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so it finally happened. im finally through with desmond. that man was emotionally abusive yall... tbh i cant even lie before i met him i wasn’t even sure how that could be real which is funny cos ive literally been a victim to like almost every kind of abuse a person might go through. but yeah a few days ago he tried to basically demote me down to friends with benefits. because allegedly he wanted to “text other girls without feeling guilty”. im not dumb lmao he lost his virginity & now he thinks he’s the man & he’s a playa & all that but i literally fucking made him. first night i met him he was a fucking cornball. he reminded me of the lightskined homeboy of dwayne from a different world. nervous, corny & a little clueless. i literally taught this men how to pick up girls the first night i met him, and why would i do that with a guy that would be my future man?? BECAUSE INITIALLY I SAW HIM AS A FRIEND?? im not gonna lie the first time i saw him i immediately categorized him as a dub. i wanted to chill with him cos he bought a preroll & made me laugh. that night i went from seeing him as a potential friend, to seeing him as a potential fling, to deciding i will never see him again. but of course i felt bad for using him for weed and strorming off in a hormonal moodswing caused by a well intended but miscommunicated comment. so i gave him another chance and u know what!! we had fun, we flirted a bit & we decided to get to know eachother. but i hadnt told him tea yet so i kept him at arms length because i wasnt sure i could stay & i didnt want to start anything serious. long story short i ended up telling him, we did long distance, met up again in september, i stay at his fucking parents house with him for a little over a week & i was around primarily his sheltered, toxic masculinity head ass. soon as i left his dad told him he “found” my pill bottle “on the floor” and knew my legal name & basically clocked tea. so i talked to him and he told me he loved me & he didnt care what his dad said he wouldnt know what to do without me. then the next morning i woke up to a “we need to talk” and a break up over facetime. we then began a its complicated situationship that was detrimental to my mental health as i was also unbeknownst to me going through expedited remasculization (basically turning into a chick with a VERY serious hormonal imbalance. yall i looked like the hormone monster from big mouth & he never let me forget it. yall that man tore me down emotionally & played so many games with my head. he literally destroyed my self esteem & made me feel worthless. and you know what?!? maybe he was ABSOLUTELY WRONG. I MAY BE IN SHAMBLES?!? I MAY BE DISAPPOINTED!!!

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