A writer.

‎~AVOCADOES~

‎Accepting your current situation can occasionally feel like eating a handful of drugs that appear to be the answer to your death.Certain realities might be quite challenging to accept."Have faith," most people would say, but they have no idea how you really feel because that circumstance has mocked you so much that it has overshadowed all of your hopes and faith.infringed on your sophisticated determination to persevere.Some individuals encourage you to call on your ancestors, to beckon your creator, to come to your rescue, but they are unaware of the depth of your growing hopelessness toward them, as calling on your ancestors seems like a lost route and a no-no option. Because to you, they were wild awake when life decided to go south on you, and they watched while life became razz. There are some situations that will be so hard for you to accept that they can even make you into someone you've vowed not to be, but somehow, you've decided to find solace in that situation and rent an apartment. However, if you settle for fighting everything and not accepting, it will only hurt you more. It will hurt you even more if you choose to spend more time wondering, "Why will life choose to happen to you despite your unwavering faith?"To be honest, some life events can be upsetting, like a blow to the face, but if you continue down that path, you will only cause more trouble in your soul.Just accept, and you'll find serenity.You will enjoy a more abundant and fulfilling existence.Acceptance brings grace and the possibility of transformation.Acceptance allows you to find comfort in your misery and pain.In acceptance, you will set a date for when your due season will arrive, and you will no longer have to carry that burden. When you accept that circumstance, you let your ancestors take over, and you will see them remove the obstacle you have been fighting to overcome. When you accept things as they are, recovery and miracles happen, and you get your life back.

‎~AvocaDoes~

Its going to be a September with glitters.

~AvocaDoes~

‎ A kind that is sincere and pure, in which two individuals go beyond mere physical attraction and make an effort to intentionally put themselves in each other's shoes in order to understand their joys and suffering.

‎ May you discover the kind of love that is determined to uncover your parts, simply to discover the small parts of you that aren't visible to the public because they will be ridiculed, that are gentle despite any flaws, that are vulnerable and fearful, and that occasionally require a rescuer.

‎ May you discover a kind of love that is more akin to a soft salve that caresses, calms, and restores; something that transcends beyond physical contact and that we can call home due to its security, comfort, and acceptance; that would not condemn or attempt to mould us into someone we aren't; instead, it will bring out the beauty within us that is either bruised or broken, cold, or unloved and has opted to be curled up in a case that is shielded by its sleeves.

‎ I hope you discover a sort of love that is sent from heaven and is your match, that finds you instead of you pleading for it to come, and that always wants to hold you more tightly than anybody else.

‎ May you find someone who is compassionate and understanding and that sees past your physical appearance and recognizes the light within your soul, regardless of how dark it has become, and strives to improve it.

‎ ~AvocaDoes~

‎You only evaluate things you haven't experienced or gone through yourself. I would argue without reservation that we encounter all aspects of life, both positive and negative. Additionally, there are instances when you are in a difficult circumstance and your discernment will fail because you are desperate to get out of it. Life will always put you in situations that you have always reprimanded, so never say never.

~Avocadoes~

‎Some of us may attest that we haven't come across any luck or fortunate breaks since the beginning of the year that will keep us in awe.We've simply just been living, trying to get through each day without knowing what it contains, watching the sun rise and set, with no new pattern, despite our plans to learn new things.

‎Some of us have already fantasized about reaching six figures this year, but we are still locked in our old jobs, despite our dissatisfaction with them. Some will later think, "At least it's paying the bills."

‎Many of us have already prepared for the year's amazing and joyous consequences, but nothing seems to be going their way; everything feels at a standstill.However, the contrary is still true. It seems like you keep getting caught in loopholes rather than wandering through rooms full of lovely lilies, which isn't what you've always hoped for when you were praying for a new year.

‎ Others could ask, "What's the point of expressing gratitude when everything remained the same, nothing really changed, and we are already in the eighth month proceeding to the ninth?"In four months until the year ends, what change can we possibly make?

‎In actuality, though, there are many reasons to be thankful.Be thankful for the plans that didn't go as planned since there would have been a lot of regrets and tears underneath.

‎Thank goodness you didn't get to do the things you've always wanted to do; you never know where you could be now.

‎ Be thankful for the challenging times you had throughout the year because they helped you grow, become more resilient, gain new perspectives on life, and enhance your self-development all of which you will need for the next phase of your life.

‎Be thankful for your little victories, for being alive, for not being in jail or the hospital, for not getting everything you wanted this year, for what you will be looking forward to next year, and for the obstacles and setbacks you faced, because without you realizing it, they laid the groundwork for progress and the determination to keep trying in a different way.

‎ Be thankful for nothing, because it will lead to something.

‎Be thankful for that flower, because there will soon be a garden.

Just how long do you intend carrying this weight?

I know you've got gumption that you gonna be okay

But are you really sure.

Shoving down pain and hurt down your throat even when they wanna come out.

How long do you intend controlling your eyelid so they don't gush out the

Tears you've being withholding for years;

How long?

How long do you intend acting strong

When you're so weak, and slowing draining in the tempest that isn't your making.

How long do you intend covering your wounded soul with your duvet so those

That have made you there human guardian angel wouldn't see it?

How long?.

You're everyone's favourite person

And sofa of solace.

Your lips speak out the most comforting and substantial words

But who speaks to you?

You're scared they would laugh

Or wouldn't grasp, but have you tried?

You're practically the ark that saves everyone from drowning but who saves you? You bring out those beautiful coloured smiles in the faces of people but your colour is black of gloom.

You're like a saviour, you refrain people from moving off track into the path that's gonna ruin them, but how come you never refrained yourself? Where you that helpless and ignorant?

What really happened?

You're a cheerleader, and makes everyone appreciate there existence

And bring out the best in people

But who cheer you? Do anyone bother about your dreams and aspirations, you strive to put smiles on people's faces even at the detriment of yours

But no one shows up to you at 2am when you cry and even try to take your life due to depression, bless the universe for their retraction.

You're divine and peace but you bring some much agony and conflict for yourself.

You help mend those that are shattered whence you're broken.

Lot's of people in the room yet no one can comprehend your countenance when your mouth can utter a word.

Are you just someone that makes everyone feel whole and at home whence your still in search of where to stay.

You've got lots of people but no one truly know you, neither can they tell what your capable of.

No one is always there to comfort you during your days of earthquake and unwanted erosion.

All my life I fear thee

For you come like a rushing wind, even when one doesn't seek thee.

You're permanent indeed.

Change change

I fear thee. And with you;

I fear love, for someday it's gonna suck and I will wail.

Including the lies told, and the truth being kept against my reach.

I fear hate, cause I love acceptance and to be loved.

I fear change, cause am more of a static being.

I love things to be just the way they were from creation, from the very beginning, from the point where I bumped into you and love struck, and talking stage got enacted, the midnight calls, where I don't get tired of talking and get sad if it's about time to go to bed.

The morning text and frequent delivery of rose flowers.

I fear change, for I fight to hold still and never to let go.

I crave for rhythms that stays same and never changes.

I just want to keep sitting down during the full moon and watching the beautiful blue stars sparkle and making wishes with just one person.

Kisses on new year's Eve,

And vacation to places on our bucket list.

Help in fulfilling each others dreams and aspirations.

I fear change for I want the energy from the very beginning to still have it's same posture in days trials and arguments. Days of confusion and less affections.

But just as I can't fathom on how I suddenly developed breast and felt that am becoming a woman; I presume that's how I can't tell how change came about, how the energy I saw from the beginning suddenly got cracked and faded and am no longer the apple of your eyes, and the one that makes you smile and brings you joy nor happiness.

That's how I can't tell how the promises being made from the onset got tampered with; perhaps my face got changed and am no longer the person you made those promises to. I detest you.

Everything change so I was told and so I have seen.

Nothing ever stays same.

Even the people we said are gonna be by our side as friends take another step and go away, everyone upgrade at different points of their lives.

Love equally never stays same it changes, but we only pray to meet the right people, that even when this Change come seeking they wouldn't change to the point that it's gonna hurt or never recall on how we first started, the bliss and all.

And those who wouldn't just pick up their luggage when it becomes fierce and say they wanna go, blaming it on change.

But am assuming that's the reason you couldn't stay cause I haven't fully learnt on how to save things so they can last longer.

You can't keep appearing haggard looking like a sad sack. You can't keep being oblivious of the fact that life happen, and nature has to take it's course.

You can't keep allowing yourself to wallow in self pity and letting people's words churn into you and turn you to negativity.

You can't keep holding on to your losses else you hidge your gains from coming.

At some point in our lives we ought to accept with our full chest that something or someone is gone, and that we can do absolutely nothing about it rather forget it's history.

It's no bad thing to grieve or mourn what was so dear to us , but we can't hold on to the hollow and pains it brings to us forever.

We have to let them go, burn there clothes and allow the waters eat there ashes.

And appreciate what's left behind and look out for the future in front and the what life holds.

Remember that there's a silver lining after a dark cloud , that there's a rainbow with beautiful coated colours after a downpour.

The choices you made today can be your blessing or regrets of your tomorrow.

No matter how you try not bring the past to the future it will still creep in, in form of beetles and turn to hydes that wouldn't stop tormenting you.

They said do unto others just same way you would want them to do unto you.

The universe records

The day of Reckoning for your deeds might come like a disaster but you would know it's the one. So treat everyone well to avoid scandals.

There are some mistakes that you would make that you can't alight from; it moves with you like your own shadow.

Remember to always make the right choices no matter the feast you see on the wrong one.

For a better tomorrow do today right.

I eventually found myself around the world, and what truly I ought to do and obviously whom I am.

I got it all wrong all these years searching for my essence in the realms of people.

My crust felt like petite things, but they bring contorted smiles to my face, relief and absolute peace of mind and yeah that's the spot of my relevance and tool for my recognition.

This is me am not gonna keep imitating when am worth being imitated, a genius hiding underneath ifs and buts.

But right about now I would chase the dream and make it a reality cause am ready to make it a goal that already got steps to be actualised, not shaky but strong In focus.

And the world soon gonna know me cause I do know me now.

These should be the exact words of legends

If your searching for you, keep doing that in your slow motion but with sensitivity, cause the greater you is still in you.

Perhaps it might appear small, but it's there.

Dance in the rain with your rags.

Birth yourself with your own oil

And appreciate others with the oil they got

Strive to make you better

Be jolly with your own coat

And find means of making yourself a suit.

Everyone got there own specialty

The world will be like a settlement filled with weird and bizzare people if we all got same gifts and what produce multiple blends of harmony.

We can't blossom Doing same thing.

Else there would be less entertaining things to watch and get thrilled about and less things that makes goosebumps pop out from that body without the effect of cold and also make the eyes drip water without the effort of downcast.

Make your own decisions

And don't let others suggest randomly for you else you end up taking home just a token for coming cause you wanna be like somebody .

You got your own sword hold it still and fight your way to the top

And you equally got the wings to flap and move yourself to a greater height don't rest it all on nagging and whining

Cause if you watch shows and conferences you see all great men and women of importance shake and hug each appreciating each other for the amazing piece they gave to the world and how indelible they are considering their efforts and development, but do you know the heart warming thing? Is that they all ain't in same field, but are nobles and great people of value and sauce.

So build you, the world is waiting for your own touch.

Living with self-guilt and letting our inner critic to joke with our emotions.

Placing unrealistically high standards of how you would have taken the other route you ignored then everything would have been well.

It's always oh this and oh that.

If only I was here on time my mom wouldn't have died.

If only I brought the money for the surgery on time my dad would have still be here with me.

Without having a clear view that nature still exist, nature and other life occurrences are there and are bound to happen, and no Matter how much of a craft man you are with genuis ideas you still can't save the day. Nobody tells death the day to come, or even sickness and other life occurrences.

So settling in self-guilt over everything ill that happens in your life wouldn't change anything.

You can decide to settle with being the culprit and suffer from different disorders but it wouldn't change what has already taken place.

So you can choose to blame yourself for every devastating and traumatic incident that happens to you or you can decide to conquer your fears face them till you become oblivious of it.

You ain't made of gloom, everyone is expected to be happy in as much as happiness and sadness equate each other like day and night.

And just because that person left you doesn't mean your a bad person which somebody can't afford to be with, don't let your inner critic tell you how to feel;

Or query you for what you didn't do right, oh if you've done this or done that he/she would have stayed, don't let that happen, have you thought about this what if I did all was expected wouldn't they have left still?.

Accept everything as it comes and don't let anything hold you captive for the rest of your life.

Ask yourself if I had done this thing my heart is making me blame myself that I didn't do would it still keep them?

If I had brought the money for the surgery on time would my mom still be alive?

Don't be bitter, talk bitter or act bitter cause you can't help but blame yourself for something you feel is your fault.

And that she doesn't necessarily need to feel that she's in competition with anyone to feel good in her own skin, and to also proof to everyone that she's worthy and enough.

What if she knows that she don't always have to view worst of herself before she glance at herself in the mirror every morning before stepping out to face the world, cause she's seeing blight and exaggerating that she is unappealing, less captivating and can't be a center of attraction cause she's so dark!!!

What if a dark girl knows that her body is a miracle, and her skin glows just like ivory palaces, and that she smells more of myrrh and aloes with a touch of cassia.

What if a dark girl knows that her hair is dark, bold,silky and stunning, and makes her to be able to fully embrace the mother nature in her, and she doesn't necessarily need products that would transform it to another color to be able to accept it with her full chest.

What if a dark girl knows that everything about her creation have a reflection with how we were made, with God specifically putting his finger into the profundity of the din land just to specially mold her to the sculpture he wants with a touch of afro_asiatic gold.

What if a dark girl knows that the common people with low perspective has not been able to embrace whom they are in the skin they found themselves and they are busy struggling to get lighter cause it's a trend, without knowing that their dark skin is heavenly refined and doesn't need much struggle to make it glow and sparkle in the eyes of the beholder, and that their melanin makes them strong and helps them against sunburn. Doxy your dark nature is unique and worth being proud of.

What if a dark girl knows that her thighs are like slick sweet, and those her unappealing cheek bones are brushed with bronze and that when it's been slouch in front of the sun that the color transforms to the midnight welkin . And that's really a sight to behold.

What if a dark girl knows that her dark nature gives humanity a recount of everything elegant that this fabulous mother_earth would ever know. And that everything about her can be related with the loamy soil that our dear farmers feed us the world with.

Dear dark girl have it in mind that your dark skin and everything about your existence make humanity a possibility.