Sci-Fi Fangirl Blues

imagine waiting for the next book excited for see ur fav couple but then u read it and everyone has been given a lobotomy so the assaulter from book 1 can get the girl he assaulted and the same girl has gone from cool to being brainwashed and become a dumbass

im not joking btw, rhysand feeds feyre this idea that she’s tamlin pet and he wants to hide her away -when everything on page said says otherwise- and feyre believes it instantly, girl🧍‍♂️

most of feyre’s version of tamlin in her head is not by her own experience with him but what rhysand told her

bc if this happened to me i’d be on the news

the fact that this acotar twist of main couple didn’t become a trend in books only tells me everyone else could see how stupid it was

To say music is your life is an understatement. Music is what makes you wake up each day—albeit always in darkness. It’s the living substitute for the family and friendships your face, a damning accident of birth, has denied you.

Then one day you hear her voice from your desolate hiding place. You discover music personified in the form of a grieving girl just as lonely as you are. You can't explain why you took the risk of revealing yourself to her; you only know that there’s no meaning in music anymore without that seraphic voice in your possession. Molding it, controlling it, is your closest approximation to happiness.

It doesn’t end well. Your desire turns to a murderous obsession that nearly wrecks her. You forget that that messiness of the human heart is only partly transposed in the sheet music of an opera. She isn't music personified; she’s just a woman who belongs to the living world from which you're exiled. 

Still, she shows you compassion. For a moment she sees you. In that fleeting fraction of time, she understands you better than you've bothered to understand her in your relentless quest to own her. And so you release her. With one last goodbye, she returns the ring you gave her and your eyes follow her long after her form disappears from view.

You’ve accepted it. You nod your head in resignation and kiss the ring that once touched her fingers. You'll be brave! You’ll think of her fondly and savor the fragments of her that live in your mind's eye.

Then you hear her voice again: that call that first summoned you from the darkness; the instrument that shaped you as much as it was shaped by you; the melody on which you'd set all your wretched hopes. It possesses your body as usual. As it radiates down your spine, you react like a cobra to a charmer's flute. The angelic sound seems to await your response.

But your face crumbles when her rescuer sings back. In the notes of their duet you hear all the things you can't give her, all the grief you've caused, and the sure certainty that you've lost her forever. You hang your head and realize that you're not brave; you're sorry. So very, very sorry, and...

Feyre somewhere in her sixth mansion in Velaris:

It still annoyed me that Feyre insists Kallias should crown Vivienne as a High Lady. It feels insulting to Vivienne’s worth as a Lady. Vivienne proved her ability and worth before she married Kallias and earned that title of Lady of Winter. Just because Feyre looks down on the title Lady, doesn’t mean it’s not highly respected.

Feyre thinks her fake title is so amazing and that other wives should strive for the same, as if it’s an accomplishment. Vivienne is more Kallias’s equal than Feyre will ever be to Rhysand.

Ugh! It feels so condescending when she looks down on the Lady of the Courts’ titles just because they’re not perfect mirrors to their husbands on paper.

“i’m the high lady of night court”

notice how he often brings up him being a bastard and “someone like him” whenever nesta makes her boundaries and keeps him away

he also slaughtered an entire village in revenge for his mother and never was held accountable bc of the privilege he had - keep in mind, he’s been best friends with the heir and now high court since he was a child, lived with the lady of night court

this fuckass guy finds out little nesta used to dance with older men and instead of realising how fucked up it was, his first thought was “a prince” bc that’s all he focused on listening to that story😐

nesta gets sa by kelpie and knowing that he still sleeps with her right after bc she asked, if he cared about her he wouldn’t have and instead been there for her