of laugh. she was still locked on you.

“fine then, wow. suit yourself, gonna find someone better for the job since you’re so unwilling to show commitment, probably never met someone as lazy as yourself.” she turned on her back and started walking back to her work bench, but you felt something breaking inside of you from her words. you weren’t lazy, you weren’t… you lost count of how many nights you lost perfecting her plans, making them bulletproof, training her squad and coordinating the operations. why couldn’t she see that? why was she so fucking mean?

tears fell down your face so easily you don’t remember when you started crying. you were cracking, it was hard to feel like your mind was your own anymore.

your knees hit the ground with a loud noise, sobbing noises started coming out of your mouth, it felt like there was so much pressure on your chest that you couldn’t even breathe properly, panting like a dog amidst all the tears.

she was able to split you apart with just her words.

“no. i’m so fucking-sorry. jinx, please” every word felt like a struggle, muttered between desperate breaths and pathetics sobs. you observed jinx lazily putting her arms up and stretching her arms high in the air, she still wasn’t facing you but you swear you heard a satisfied moan.

she finally turned to face you. looked mesmerized, smiling ear to ear. stopped only when she was inches away from your face, her hands cupping your cheeks. that seemed to help a little, you were still sobbing but could breathe more normally now you had her approval.

“shh, it’s okay…” she said, thumb up and down your face, spreading your tears at the same time she calmed you down.

“please. i’ll do better next time, i’ll do so much better. i promise i’m not lazy or anything, i.. i-just-i…”

shit. jinx looked so happy it almost seemed like she was staring at a new piece of hextech gadget.

“sheesh.. you’re so utterly pathetic…” her words sounded muffled by her own laugh. “gonna teach you exactly how to act, okay? you better listen.”

it was going to be a long night.