SharraLover

I wish to take Social Science as my subject, but father makes me take Maths or Biology. I couldn't argue, because I was already holding myself from revealing any tears, and over that I didn't want this to escalate and get turned to some sort of fight.

My brother is too young to understand this stuff.

And mother supports father with this decision.

I will not take any subject other than Arts. If I don't get by the school's side, then its okay. Then I could take Biology.

Why not Maths? Because my father made me hate it. I remember most of the times when I made a mistake and he slapped me. Or because I didn't speak up when I had a doubt. Did you allow me to express myself?

I'm scared of my parents.

I genuinely am. And I'm sick of it.

I've told about this to some of my classmates. One of them said, "Just cry in front of them. Their hearts will melt."

I mean, I've been hit by a damn mosquito killing racket, by my mum, and she broke it (I genuinely held my laugh). I have been slapped by her for falling down, whenever she asked me to not go somewhere (I was a kid those times), and I remember most of the beatings. They scare me. Make me realise what I did to get that.

She protects me, yes, she does, but at what cost? For getting the same, but just from her, on a regular basis? Is that what I should expect?

Because it is what I have learnt to expect, genuinely. And I'm sorry for that.

I've broken their trust quite some times, I admit, but it was all fear. Of their beatings. Of their disappointment clearly being shown for me whenever they see me. I hate it.

I cried silently that night. And no one noticed. Not that I wanted them to. I feel, it is pathetic for someone like me.

At times, then, I thought that maybe they are saying because my results aren't good. If my result for it won't be good, then automatically I won't be getting Arts. Then why stop me from choosing it?

My father said the same night, during dinner, seeing my quiet face, "She'll be alright again in two days."

You just took a life choice from me!? (Not that I said this to him. I'm a coward.)

So, that's all. Whatever happened. Sorry. For venting it all out here. I genuinely don't do this, but I felt that maybe, maybe someone will read it and shower some pity on me. Pretty pathetic, don't you think?

I wish you all a very, very Happy New Year.

Alastor, is that you in finally a suit NOT of red colour? But that too PINK?

He looks pretty though. Hehe.

The new song 'Gravity' still swings on my heartstrings.

And HELLO? Alastor and Angel Dust in the grasps of Vox? And that battle between him and Alastor?

Many fanarts are no longer fanarts, it seems.

And we'll be able to see Lucifer in his devilish form again! Mua hahahaha!

What about that peek on Alastor's chest? Proves to some extent that it was Alastor who sewed his own face. And we'll also be able to see the extent to his powers, along with Vox's as they fight with eachother. Seems like a while lot of destruction followed with it.

And excuse me.

Was Valentino always so good at art?

The way he made Vox, with his chest exposed and that pose- has he ever seen him like that?

And wasn't it being said that there would be some sort of relationship between Alastor and Lucifer?

In simple words,