My Mind Is A Mess

i’m a sad nugget cause i miss my dad

lost at the ocean waves trying to fix a broken heart.

yeah i still wish you were here with me,

i know this is not how it was supposed to be

where are you now are you feeling happy?

are you with another one that reminds you of me?

are you loved? are you save? i miss you more that i could say.

am i who you wanted me to be? i feel like i only disappoint but in this weird thing we call life i can’t seem to find a point.

i’m sorry i’m not pretty, i’m sorry i’m not smart, i’m sorry i didn’t say i love you when i had the chance. now that you’re gone i realize we take for granted everything special that we have.

that’s why i try to see everyone and everything around. the smallest fly the ocean and the sky.

Yes the sky, the last thing that makes me feel connected to you. i want to think that you still watch above me, that you’re still there looking over me,are you proud of who i grew to be?

oh shit is 3am but i’m not even tired, i like how the night is always so quiet.

peace is everything that i desire.

you don’t like that about me? sorry that’s how my brain is wired.

sometimes i feel lonely even when i’m not alone.i guess i’m still waiting for your call even though i know that you’re gone.

damn i guess i feel a lot. it was to much pain for an eleven year old.

they said pain makes you stronger but what they don’t know is how many sleepless nights i cried on my own.