life is a shit show

I wanna spend time with you. But what’s the point when you don’t want. You say what’s the point. The point is i love you and want to spend time with you. I just want to see your face and listen to you talk about your problems and worries. But i get it i’m a bother and i talk to much. I get it trust me i’m a lot to deal with but i just want to know what’s wrong.

I keep writting these storys as if he will see them. I keep waiting to see if the account is active as if that matters. I’m writting to get rid of theses memorys of you i keep trying to put ink on the paper as if the ink will absorb the pain from my veins.So if your reading know that ive moved on. I still think about the small things but i think everyone does. So im telling you have fun reading my post but you will never know whichs one are meant for you. So i can’t wait for you to see this 

i love you 

myself

I'm dating this really good dude. He treats me so good like I'm his precious diamond in the sky. He legit makes me so happy but why do I feel so bad being with him. To be honest I’m kinda a shit person. But being with him makes me feel that there are all these other girls that need him more than me. But then it high-key pisses me off that I’m thinking that way. I start thinking that maybe he should just leave me because of my thoughts, I’m probably the only “ human” that thinks right?