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The 5 Stages of the Relationship Cycle

“One day you’re going to wake up and be 75 years old- that’s a fact- and you’ll hopefully have grandkids and they’ll be at their own houses a few towns over or across the country or in their dorm room or at their girlfriend’s house or wherever. And they’ll be doing all the things that you’re doing right now except with whatever new technology they have in 2069 and you won’t even remember what it was like to be that age- the age you are now- hopefully because the more recent 20, 30, 40 years were more important and meaningful. But the fact that almost every single memory in your mind right now will be replaced with thousands of new ones is still terrifying. Right now that night you remember so clearly, drinking strawberry rum out of teacups at your college boyfriends apartment… Gone. Replaced with one of that time your husband tried to blacken salmon on the stove and you came home to all the doors and windows open, smoke detectors going off, and him chasing your dog around the yard in his boxers. And I can’t promise your new memories will be better than the ones you currently have, but the simple, hopeful fact that they can be means we have something to look forward to.”

““I love you, but you just make me so sad.” She whispered quietly enough to not wake him. “And I so badly want to go back to the way things were, but every time I look at you now I feel little edges of my heart cracking apart.” She kisses his chest with the next words, “I love you, but I have to love myself now.””

“I’ve cried enough oceans for you.”

I am a hard person to love. But when I love, I love really hard.