Sheyma

“May Allah have mercy on her”

A phrase whose weight tears my soul in two, as if announcing that I have lost a part of me forever.. I still cannot bring myself to say it with the intention of the du’a, and yet mercy is what I ask for you, for you were the mercy of my days and my peace..

What grieves me most is not her silence in absence, but that day when we are all gathered together, face after face, one after another, waiting for her among us… and she does not come. That is when I feel her loss renewed, and that every meeting is incomplete without her.

Ya Allah, make my mother among those called by name on the Day of Resurrection: “Where is so-and-so? She has indeed achieved a great victory.”